Recap and resolution

its the time of the yr again where we recap wad we hv done in 2011 and wad to look forward in the nxt yr.

this has been qte a yr full of ups and downs.

- wrked a lot and really hard in Panasonic and learnt qte a fair bit...really do give me a gd headstart in the marketing line. wad to do and expect. met a bunch of really nice friends and rlly widen my social circle a bit. even get to learn golfing frm my manager..was a cool experience.
left in Aug for a break.
- went to USA and visit xuannie.( is kinda weird for not havin her ard for half a yr) tho it was kinda rush and all but still had a gd experience...was gd to visit the real campus in Buffalo other than just studyin in SIM. travelled to canada and NYC with xuannie + mama + 2 aunties..was a different kind of experience.
- had a long 2 mths break away frm wrk. enjoyed to the bits actually.
*went to help out sy..abit of part time. help papa at his ofc for a short while.
*attend qte abit of temple activities in KL,JB n of sg
*went to Myanmar to help out on temple activities..was a very diff experience..made me start to appreciate of wad we have currently. we r really blessed to be staying in sg - somewhr dat has basically everything and we can live in comfort.
* had loads of random meetups wif gfs - to zoo, picnic, manicure/pedicure sessions n catchup tea time sessions wif friends.
*short batam trip wif xuannie n hui whr we juz nua-ed our time thr.

- started new wrk at BSH. new experience and rlly took me some time to get used to wrkin life again. enjoyed too much in my 2 mths break. nw am still adapting and am blessed to meet wonderful colleagues still. know is kinda a small accomplishment but i finally conquered my fear and took the mummy ride in USS during my 3rd time thr.
- attended one of my close colleagues wedding. was really sweet. and of cos had news of another close friend gt proposed...really happy for them


- just when everything was gg qte smoothly. sth impactful happened. popo passed away actually just last week -20th Dec. was sth that we sort of predicted cuz she is old but it came too fast still. was a crazy shocking news for all of us and it took me some time to accept that fact that she has left. then it was a busy wk to prepare all the arrangements for her funeral. first time get to learn all the nitty gritty parts on hw to handle this tingy.

tho it was sad and all..but during this period, families strengthen bonds. our cousin-ship came back. is like finally all 4 of us r back tog aft a long time and im sure popo is happy to c all of us gd tog. think popo left us an impt lesson - to cherish wadever we hv ard us cuz life is short and we dun wan any regrets if one dae we depart this world.


- last event of 2011. i fell and tear the ankle ligaments. :( so nw im bai ka again..nxt time rlly need to be more careful.

2012 Resolutions
used to have this crazy long list of resolutions for the yr. but tis time ard gg to keep it simple.

- to CHERISH everyone and everything ard me especially my family
- to put in my 100% effort in wadever tasks im given
- to travel as usual with my loved ones
- to stay healthy and have a open heart.

dats abt it....lets hope 2012 will be a better year and another yr dat we can improve ourselves even further. :)

HAPPY NEW YR in advance peeps.

life is unpredictable

20th dec 2011. this is prolly the date im gg to rmb for life. my dearest granny at the age of 94 has moved on to another stage of her life.

it was rlly heart wrenching to c and to feel..prolly the worst feelin ever. glad dat my last words to her is nt sth nasty. whole process frm the dyin process to arrangin the funeral n den the last part her cremation mk me rlly start tinkin abt life n death again.

life is so fragile..so vulnerable..a person can b reduced into ashes in such a short
timeframe. i guess it juz mk me start lto rethink hw much we need to cherish ppl ard us..live the moment n do everythin gd dat do not leave behind any regrets...oso learnt dat we always shd nt keep holdin tings..lettin it go or forgivin is much more impt...

life is short..no pt to argue or b angry over any small matters. wadever dat we hope or wana do..is best to put into actions. to b honest..im still digressing the whole load of incidents..so much to digest n tink thru..but i do believe dat popo will b at a happier place with no worries..no pain.

popo rest in peace ba..

Another phase in my life

yeapp..i left my last job again. I did hope to stay a little longer..that was the plan but yeap.... so rite now is a gd time for me to tk a gd look at the jobs that i will be applying..rethinking on hw i can reorg my life again. n since im kinda free, i will rlly wana accept any kind of challenges and try anything that i nv dare to try.

This should be life. i guess.

recently went thru some internal conflict in myself...some things i tot that i should have already moved on was actuali still around thr somehw. is amazing hw long these things can stay in you for such a long time.

i rlly need to move on. no more hesitation.

i need to focus on what i wana do before i get into a new job again
- spend more time wif grandma + family - charity and temple stuff
- hopefully i can overseas to accomplish dat
- learn sth (if cash permits) a skill or two
- learn things frm papa ofc
- disciplined to exercise and read -- have been failing to do dat recently.
- continue singing and singing

i can do it!!!!

1 mth more

another 1 mth more n im back to the jobless status. ( was a rlly short period thr)

mixed feelins in me.
sad cuz im kinda adapting to the environment n establish nice r/s wif colleagues.
relived n kinda lookin fwd to tk tings slow and relook at everythin again.



was gg thru all my old blogposts n i realised dat i actualli set loads of various goals i hoped to achieve.hmm..maybe out of 100%, only achieved like30-40% ba.
guess is a gd time for me to stop procrastinating, stop hesitating and juz do wadever i wana try soon ba!

kinda missed a bit of the good old times when everythin seems to be much simpler and easier. guess this is part of the growin up and rlly accepting responsibility as an adult ba.


need to hao hao jiayouuuu!!!! :)

this is it

yeap..after much consideration. i made a decision and this is it.

cldnt take it much further although i will rlly like to try and challenge myself.

im nt very sure wad is ahead of me.but i hope i can find it soon and find myself as well.

cant wait for freedom to start. :)

running away.

nv felt so scared and worried in my life.

it may seem not like a big deal to anyone.n im oso sick of myself complaining and whining all the time. but im rlly scared to face this..i hate it when i hv to feel so worried and scared all the time..i hate it when im feelin so scared to even think abt dat. juz the tot of it mks me worried.

i dun tink i can handle it anymore..n i totally hate myself nw..im nt myself. n drowning in a a total mess of everythin. although i noe dat im fortunate compared to some other ppl..but im starting to feel dat this is over my threshold..more that wad i can handle.

maybe i tot too highly of myself..i tot i could handle it..i tot dat somehw everything will have a solution n everythin will be ok. but it doesnt seem like it. it has been a few mths more than the time i had given myself to adapt to sth..but is not wrking.

i become a procrastinator more n more.this aint gd. this aint rite.

im juz at a loss.wad happen to my fighting spirit.is like i feel like a loser and failure every single day n is juz disgusting.

i hate to admit defeat seriously. but maybe is time for me to rethink of everything.wad do i rlly wan?wad is more impt in life?

god.y am i still stuck in this mess.hw long more can i hang on to this.

someone tell me.

trying.

everythin is nt easy at all.

im trying real hard..not sure if is too hard dats y i keep feelin stuck all the time.

i dun wish to giveup juz like dat but i dun wana miss out other tings in life too.

life is make up of ur own choices i guess.

another yr older.

haven blogged for ages liaoo!!!!

aniwae..just turned another yr older...tis yr felt very diff..im more worried abt becoming older than the usual excitment..guess when u rch 1/4 of ur life..will start tinkin abt wads ahead of u and ur current status ba...



work is not easy..in fact is difficult to the max,struggling real hard and tryin to think as positive as possible..too many emo and negative tots recently..abit too much until sometimes i feel i lost abit of myself ba...need to go back to the happy go lucky and positive me!!!!!!!! i can do it dee!!!

apart frm the not so happy portion..i felt loved as usual on this day ba...must thank mama for givin birth to me..and taking care of me until so biggg!!!is amazing how much i relied on my laoma and laopa ,ahma and of cos meimei and huihui!!! LOVE all of them to the max!!dunno y recently juz felt more strongly that family is rlly the pillar of everythin. they will be the ones that will go thru thick and thin wif u..



THANKS to all my ke ai de friends toooo!!!!all the fb msgs and smses and pressies....all of u r real sweeet...esp some keep listening to my endless nagging and complainss.. :)


celebrate life. love.everything.

2011 Resolution

Yeap..another yr ended again.
honestly i dun even feel dat a yr has passed..is super duper scary..time flies like siaozz..hhaaa

anyway..this sums up what i hv accomplished in 2010; bascially accomplished most of my last yr resolutions

- spend my whole yr single and available
- maintained my vegetarian status for a yr!!!!! i persevered!!
- slpt in hotel room alone in malaysia biz trip ( for me is big big accomplishment!!!)
- for temple wise, whole team did a short 15 mins video act and advertisement frm scratch - frm
filming all the way to editing. tink we rlly did an amazing job!!
- first time did a wedding collage for close friend wedding and first time to be part of the jiemei team. was fun!
- short trips to malaysia wif the ex ex epson peeps - enjoy our shopping and long gal chat..tink dat totally made us closer tog!! and also ex epson peeps to attend malaysia wedding
- Long trip to Hokkaido wif meimei..tho is japan again but we still heart the place to the max
- did my first photoshoot wif some friends..was very interesting.
- went for my first concert - backstreet boys!!!!
- started my first yoga lesson - trying to be more healthy!
- cut off my long time bob hair to become shortie hair..heee...
- maintained usual meetups wif all friends plus long time no meet friends
- better r/s wif family
- last big ting i did this yr was to quit my old job and start a new career at a new company..much more challenging and different..still dunno if i can handle it totally but will try my very best ba..

It was a great yr and i tried and accomplished loads of tings..tho of course thr are downturns and everythin..im glad dat i survived thru. grew and hopefully be a better person as a whole.

2011 New resolutions

- Put more focus and attention to my new career. cannot be nua and must try my very best to
learn as much as possible. is a gd learning ground for me, im sure will grow alot here!
- enen and me set a goal of reducing 5kg within 3 mths..so it means cuttin down on supper,tidbits
and everythin else...ate too much last yr and of cos stay healthy
-Spend more time wif family..still not doing gd enough here..esp wif popo side
- USA trip to c meimei graduate
- Stay positive and optimistic and continue reading more bks..i keep reading and stopping at the
same time..must improve at this area
- Continue to stay in contact wif all my lovely friends
- stop procrastinating and learn hw to makeup..hahaaa..
- Continue to make donations to non profit org
- Try to sing more this yr..esp go to lessons more if possible..haven train a lot last yr
- Hopefully JJ lin concert this yr
- Be more confident..juz be more daring - it is somehw within myself somewhr
- Save more $$

im looking fwd to all the challenges and interesting events dat mite happen this yr!!! hao hao jiayou again this yr ba!!!!