rushin dae..

was kinda shacked todae..slpt at ard 5.30 in the mornin to finish off my stuff...at least all done liao..
aft dat enen came over to do her vid...did qte a long time plus kip rainin cats n dogs..feelin abit frustrated n listenin to heavy music...
we finish everythin by 3 plus..which is super late den we 2 juz rush off to boon lay..even took cab thr..at least submit all my docs liao..everythin done..my mind can b at ease le ba
met up a while...sae the truth la..hurt lo..ya..
went to jurong east to mit up weijian n his friend to sing ktv...needed dat last min..need to release sum stress..luckily at least dat period i was feelin fine..did cheer me up...
hate dat journey hm..seriously i hate it...feelin horrible..wadeva...i will juz do wad u wan ba...
feelin restless...tomolo helpin auntie..i wana hang out tis wkend oso..get myself busy...jiayou

i cant escape fate

tis is so ironic..amin ago...i was feelin blissful n tot otherwise...wel well..if i nv pop up the weird question..guess i will nv noe ba...am i cursed or sth??dat all guys will treat mi as buddy...cuz it seems dat almost all r turnin like tis..used to it? yea..probably..im tinkin mayb im a guy in recarnation...cool huh...
im so gettin sick of tis game of wadeva...is stupid...n senseless...n it mks one stupid too..i tink..judgin frm the many cases i hv seen...
i will live my own life...n juz let nature tks its course...
n stop all those fat hope tinkin...
ya...

last dae at wrk..

thr were tings to do todae for wrk..which is gd..i dun hv to slack my time..but was drop dead tired aft last nite..slpt at 2 plus..cant barely open my eyes...n dozin off while doin wrk..hopefully thr arent much mistakes..
was abit fan bout my vid but luckily borrowed a thumbdrive n was able to finish mot of my wrk in the office...haha...
perm staff were realli sweet..they treat us to teatime..is nth ex but was realli touched...guess i will realli miz them lo...
im in great pain..yeap..the cramp n havin sum horrible backache...urgh..had to tk cab hm cos i coud no longer walk..jialat sia...
hope tomolo wun hurt animore
well...finish croppin my pics..n almost done wif the video..nw is juz sum editin n sound effects..den burm them..den finish liao...haha....
jiayou sia...goin ntu tomolo...n mayb ktv..dun wish to hang out too late tomolo..paiseh to hui sia..i c my timin tomolo..mayb lastmin change...
hv been tokin quite a lot..yeap...thnx for helpin mi relac....was too tensed up..

worn out n stressed...

tis 2 daes hv been hectic for mi..worryin bout my deadline for my design stuff m everythin..im accepted in sim yet sch is openin at may..n im waitin for ntu..sickenin shit la..i realli do hope i can get thru ntu which is much cheaper n my ideal sch lo...wish mi luck ba...
well.at least im more or less done wif my filinin n everythin..nw is juz compilin...urgh...faster finish tis n at least let mi tk my breath..
wrk is as usual except tomolo will b my last dae thr..contract end liao..tink rest a while den muz faster go look for jobs liao...guess i will miz tis short wrkin daes..quite slackin ba n the ppl r nice thr lo..mk dozens of new friends...
juz nw aft wrk met up wif francis...haha...look diff frm last time liao..abit fatter ba but tink still look nice..haha..veri shy like dat..but aft dat ok le la...
was feelin quite f*** up..stressed by parents naggin...wrk..uni...urgh..wadeva....
stupid earthquake again...killin like thousands..hate dat..mopther nature pls stop dat...its realli cruel...
god bless..

walk a lot...

afternnon met up wif bee to tk pics n vids todae...cuz hv to pia liao..deadline n haven realli tken sum gd stuff...urgh...
so we walked ard orchard n tk several pics...veri hardworkin wor..haha...while tkin stuff..finalli settle on sum simple stuff for my vid..tink it shows of mi ba....i oso gt tk ppl..hmm..quite tough sia..cuz i dun wan dare to notice ppl tkin them..so when they look..i will act tkin sum other stuff...had fun actuali..thru my camera..saw other stuff dat arent dat significant..cool...
aft orchard went chinatown...was supposed to bring bee to buy sum realli cheap cds..end up i cant remember whr is the place...hmm..bee sae i lu mang..hai..im nt dat bad la..bleahz..haha..we walked to shenton way..leg damn tired..n on the way we went siao tokin..2 crazi women..haha...
had sum ger tok at china square...tink is realli nice..pulls our friendship closer ba..
head off to clarke quay den....thr veri nice wor..nt as complicated as wad i tot..mayb is becuz the nite is still young n boat quay has more pubs ba..lightin was veri cool n nice...haha...saw a lot of couples at those quiet spots..mk we all 2 veri weird but at the same time abit envy ba..haha...tink thr veri romatic sia..haha
leg was achin..den headed hm
felt kinda gd cuz at least i tink i tk sum ok shotsa todae n more or less done wif the shootin..tomolo goin town n tk a bit more..den can faster do the editin n the rest of the wrk liao...jiayou..muz finish latest wed ba...my own dateline...

fun...

tis 2 daes r quite packed but ok to mi..muz admit i enjoyed myself thoroughly on fri..gt sum gd advice frm designer person en dad noes...
den met up wif wing n the gang..gt sum problem reachin thr on time..in the end..en n mi went to sing first..had our time thrashin out sum songs..
den dey all cum..i had fun la..everyone is ba...sing to our hearts content..guess i still need to brush out a lot sia..feelins n style..muz jiayou hard...
heard sum realli gd singin near the small pub nearby...thr r realli nice..practically melted again..haha...always meltin huh..hmm..but one thing is for sure..no matter wad..singin juz rules....
had pasta..hmm.first time nv eat finish...den walk ard b4 we 3 head hm..mi,xuan n hui..we were like singin on our way hm lo..had a lot of fun..cum hm oso siao diao like dat..haha..
todae woke up earli n went sch help my mom deco her cls...mi n hui wrk hard...ya...the pins r hard to attach onto the board lo...tot is was runnin kinda late but still managed to finish our bit ba..hope mom cls can win sia..haha..our effort lo...
ate den took cab str to harbour front den go sentosa..weather was coolin...mei was hangin wif friends while we 2 walk ard n tk pics..was paddlin at the borders of the 'sea'..veri comfortable lo...cool relaxation...den we juz sit at the beach thr while the wind blows..seriously dun even feel like standin up for the moment lo..lol..too bad..starts rainin...wana play vball but dun wish to get drenched lo..played a bit when the rain was smaller den starts pourin again..
when the rain finalli stops its nearin evenin liao..we did all sorts of silly stuff wif wing's friend...diggin the sand n buryin our legs into it..haha...
den went to play vball a while..mei hand pain..so aft dat went to rest while mi n hui had a game wif sum grp of gals..realli sweet ppl..guess i haven been playin for sum time liao dats y...i play until my hand a bit swollen n the bones ache...pain sia...
went to harbour front walk ard...haha..bought a skirt..cant stand in..tink the skirt is rather cool...den oso bought a ring..ironic sia..was feelin kinda broke but im still spendin....realli miss shoppin sia..haha
came hm feelin all zonked out n stressed when i felt dat i haven realli accomplish anythin...my pics arent satisfactory...vid nt done...n im feelin desperate..tomolo muz pia liao...jiayou..muz finish b4 deadline sia...
was tokin n felt much beta..thnx ar pal...
hope i can pia as much as possible tomolo ba..jiayou loads..

hazy dae...

wrk half dae todae..luckily sia..or else i will b bored to tears cuz realli nth beta to do lo..given veri veri little tings to do..finish it b4 10 lo..den was juz slackin n uploadin music in my com..super sian lo
went back ny mwif enen...hmm..juniors cant recoginse mi...did i change dat much??..ok wad..den mit up wif sum teachers...aft they r done wif the appraisal tingy...we 2 walk ard n took pics...hmm..tk a lot todae..so hai hao lo..hehe...gt sum achievenment
came hm n start practise my singin..long time nv realli sing well liao...if dun practise will rust sia....tink i realli nv use much of my diaphragm which is bad..usin sum throat voice...muz learn to project more sia...
tink im hvin my pms rite nw..sayin the wrong tings n feelin all wrong...is like kip changin my mind..i oso duno y suddenly becum like dat..damn fickeminded n horiible..hope i didnt piss ppl off that badly...had a disagreement wif mom..i tink i will try to change my timin..aft all she is my mom...
wad i was supposed to b feelin..i aint feelin...is juz like last time...dun feel like tokin..history is repeatin itself again...n usually aft dat will end off as juz gd friends...sum emotional tingy i noe..but sumtimes i will realli feel dat guys shd b more initiative n nt the other way round..n im startin to compare a lot..y is nt sensitve at all..y nt as considerate as sumone else...urgh..wadeva...
tomolo goin to mit wif sum designer guy to c our idea for video..hope can get everythin done real soon cuz dateline is approachin..great..finalli ktv tomolo..finalli can unload all my stuff n frustration dats inside mi...guess i may juz sound awlful..wadeva...

........

wrk is the same..juz dat mornin is more occupied which is beta..i loaded a lot of songs into my com again..haha...
en wasnt in gd mood..sowie for my bluntless...i will try to tink more de..den afternnon watched meangals n ate my panda cake..haha..gd relaxation...
watched princess diaries 2 again..love dat show man..todae like couch potato lo..did tk sum pics..so nt dat bad...
wasnt in a too great mood...kinda pissed off n nt feelin gd...mayb pms or wad..but im nt feelin wad im supposed to b feelin more n more..sort of losin it...wadeva..
i will juz engrossed myself in my ktv seesion n beach session on sat ba..
n jiayou for my design tingy
goin back ny tomolo...lookin fwd to dat

sian sian sian

sian is the onli word i can describe my dae..woke up late n realli worn out cuz was late chattin..can onli blame myself la..but did njoyed myself..
wrk was sian..onli little wrk is given n den i was left to do my own stuff liao..even watched white chicks cuz i was 2 sian diao..luckily nv gt caught..
im pimplised lo..pimples growin..urgh..hair oso longer liao..feel like cuttin but i wun..wan my hair longer den nice...haha..contradictin myself liao..
xuan friends were ard...had sum excitin time lookin at val play the cheatin game..haha..was damn tired so went to tk a nap..den cum online..busy sia..haha..thnx yanling for helpin mi edit my stuff wor..xie xie...
felt dat we were driftin apart fast..i duno..juz feel a bit distant for a while..like so near yet so far kinda feelin lo..guess its due to u busy i oso nt dat free ba...wadeva...let nature tk its course..
lookin fwd to fri n sat..cos will b hangin out..thurs tkin half dae off to go back..shun pian tk pics...1 down still gt 2 more..more tedious de..jiayou..

hmm...

y do i still feel a surge of pain..tot i hv gone thru dat liao...but y?? gt dat kind of sense of simple happiness tho with dat pain n sadness..mayb is u ba..forget bout a lot of tings during that short converation..cant like dat sia..muz learn hw to put down liao..seeing the person being surrounded by happiness and much beta..gt mixed feelin but muz b happy for the person liao..
learn hw to put down all ba...n look fwd..

another boring dae..

had a terrible headache when i woke up in the mornin..was even feelin more disturbed when those mosquitoes start suckin my blood..damn itchy..
was in a horrid mood..probably due to monday blues...i dragged myself to the mrt station..had a pleasant surprise ba..saw lynn n meiling den we head off together lo..had fun chattin la...thank god for that..did sum wrk assigned me...i was dozin off for almost the whole morning..cant barely open my eyes...so i did wrk veri veri slow la...tho nt much...still finish everythin by 2 plus to 3...den i start crammin for my essay...n plan my stuff..luckily i gt bring my archie comics..so i slack a lot aft finishin everythin...eat again..will try my best to cut down de..haha...chat wif enen..had our own q n a session,i can onli sae we both loves imagination...haha..took a short nap b4 leavin..den mi n enen start tokin at outside wrk place..long time nv chat like dat liao lo..haha..
no more you'll be the one liao...miss that show..feel so sian..like nth to do lei...came online early den yeap..finish my draft liao..find it kinda short...but can concentrate on pics n video liao...aim is to finish by tis wk...mayb thurs ba..fri n sat wana go out n play..muz relac..i need dat a lot...jiayou..

go temple

last nite hui came over to stay...had great time n i was on the fone till abt 2..enjoyed my time la...
mornin went temple..tho tired but was in a quite ok mood ba..i was especially hungry todae ba..kip eatin like a pig..tink i realli muz cut down liao...jiayou sia...help translatin words to a gal in my grp todae..she a bit deaf..so i hv to write to her wad the others r tokin abt...feel happy frm within..n i realli do envy her in a way..she is realli cheerful n postive ba..tho is a silent conversation btw us but i enjoyed my time spent wif her...
tot todae the cls nt bad la...nice movie n taught us to b strong frm within ba..guess we r realli fortuante lo...n i dun wish to b another living dead...i wana b a living living person lo..haha
wad i eat todae..2 pkts of chee chong fan with swee gui..den lunch eat rice..den soon..eat ramen for dinner again..scary rite..goin to control myself tomolo..scary appetite..came hm den busy..lynn came over to register..den rite aft she leave..xuan pei mi go walk ard downstairs to tk pics..suddenly feeel veri sian of doin all these..dun feel like doin..but at least muz try ma...tok to yih..feel a bit lost again..guess she is rite..i hv been blurn lost all the way..nt realli dat certain on wad i wan ba..but guess nw i shd juz focus on finishin everythin..den sae hw lar...heck liao lo..wads done is done...cant b indecisive liao lo
tok to sum of my other friends..hope wad i say will b of help ba.the uni tings..
goin to wrk tomolo..sian n veri sian...guess for nxt few daes will ju8z rush hm aft wrk to clear my tings...den fri n sat can go out n siao diao ba..so jiayou..gambatte jiayi

happy happy

todae went to tk fotos wif bee n enen..but bee came my hse to register for uni first...haha..bee oso help mi choose clothes to wear..haha..den rush to hougang to mit her friends n hv lunch..nice chattin..
den went orchard n start tkin sum abstract kinda fotos..tink we all quite serious lo..haha..but nt long batt flat liao..so we ended up walkin ard in fareast,bought a brown nail polish..quite nice ba...heard a lot of screamin at level one so went n tk a look..in the end everyone is waitin for wang lee hom..haha...so in the end we all 3 wait thr for wang lee hom...wait for one hr..but i dun mind..den he cum..like walk past us..veri veri near wor..he damn shuai lo..den oso tall..ahh.....
aft dat stay ard..a lot of ppl thr lo..so i kip tryin to peek thr the mani ppl n c thru the small window..aft tryin a lot of times,i ended up standin sumwhr near n juz listen to his voice..god...he gt such a nice voice lo..den when he sing..i juz melt thr lo..haha..if gt a bf like dat..jiu shaung liao lo...love his voice...
interestein interview..den went to standby at the backdoor again when he is about to leave..hehe..sae him closeup once again..but im osom pushed ard at the same time la..everione juz follow him aft dat lo..grps of screamin gals...haha..
aft dat mit wif hui den walk ard..she finali bought mi the veri belated present..ya..racer back frm hula n co..is green..tink ish nice lo..we shopped ard..n kip tryin on wif clothes at ebase..gt one damn nice..but 2 bad im broke lo..urgh..den eat pastamania..ok todae..dun taste as gd..stayed out till 9 den go hm..leg veri tired aft standin so much todae..oh ya..we took a neoprint todae..realli had fun tkin todae..veri nice...haha
still yet to finish my design tings..still gt eveiting la..tomolo will tk pics..den ltr write my video draft n essay ba..sick of crammin essays sia
tomolo goin temple..hv to wake up earli..abit sian.. but hope i will njoy ba

super sian again

wrk is super sian..mayb beta than yest a bit ba..feel kinda bad todae..overslpt den juz gobble up the breakfast mommy made one..nice la..2 bad cant realli njoy it..mornin was still fine..gt sum wrk to do,n chattin wif a perm staff..he juz gt back frm tw..excited bout the trip still..oso gave us nice nice sweets frm tw wor..haha..nice..
whole afternoon i was slackin..readin archie comics..den watchin jay chou live concert..haha..of course softly la..appetite has been increasing lately..like pig..had sth nice for lunch..den by 3 plus..im cravin for food again..went down wif yuehwa to buy food..haha..sandwich n orange juice..healthy..she is still amazed by my huge appetite tho..haha
came hm str aft wrk..den read the seventeen mag...a lot of nice clothes..but quite ex lei..i wana shop..urgh...watched princess diaries right aft my dinner..so niceeeee..love it...so magicAl..if can mit a guy like dat..i will b like wow lo..haha
den watched the last episode of the you'll be the one oso..nice..all the happy endings..sweet...feel hapi lookin at happy endings sia..haha
sian..still got to do deign tingy..n worse i dun even hv a idea on wad to video tape..kinda fan bout dat...feel kinda lost lo..
tomolo doin the design tingy oso..luckily doin wif friends..so shd b fine..haha..juz gt myself a veri ke ai godsis..call wingyin..haha..hapi...
mi muz continue jiayou..sure can de..

tinkin...

juz had a chat wif dage...xie xie...im goin to listen to u..tink is the best choice nw..dun rush in..but noe each other beta first..mayb another 1 or 2 mth den c hw it goes..its nt the time but whu the person..ya..dats wad grace sae..guess i hv to keep in mind dat i muz noe him beta first den can sae anythin..nw is still earli..is oso a test among us ba....
so muz rember sia...in case i get too emotional at times....was damn impressed by dage love story..haha..romantic lo...dage muz jiayou wor..mei will support u n grace all the way de....
thnx dude

super sian...

wrk is super sian todae..cos i gt nth to do at all lo...urgh..first ting i reach office is go cafe downstairs to buy food...tot i eat a lot lo...den read newspaper..den wait for tings to do..but to no avail..in the end i go to tk my colleague wrk n do..cos too sian liao...i finish all my stuff ny 2 plus..den start slackin...try to slp..den play wwif the paint..cos nth else to do liao...or stone thr..urgh..tomolo goin to bring stuff to read or watch liao..dun wan b so sian..feel so rotten
came hm right aft wrk...den juz sit n watch tv..gt sing my karoke..juz bought the she karoke dvd..haha...can sing liao..den watch the 9 pm show..you'll be the one..ya dats the name of the show..tink im addicted to dat show..tink veri nice n sweet lo..so ke xi tomolo last episode liao..muz rush hm n watch..haha...
heard dat nxt fri is gd fri..yeah..can rest..i wana go shoppin liao...haha..n sing ktv..
sumtimes i reali duno hw my mind wrks...sum time ago..i was tinkin of sth den it was anoher ting...do i realli wish to have it..or isit juz influence...i duno lei...tink i beta juz let nature tks its course..dun get stuck at one place without movin..n remeber i muz depend on myself de...so jiayou

busy dae..

wrk was sian as usual...nth to do in the mornin once again..guess tomolo wil b the same outcome de...urgh..wadeva gt money can liao..so ren ba
aft wrk went to ktv at cine..startin veri malu..went to the wrong level..didnt noe cine upstairs gt kbox oso lei..wingyin friends all veri ke ai...can c dat they r havin a lot of fun n they realli do like singin a lot ba..energy level veri high wor...haha...i had a great time tho is nt a veri long time..croon off all my stress n fan nao...so hai hao..n hapi...haha..mk a lot of friends oso ma...
aft dat went to amk to mit up wif hui..she is dyin to go swimmin lo..so cum my hse..aft i had my quite late dinner..den went down n swim liao..haha..actauli nt veri gd like dat la..but mi tk it slow la..it realli distress mi la..feel veri shaung..mayb shd do dat often...
todae busy but hapi lei..hope everytin goes well for mi ba...
n to grace ar..happy bdae to u....19 liao lo..haha..will give u bdae present soon de..muz wait hor..haha

worn out

wrk as usual..was slackin the whole mornin cos no wrk is assigned to mi..bought sum breakfast n slack all the way till ard 10 plus close to 11 den finalli gt tings to do..haha..was dozin off in several occasions..hopefully nv get caught ba..
recently hv been gorgin myself..duno y but kip wana eat n eat lo..jialat goin to b piggy soon liao..haha..
continue wif my daily routine..heard frm colleagus that bugis street n the mall itself had a lot of great buys..i wana go shoppin tho money is abit limited..if i tk part the singin sch..den nt much liao..confused over dat...
had sum conflicts wif a friend..dun quite understand wad r u tinkin..can mk mi hapi den damn sian n sad..den okok...gt thru my whole emotions in juz one dae...interestin n tirin..in case u duno...seriously i oso dunno wads in my mind..guess i realli gt too much stuff dat i gotta conquer b4 actualli accomplishin anythin or else everyone wun b hapi de..gd friends is the best ting nw ba...
goin ktv tomolo for a while wif my newly found friend..realli cute sia..haha..hope i will njoy myself ba..

went out whole dae...

todae go wrk..doin sum stuff dat is quite diff frm last time..write letters..quite tirin la..den aft dat rush to cine for movie wif jarrel dey all n hui...cant even settle down lo..actuali quite tired de...was late for the movie..started liao lo...
watched hse movin castle..nt the movie i initially wana watch..but tot is quite nice oso..funni n touchin..the guy inside veri shuai wor..tho is anime..was kinda touched by sum scenes la..but glad dat it is a realli nice n hapi endin...haha
walked ard cine..den decided to eat sum jap food..den walk to heeren...haha..jarrel friend veri ke ai..glad dat i noe another friend ba..den tk neoprints..haha..veri veri fun..njoyed myself ba...den continue walkin ard..b4 jarrel friend left firstwe 4 continue walkin again..look at clothes n everythin la..ya..orchard like dun hv mani ppl like dat..so deserted tho is 9 plus...so weird..leg damn pain..everytime go out duno y juz kip walkin n walkin lo..hhaha..walk till ard 10 den go hm wif hui...nw in the comfort of my hm..all washed n clean n tired..haha..still gt sum stuff haven do sia..cum to tink bout it..so jiayou ba...mayb wkend go see the music sch or sign up le...muz wrk towards my aim...
jiayou ba

anOther open hse..

went to ntu open hse todae..the jurney was realli long n tirin..sit till my butt hurts lo..hw cum boon lay muz b so far de...urgh...
met wif the rest..en,bee,zixin,jingxin...den we went jurong pt eat lunch first..had a realli heavy one b4 headin to ntu..took shuttle bus..we first walk n browse ard..den went to the outdoor pat..whr i saw my mom's student..help her by signin up sum stuff la..was fascinated by the ppl singin on the stage..thr r damn gd..both the guy n the gal..duno y hw cum they can sing so well..they even speak like sum singer lo..wow...was practically meltin when they r singin lo..haha..
aft dat we continue walkin ard..look at the humainties part..tot it was quite cool la..the courses..hope can get in wad i wan de lo...haha
aft dat went for their tour bus tingy..tour round the sch..sch ish damn big lo...love their yunan garden..quite romantic..haha..den their other faculties..oso went down to c their hostels..wow..quite cosy n nice lo..it will b so fun if a friend stay thr wif u..if can go thr..mi wana stay in hostel..haha...surely veri fun de
left the campus at 4 plus..den went to walk ard jurong pt..nt bad lei..gt quite a variety of stuff thr..but ke xi..abit too far liao..was shoppin ard..hopin to get a bottom...was tempted several times..skirt looks quite ok on mi..abit ex..i tot..den head back to bishan for dinner wif hui..we were standin the whole train ride to raffles place lo..leg hurts n sian...
bought a cool ebase bottom while waitin for hui...n is under the discount..tink i made the right choice of rejectin my choices of toher skirts ba..haha..ate ding tai feng..hehe..realli noe hw to njoy life ba..haha..da pao for xuan n rush him b4 she die of wif hunger..haha..
was tired but crave to sing..took out my karoke vcds n start hummin..mi wana go ktv sia..miz dat...urgh...
gt wrk tomolo...sian..still gt sum uni tings n design tingy to do..gettin lazy liao lo..haha..muz jiayou sia..

tired dae..busy but satusfied

mornin went to tk money out and mk my own atm card..didnt earn too much tis mth cuz onli wrk for few wks..finalli gt my own atm card..but scare i will spend my money veri fast..muz save for rainy daes sia..
went to clementi for the SIM open hse..waited for en for almost one hr...tired sia..went to SIM ltr..place nt as bad as i tot but nt dat crowded and popular like nus..register for my course...nt goin to let go of ani chance nw..tryin my best for every uni..feel much beta nw cuz at least one is done..still gt 2 more..haha..jiayou ba..
went to orchard n mit up wif xuan they all..took neoprints n had fun...haha..long time nv do dat liao..hehe..den went ard shoppin for a while..bought a tee..abit tight sia..tink gettin fat liao..muz slim down first ba..haha..
went hm n start mkin my nails..haha..nth to do n feelin quite tired..put the stickers..hope is nice ba..haha..abit sian of writin essays..mayb tomolo den do ba..goin to ntu open hse tomolo..at boon lay so far lo...travel veri long sia..but no choice..luckily goin wif a bunch of friends..will continue to wrk hard for my essays n everythin..muz muz go uni...dun wan let ppl down
paiseh mom n daddy..nv realli give u money cuz too little tis mth liao..hope u all wun angry..nxt mth sure pay my own bills n give money one...
feelin quite lifeless nw..probably im hungry ba..nv eat dinner...
continue to jiayou..

oFF dAe...

nv go to wrk todae..was quite drained off recently..woke up late n had a gd chat wif my aunty in the mornin...clear of sum of my doubts..den had lunch n watched new yr min...
had a conversation wif friend...oso duno wad im doin exactly..tink most ppl may tik im stupid n weird ba...but guess wad sl said was rite..im scare to put too much in n lose all my senses..but at the same time..im afraid to lose...kinda contradicting ba...but im juz like dat..quite a failure in tis ting..wana b xtra crful
did essays//gt sum realli gd help frm alex..ya..helped mi edit liao..den like totally change like dat..veri gd lo..dats y get gd results for gp lo..thnx aniwae..feel veri sian when i found out dat still hv to write another 3 essays for nus..wana vomit blood liao..
sort of finish all my stuff for ntu..feel more relived...nw juz hv to edit stuff..left wif nus de..n application for sim...den the deign tingy..den shd b done liao ba..like still gt a lot of tings..but feelin realli sian...
goin to sim open hse 2molo...wana sing ktv...im deprivin of dat...need to sing my heart out...n wana watch hitch..urgh..n shoppin..so mani tings i wana do sia...
daddy bdae todae..so wish him happy bdae..n thnx daddy for everythin...
hope everythin goes well for mi ba..en..dun brood too much bout it...dat guy sux...urgh..

sIanzzz

went to wrk..realli dun feel like wakin up todae de..still dragged myself..luckily dad bring mi thr la..was doin the usual stuff..goin to slp n doze off when my long time no tok didi sms mi...almost chat till i finish wrk..luckily sia...hehe..thnx ar..i finished wad im supposed to do at 3 plus..which is still a long time b4 i knocked off...read new issue of cleo..love the mini skirts thr..feel like splurgin liao..jialat sia..took a nap oso..realli slackin sia..haha..den wope up nwif sum gd inspiration to write my 300 word essay ting..roughly wrote out the draft..tomolo den pia more..esp tk leave to do all tis..or else realli feel so unsettled sia..n oso finalli can rest..tired frm all the tinkin n stress
went wif my huijie..sch of thought friend..n sum of her colleagues to orchard..hehe..mk new friends n tok to them a lot..so hapi sia...saw the mkup course..sounds quite cool lei..but tink i join my music sch den c hw first...haha..went to fareast wif them..saw sum realli cute halter but 2 bad..wear liao..weird weird 1..dun look 2 gd...nxt time go shoppin..the consumerism virus is infectin mi liao..haha...took the same route hm wif yvonne..new friend..realli nice gal..n she doesnt look like her age wor..had a great chat wif her..tok bout almost anythin...we both great tokers ba...tot i will walkin hm alone aft dat..but was wrong..haha..saw my friend whu lives veri near my hse thr de..we tok a lot...realli bubbly n funni friend..had fun..we stand at the road thr den kip chattin till 7 plus..haha..den oso mitin her everidae to go wrk together..like dat wun so sian oso..haha..great..had sum time wif myself..wrote hw i felt in my own diary...feel much beta..hope i can b clear of wad i realli wan
the channel 8 9pm show is so romantic sweet..was on the verge of cryin when the raymond see tell the hao meiman those words..tot is realli sweet..guess im almost but nt totally lik her ba..gt my own prb to overcome ba..
goin for uni open hses tis wkend..so 2molo muz jiayou..do finish everythin..den can feel beta..jiayou..jiayou

tired but ok...

another dae at wrk..zonked out sia..learned another new type of form which is quite hard to settle de..mk mi heachache sia...tot of uni ting..oso headache la..
urgh..
aft dat went out dinner wif friend...ya..teachin mi hw to eat properly ba..proper lesson on social ettiquite..haha..i duno
den its juz walkin ard again..haha..but i dod enjoyed myself la..didnt realised that orchard looked so deserted at nite time..guess everyone is back at hm studyin..i feel like studyin sia...
came hm n faster watched my channel 8 show..tot it was realli romatic n sweet..hopefully tis type of tinmg can happen in real life ba...was tokin to zixin on the fone..thnx for lendin a listenin ear..n cya tis sun wor..
wana write my essays out..but was too tired to tinjk bout anythin for the time being..tink i used up a lot of my brain energy n wave..did a lot of tinkin while goin hm..guess..i realli need to tink over calmly..nt juz any ting ba...
reallli tired nw...for nxt few daes will prob b stuck at hm doin uni stuff..aim is to finish by tis wk lo..so jiayou ba

lOst...

juz a short update of tis 2 daes ba...
sun i went to suntec city for the ntu talk n career fair.feel esp depressed and demoralised aft dat..seems dat i cant even mit the min requirements..quite jialat..i helped myself with a lot of pamplets n all..well..hopin to find sth suitable ba...aft dat cum hm quite tired n sian liao..so nv update...hv been doin essays tis few daes and oso tinkin wad route shd i go to..realli feel so lost..seems dat no uni wun wan us de...:(
mon was like ani other dae..wrk n slp a lot..cuz slpt too late..so damn tired..kept dozin off in front of the com..luckily gt friend sms mi..den i nv slp until too jialat..haha..aft dat went hui hse n eat dinner n teach her abit of chem..glad dat i still remeber a bit...heng ar...went siao last nite...but at least gt my ans la..so okie ba..ya..
todae still realli tired..guess i realli need a long time to heal totally frm my first huge failure..had a conversation wif a friend..n we were like quite freaked out..both of us..feelin quite lost lo..haix..
was realli tired..slpt right aft i bathe...ltr goin to write essay n racked my brains le ba..tonnite gt a lot of tings to do..haix..
jiayou ba...

beta...

mom ask mi to write an article bout ntu in the mornin..sae results bad is oki...can submit like a self intro tingy in ur application oso...
i immediately wet to the webby n start crammin for the essays...seriously hv nth much in mind so ask alex for help...they tis type of ppl realli gt lots of experience..guess he is rite..hv to rrealli tink thru n edit few times den submit will b beta...
was late to mit friend...was stuck on the essay tingy...well...headed str to long johns n he handed mi my veri belated bdae present while he went off to buy food..was a bit shaken when i saw the present..it looked realli real lo..its a kitten in a slpin position la...tot it was a real one..realli xia dao lo...but aft dat gt calm down la..thnx for tis realli interestin present lei...deep impression still..mom even shrieked wehn she saw the kitten on my table aft dat..haha..
aniwae..started teachin sum amths...was abit embarassed at the beginnin cuz su tings forget liao...but lucklily i was back on track..so hai hao lo...heng ar...
u r quite a fast learner la...gt do wad i ask u to do..so veri gd..haha..it was gd time spent la...at least i taught someone n he understood it..hopefully can pass la hor..den oso gt chat...feel much beta den yest liao...tho still abit unstable..
aft dat went n walked ard n chat a lot..everitme chat a lot de..njoyed myself tho la..hehe
met up wif xuan in coffee bean..spend alot on eatin...jialat la..aft dat xuan still eat tako pachi..realli full lo..we walked ard in orchard..ya..bought a hot pink skirt at foxs woman again..love dat..tot it was realli cute la...
came hm n played ard wif the singin system we had in computer..can record singin de..tink i sing still nt enuff projection n feelins..muz improve sia...
start wrk..wrote essay for uni ting..gt sum helped frm grace..xie xie..still tryin my veri best to pia the essay n give ppl help mi edit..will jiayou de...wrote onli 1 out of 6 essays..urgh...n im feelin veri sian liao..muz jiayou..cant give up...
hopefully gt a uni will tk mi ba

saDdest dAe

was realli nervous in the mornin...called up aunty,n tok tings out...b4 rushin to mit wif huiwen n enen..had lunch todae..n i bought a halter..5 bucks onli la..haha
den met up wif siewling oso..went back to sch to get the results together...
well..overall..our sch sort of improved la..which is gd...mi n huiwen was sittin side by side..n mi feelin damn nervous...im realli scared of my gp...
aft the realli long tok n everythin..den finalli get results...
while waitin n nearin to get results..i started sobbin..i noe it looks veri du lian..but i juz cant help feelin scared ba..
it turned out dat i realli didnt get well...my results realli sux..n i realli failed gp...guess it was juz my own fault for writin it out of pt..tot failin gp was the last ting i can fail..the rest of my results arent dat gd either...all gt d..dat means all 50 plus..was abit diappointed..tot my lep mayb beta abit..chem at least pass la..but all Ds..its like so wad lo...i didnt even dare to c my own results..en help mi c n broke the news dat i failed..luckily she was thr..i was cryin n leanin onto her for sumtime..thnx pal..tho u nv get dat gd results either..i could nt stop cryin..juz feel dat im realli lan in jc..n the principal was right..i hv a high percentage of nt gettin into a uni...i feel dat i let down all my tutors n teachers..esp my eng tutor..he muz b real shocked dat i actuali failed my gp..guess i juz deserve it...feelin horrible deep inside...juz realli pain...
finali cool down a while..n try to browse thru those booths they had..several unis..once i told them i failed gp..n roughly our results..they juz frown..so roughly can c la..dun hv to sae anythin else...
was feelin abit beta..aft siewling n en tokin to mi..thnx to u all..realli
i noe its stupid..bit i did locked myself in thr rm..den cry my heart out..look stupid..but i juz could nt stop cryin..duno y oso...
was watchin tv ltr..did help mi a bit in my mood...den tok on fone wif friend..thnx pal..i realli felt beta...
guess i start to calm down abit liao..so nth to worry...shd b back to my own hapi self soon
hangin out tml..so hope everythin goes well..

i Scare ar...

a bit tense cuz tomolo results will b out...everyone is like tokin bout it..i dun wana hear sia...im sort of prepared for the veri worse liao..if anythin happens..i will juz go to poly lo..no big deal..but i do feel scared la..wadeva
my dae went fine..wrk as usual n sumtimes tok wif the perm staff thr...quite fun la...spend a lot of time smsin ppl..haha..cuz veri sian..
aft dat went out bee n eat at ding tai feng..haha..had a gd dinner..n enjoed myself la..oso gt tk neoprint..so had fun lo..we window shopped..n tok a lot..long time nv do dat liao sia..
came hm at 8 plus..aft i washed up..faster watched my show..haha..love the 9pm show lo..so nice..
dun tink i wana slp earli todae..wana mk myself tired so dat i can dun tink too much ba..eatin lunch wif en n huiwen b4 mitin wif our fate..hope i wun get too sadden ba..best of luck to myself

fUn..

wrk was as usual sian..actuali slpt cuz nth to do..was waken up by mrs foo..haha..mi veri bad hor..fancy slpin at wrk..afternoon den gt a lot of wrk..haha//tomolo den continue to do ba...
was actuali surprised dat my busy friend will cum over n mit mi la..which is gd..cuZ after dat mitin dage n gf for dinner..i dun wana b a bright bulb lo..we chatted den dage join us liao..bought food den we settle down n chat..well..tho the combi is kinda weird..but had fun la..
dage n gf left earlier..den juz left friend n mi...we walked ard n chatted along the way..hv fun..get to noe my friend more beta ba..one more gd friend added to my life..yeah..hehe
aft dat went to potong pasir pasa malang..nth thr de..onli food..so xuan n mi juz bought sum food n eat...missed my 9pm show..sad sia...tomolo muz watched liao..fri is nearin..im gettin pretty scared liao..tinkin of all kinds of bad scenarios...
hope everythin goes well ba
i tink wad xuan sae is rite...shd nt b rash...n walk a step at a time..n i tink i will go another way ba..in stead of stonin thr..n becumim more n more like sum idiot like dat...whrs my dignity n everythin liao...my independent woman side shd cum out de..so ya..goin to promise myself nt to tink too much..n i noe i can do it de..so jiayou

tiRin dAe...

once again..dragged myself to wrk..realli slpy sia...while wrkin..i sort of fell aslp mani times..n my eyes were teary n kept yawnin..veri jialat sia...realli muz slp earli todae liao...tot i didnt do much todae...nt much wrk,spend a lot of time changin the settings n display of my computer...realli too sian liao...haha
veri tired la..drag myself hm...den juz stone in front of tv...help mom mark papers..sianz
heard dat our results r cfm out tis fri...urgh...im o totally freaked out..i noe i screwed up my gp..den the rest..haix...dun c too much hope in my results...well..still hope dat i can at least pass my alevels la...like dat den can proceed on ma
ulcer stilll hurts as usual...feel so swollen tho it doesnt look swollen la.. my entire left side of the gums n teeth is hurtin too..juz nw stomach pain oso...urgh..pain all over my body...hope everythin goes away tomolo ba...lookin fwd to outings wif friends...
dun tink too much liao...juz focus in wad i wan nw..juz let nature tks its course..nt much hope de...so dun put too much hope