Thursday, December 30, 2004

GoD bLesS thOse wHu suFfFered in EarThquAkE

hmm...juz nw juz saw the news..heard dat a lot of ppl gettin killed..realli hope dat tis earthquake tingy will end soon n there will b lesser casualties...hmm..goin to sum volunteer tingy 2 help the earthquake tingy..hope can at least help a bit lo...everyone pray hard for the ppl who r in those affected areas lo...world peace ...
well..todae is quite a rainy dae sia..wanted to go to the agency but coz both mi n en r lazy to travel all the way 2 tanjong pagar..in the end juz chill out at en hse..the rain juz kept porin..we were like stranded in the taxi stand..to get sum shelter..but in the end we r wet 2..haha..went to her hse den we 2 stare in front of the computer screen..den start watchin those old old vcds..on bsb n aaron carter..shuaizzz....haha...nth much happen todae la..borrowed the cinderella story todae n juz watched it wof nice..nice movie...love it...realli hope dat my own prince charmin will appear soon ba...so romantic in the show sia...*melts*..haha....hopefully as shuai as the one in a cinderella story..haha..kiddin la...
2molo will go over hui hse n stay over 4 a nite...hope everythin turns out fine lo..hehe

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

~nt bad day....

todae went to kbox wif sum lep ppl...long time nv see them le...hehe...they still almost the same ba..the guys r quite high..n they choose those old old songs to sing..quite fun..hehe...yup...i nv sang as much as b4...have been singin a lot recently...after kbox..zixin n mi went to thomson plaza to ask for jobs in sembawang n poh kim..hmm..sort of first time doin dat...wrote those appliaction shops..hope i can get one of the jobs thr..the atmosphere n ppl quite nice...plus mi nv wrk b4...surely will b quite clumsy n stupid one de....hope i can get through the interviews ba....n hopefully start wrkin soon....
interestin days ahead....tomolo goi to en hse den go agency to search 4 other jobs....fri go gugu hse tk tings..mayb meet wif yue n hui...mayb sat will go help hui in her maths...i tink interview den will b ard the corner..juz wish i can one when the sch reopens or i will b quite lonely le..cuz almost everyone studyin....
jiayou lo...

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

joBless..haha

hmm..seriously i tot i found a job..but yue friend stop wrk there le..n i will b alone..plus the place is quite unfamiliar to mi..for safety precautions..i backed out..felt bad towards the agent but luckily he nv flare up or wad...quite ok...heng arh...
well..tomolo..i will b hangin out wif sum friends in k..after dat will b searchin for jobs..heard dat thr is sum lobang at thomson..realli hope i can find a job in a cd shop..i tink i will love the job..hehe..everidae can listen to music...haha..ya..thurs will oso go for a job search at international plaza..sign up application forms n c hw..i tink i will try to mk life more busier for mi ba..dun wana slack all the time...well..mean time will b teachin my cousin or learnin sum stuff frm my aunite..juz hope i can live a fruitful life...
LIvE liFe To ThE fuLLest!!!

Sunday, December 26, 2004

xMas tIme../fOund a part tIme joB

well well well..haven been bloggin for sum time le...went to stay at my aunt's place n apprantely her hse has no high tech communication tools..like the internet..im crappin le..haha...ya..tis xmas is kinda sian but still fun in a way la...i went to my aunt hse on the 22nd n juz slack at hm...in the nite went to give out presents to my friends..hope they like the presents i bought for them frm taiwan ba..hehe..as hui is damn exhausted frm wrk..we went to slp almost once we reached hm lo...nxt day i begged dage to pei mi or else i will b alone again...we went kbox in tampines..tink the sound system n everythin is nt bad la..nt as bad as wad i heard..but the food in klunch sux big time..the rice is like tasteless n soggy with water..yucks...luckily the session was quite fun la...we dragged till ard 3.30 den left..den walk walk ard...nth much b4 he left hurrily..hehe..ya...btw thnx for the xmas presnets..the perfume smells nice...hope u like the one mi give u..met wif the rest of the cousins n walk walk again b4 headin hm n eat a lot..in the nite we went crazy...sang wif the music..actin like we r singin live in front of audiences...haha...den we started tkin sum clothes n exchangin wif one another n tk a lot of pics..nt bad...hehe..the whole room was like damn messy wif clothes n we took pictures in the bathroom..haha...it was fun...the nxt day was xmas eve..nth much happen..still eatin a lot..met up wif a friend 2 pass sum sweets to her...zixin gave mi a hp chain.it is realli cute n love it...thnx arh..back at hm at nite...auntie coooked a lot of food..n we kept eatin till we r like realli full..den juz sit thr n watch tv..den we went to open up presents dat we bought for each other..all clothes..haha..mine is all no sleeve..a bit skimpy.but i love it..xie le..hui n yue..!!den after a kinda borin countdown to xmas,we drank sum non alcoholic champagne n ate a lot again..b4 hittin the sack
on xmas day..all 4 of us dress nicely..(i was wearin a new skirt)..all of us were wearin skirts n no sleeve clothes..veri nan de..den we went to stroll in orchard..took neoprints..den walk...nt long we r hungry..den we went the din tai feng eat a lot...den walk walk again..i oso shun pian go ask ask for jobs..but the ppl r like quite unfriendly...so nvm le lo...nth realli happen ltr..
on 26th went to kluch again..but the klunch gt no lunch 1...we were like damn hungry but luckily we secretly bought sum cookies in..after that went yue hse whr xuan n hui play wif zhuzhu n mi juz go online n ltr watch tv...at nite we ate a lot again..shit..gettin fat le la....den we went to stroll in the estate to digest our food..we stroll for like 2 hrs...durin the journey tkin note of cute guys 2 la..haha..on the 27th which is todae..came back lo...
n the funni ting is mi is goin back to aunt hse alone again..cuz last min gt sum job in the factory..realli nervous..cuz is my first one...juz hope everythin goes well la..mean time wrkin mi will oso go find sum wrk agent cuz i dun tink i will wrk dat real long oso...but poor mi..the whole time will b alone..noone pei mi...mayb is a gd time 4 mi to b independent ba...wadever happens muz jiayou ba.....
duno when mi will b bloggin in again but the new yr in approachin..so everyone HAPPY NEW YR!!...may all ur wishes cum true..hope my 2005 yr will b juz smooth n nice..n hope i can meet my prince charmin real soon ba...hehe

Monday, December 20, 2004

siAnz day...mk cArds

another borin day at hm...slowly gettin accustomed wif my new hairdo which is gd la...to get myself occupied todae...i took out sum cds ,elva included,n sing my hearts out..besides dat..of course the daily routine of watchin tv..
in the afternoon..decided to mk myself useful by makin xmas cards for my auntie n da ge...ya..guess im out of touch for sum time ba..took a realli long time to finish both..sort of change my style of doin it..use sum bold colours tis time for my auntie..look kiddie though...but i like it..haha....
tomolo guess i will start packin to go to my aunt hse le n wrtin cards ba..yup..will b stayin over there for sum time..mayb doin sum job thr in the meantime..so i guess i wun b bloggin in for sum time le....ltr tis wk will b bz ba..givin presents..hope i can learn sum stuff frm my auntie 2....
well...hope nxt time when i blogged in there r interestin stuff ba...

Saturday, December 18, 2004

rEbOndEd mY haIr

well...juz rebonded my hair....still nt 2 used to it...looks kinda weid for him ba..cos suddenly so straight n a bit flat...jialat duno if it is suitable a nt...cant regret animore le...at least my hair is much neater compare to b4...though mi still prefer the one i cut first time....looks artificial...well at least nxt time me wun rebond again...nw juz hv to wait for my hair to grow back n get used to the present 1 first ba....
btw,nt much happened tis few days...have been slackin at hm n doin nth..still considerin if i shd go to my friends place cos the weather is realli hot....im lookin fwd to xmas though..it is juz like nxt wk n i can go to my aunt place to go crazy wif my cousins le..realli sianz sia...goin to rot soon le....
mi oso hv to b santa claus to give sum pals presents frm tw..haven got the time to do dat yet...all of them seem to b so bz sia...
oso...i feel like singin karoke..haven been doin dat for sum time liao...feel dat my voice is rottin or sth like dat liao...
well..hope sth interesin happenin nxt wk ba....tsk tsk

Friday, December 17, 2004

LifE iS uNprEdicTablE.....

well..feel like pennin sum of my thoughts cuz im rottin at hm..feelin so bored n weak at the same time due to those dosage of medicine..
yesterdae when i juz gt back n went online..my pal told mi our ny pe teacher died in sum accident in new zealand..ya..i tink so..tis is so unbelievable..though he nv realli taught mi..i tink he is a nice teacher n of course a healthy one...n he is like quite young n a supposingly happy trip turns out to b sum disaster...though u nv realli taught mi mr lim..but bless u.....
come to think abt it...tis period of time i myself hv been tinkin a lot 2..bout sum life n death tingy..im scared of death...afraid of it.i start tinkin hw ppl wrks n everythin...do life after death realli do exists or do we as a person will juz disappear...or r we juz empty souls or wad??there r like so mani questions in my head..i dun even noe y am i tinkin all these stuff.... sumtimes tinkin 2 much will bring in more problems n troubles..haixx...well..the most important ting nw i guess is to cherish all ur loved ones n mk sure u dun hv ani regrets in life ba...live life to the fullest.....
btw..mi oso muz start searchin for jobs le...cant keep rottin n tk money frm parents..feel so bad....jiAyOU ba!!!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

tAiwAn^^tRiP

finally back frm taiwan..the six day tour there is fun...sumtimes a bit sian....but all in all is quite interestin la....hmm..to be frank im juz back frm taiwan..reach sg at ard 7.50pm....okok..i will start roughly sayin my whole trip...
first day...reach taiwan at around 3 plus...after all those checkin in n everythin...is like ard 4 plus to 5pm le...den went to walk ard...the popular sogo is nearby so we went in n walk ard...went to giodarno n bought a peach jacket..tink the colour is quite sweet lo..at nite went out wif my daddy friends..eat at sum buffet tingy...there is like 100 over kind of food to choose frm..realli felt like i was in heaven..haha..ate a lot there n was damn stuffed..haha..den went back to hotel le...
the second day..daddy friends bought us to the 'gugong'..sum ancint stuff left behind by the ancient ppl..there r oso like drawings n scuptures ard...quite enrichin la..there is of course a bonus tingy la...gt jap cute guys ard at the same time 2..n we kept bangin on tis same cute one..haha..goin boycrazy liao..hehe...well.anyway we went to eat their taiwan food..the restaurant is quite interestin..we dun drink frm cups but in bowls instead..hehe..the food is cool...we den took the local bus to shilin night market...there is like a lot of food there n of course afforable tings to shop there..bought like plenty of clothes n stuff there...after that took their mrt to the famous xi men ting...there is like a lot of ppl in the mrt..i mean realli a lot..we reach there soon n my nsis n i were like screamin..looks like shibuya in japan...the stuff there r realli cool..all teenagers r there...n seems dat they all dress realli well..includin the guys..im so inferior..aniwae went to bought sum stuff 2..xuan i bought a lot of cds..mainly jap la..wfl...yaya...dat day is realli tirin..realli totally drained
the 3rd day..we spent another day shoppin again..went to tis huge mall..gigantic i shd say...stuff there is quite ex cos mostly is branded..ya..but found tis cute shop which sells stuff that is all pink..atuff r quite affordable n cute..n is all frm japan..haha...yup.aft dat went to another 2 shoppin malls near the auntie hse...ouhgt a cool shoe there..tot is quite cool la..while we r walkin to a reataurant for dinner bought a pair of pants 2...hehe...we went to eat at the restaurant n saw the auntie kids..they all so chio n look like jap sia...haizz..miz improve on myself le..went to their hse ltr on..nice n cosy...
the 4th day..daddy came back frm his businnes trip..we went to the zhong zhen ji nian tang...went to the place whr singers usualy have concerts...saw those sholdiers marchin n sum morwe history tingy on their first president...we met up wif sum daddy friends again n had lunch at sum restaurant..the food is realli gd but it cums wif a price 2 la...den went to wu fen pu..sells a lot of clothes there..so as usual.went shoppin n bought a lot of stuff b4 we head back to our hotel..
the 5th day we went to temple at the mountain...well the raod is realli windin n long...hehe..the air there is even more fresh n shuang...for lunch we ate food there dat is cooked by those wood..taste even better...dats wad i tot la...we den went to dan shui...the yu ren ma tou..sum harbour...the view was great n veri windy n nice...love the weather there..ya...we den head off to another place..but as the driver is nt dat sure of the road..we were like in the car for 2 n a half hours b4 reachin our destination..we bypass our time by lookin at the bing lang xi shi...cho gals...well..by the time we reached the place..all the shops r almost close..left a few shops onli..but they sell those clay tingy dat is quite cool....
the sixth day was the worse....woke up feelin horrible..heachache n feelin cold..well..we r suppose to go to the taipei 101..but once i reach there drink a cup of hot tea...i wanted to head off back to hotel...well was shiverin quite badly..i slept the whole day n didnt eat much...it was beta for a while but turn for the worst...in the end had to went ot the hospital oppostite our hotel..the way they habdle their patients is quite diff frm sg though..took a realli painful jap..dat i tink im a bit allergic 2...gt a lot of medicine...haha...
by the 7th day..which is todae..i felt beta..but was leavin back to singapore le...went to the airport real earli n shop ard...xuan bought another cd n we bought magazines to entertain ourselves...watch catwoman on the plane which is real cool but food sux...
but i was realli glad n touched dat my cousins went to fetch us in the airport..we were like screamin n huggin...well..tis trip is realli quite cool...2 mani other tings happen 2..but my hands r gettin tired of typin...so...signin off....

Thursday, December 09, 2004

shOrt^teMpeReD...SoOn aWay To Tw...

haixx..duno y tis few days a bit short tempered..tend to flare up realli easily..guess im juz tired or wad ba...recently oso dun feel like myself..feel so weird..sum times i start tinkin of weird stuff n questions like life n death...juz feel so weird la...oso duno y hw cum like dat....hmmm..am i maturin or sth..i oso duno la...guess after sum time i will behave normally ba...n i realli do hope tis stupid feelin will pass away real soon cuz i dun feel dat gd...
well...ard 11 hrs ba..mi will be on the plane to taipei...well..hv been hopin n tinkin abt tis trip 4 a realli long time liao...hope everythin goes well..n most importantly we will enjoy ourselves n is a safe n peaceful journey..ya..definitely will b doin a lot of shoppin ba...well..dat means i will go bankcrupt realli soon 2..haha...hv to buy accesories,shoes,bags n clothes...plus souvineirs for my dear friends..muz thank sum of them 4 gelpin mi get through sum real hard times sia..hehe..yaya..sort of packed finish liao...juz a bit dat mi hv to add on in the mornin..thrilled...feel like breathin the air in taipei nw liaozz..hahaha...ok..guess mi goin siao liao le....
wish myself..BoN voYaGe...n a safe journey....
signin off.....

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

rAinY~daY

hmmm..todae is quite a ok dae la..juz dat is realli cold dae n is like keep rainin nonstop...sumtimes realli dread rainy days...cant walk ard that freely..
well aniwae..had a fun dae out wif peiyih..went bowlin..we sort of hv the whole bowlin alley to ourselves..quite fun...n i finally sort of gt the hang of it..tho still nt fabulous la..the results..but it is definitely a great improvement frm last time...YeaH~..hehe..but after dat my hands n arnms realli painful la...yup...after eatin the curry chicken which is damn hot but nt bad la..the taste..went to soak ourselves in endless arcage games..damn fun...we sort of cooperate n join forces to play the dj game..haha...seems dat im sort of addicted to arcade games..hv been playin a lot for these few days liao...haha..aniwae..we went down to chinatown n walk walk..ended up in a macdonalds eatin french fries..haha...ya..aft dat went hm n keep goin online liao...
yup..tomolo mi will start packin liao...thrilled n excited sia...hope my trip to taiwan will b fine n fun..hahahah...
loggin off liao...cya soon

Saturday, December 04, 2004

eAtiN^daY

todae a bit tired sia...cuz yest mk cards n a small present for my parents anniversary..stayed up till almost 3..so damn tired sia...in the afternoon went to sign petition near esplanade there...yup..xuan's friend valerie realli can draw...damn gd sia..her drawings...den went to eat the crepes...stuff nt dat cheap but damn gd...ate like a huge icecream..yup..full of strawberries n other kind of berries..oso eat a bit of wad xuan friend ate..wah...the egg damn tasty..mi juz love eggs...nxt time go muz eat..haha..we were damn sianzz..den walk walk...in the end went to window shop in the esplandae...there r like mani interestin shops...there is one shop whereby u can put cotton into ani ready made teddy bears..n can oso help them do spa...haha...so cute sia those bears...den went to another shop..where all the papers there r hand-made..interestin n creative deigns they have for some cards...gonna steal some ideas to mk cards..haha..yup..we continue lazin ard...den once we walked to the outdoor part...we saw tis woman sellin real huge hotdogs...our mouths start waterin again..den went to buy..haha..eat n eat....oso no money liao le..haha...mi todae oso wore sth diff frm wad i usually wore..wore skirt...sth like japenese style..haha..veri uncomfortable wif it..i hv to sae..haha...mayb can buy more skirts to get used to it ba.....
ya...yue mum sae mi grown fatter liao..heard dat n was kinda demoralised....jia lat...realli hv been eatin too much le..dats y mi try to eat lesser n do sum sports..muz cut down weight..my aim is ard..46 to 47kg...ya...oso sum fats in sum places den can wear more clothes ya..so jiayou to myself ba....

Friday, December 03, 2004

wAd iS wrOnG wIf Mi??

well..todae had a lazy day..went to took my passport in the afternnon den when to tk neoprints again..walk walk a bit..den go hui hse to tk her stuff..haha..went to sinh her karoke system..haha.quite fun though...den went singin to bury all my troubles...haizz...duno whats wrong..juz suddenly feel that my friends r like pissed wif mi by sum tings...im juz nt 2 sure too...but duno y juz feel very alone...like everyone dislikes mi n r pissed...mayb mi is tinkin 2 much ba...duno y oso..juz keep feelin da ge is irritated by mi...im nt too sure oso la..all my assumptions..hope im wrong ba...if im den da ge..paiseh...my other friend oso seem to b unhappy frm the way i deal wif things...im wrong..yup i noe that..perhaps im too impulsive but i gt my own reasons for doin all that...hope my friend understood lo...i was lookin at my hp address book..suddenly felt that my social circle is kinda small..i wana mk more friends n noe more ppl...but juz suddenly felt kinda lost..duno what i have been doin tis few days...feel so not myself...often i really feared of losin all my dear friends...they r my pillar..hope they will understand mi..i oso wish to improve myself in my attitude...a bit selfish sumtimes ba....
jiayOu!!!im sUre u cAn dO daT.....

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

sHuaNg!!

todae went kbox wif da ge n his friends...had fun la..met a new friend call grace..yup..she gt a realli cute voice...damn cute..haha..sang a lot n had fun la..simple outin..den went to hmv to walk walk..but in the end went to eat pastamania n went back to ps to play arcade..damn noisy sia the place..quite deafenin but had fun all in all la...well..the best part of todae is actually watchin idols...both the idols..sly n taufik sang realli well..both nr gd in their ways..sly is the rock type..the other is the rn b type...but mi prefer taufik la..he sang better n i tink he more sincere lo...well..wad i tot is even sly dun win..there will be a lot of opportunites for him..tink can go taiwan to fa zhan cuz he noes chinese songs n i tot he samg nt bad for an qing...yup..i oso prefer the i dream version of his la...but mi votin for taufik..yup..n greatfully...spore chose TAUFIK...yeah..he won idols...damn happi..my sis n i were lik jumpin around lor...den screamin...gd choice....yup..nw still damn high la...
well..overall the whole show juz rox...heard on jan nxt yr gt america idols...dat 1 sure rox 2..so muz watch still...hope season 2 of singapore idols happen soon..so eager to c more of it oso...haha..hao le..had a fun dae todae la..tomolo still goin out..jialat goin bankcrupt liao.....guess mi shd stay at hm more nxt wk...welll..oso lookin fwd wif the trip to taipei nxt fri...yeah!!shoppin....haha..cya soon

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

siMpLe^daY

todae went out wif siewling...went to eat eat first in toa payoh wif her friends first...yup mi gave her the card mi made last nite..runnin out of ideas to mk a card sia..but did it aniwae..thank god she tinks is ok n sae gt improve..yeah...still can mk cards..den walk walk around...saw a lot of ppl sia..siewling pal..dat is quite cute la..hehe..den walk ard in orchard for a while b4 we went to watch the polar express..well it is quite gd though...gt a lot of christmas spirit in the movie...c le feel like spendin christmas day soon...n i wonder if in reality there is a santa claus jiu hao le..we can get wad we wish n hope to have...i realli wonder sia..hehe..well the movie has a simple plot,nt all fancy but can realli feel the warmth in the heart..thats wad i thought..i tink it will be nicer if we watch on christmas day..surely will be better sia...
aniwae...sort of gt the singapore idol tix but parents dun allow us to go..sae there 2 mani ppl will catch a cold..mi noe they have our interests at heart but i tnk it is equally bad to b a bit irresponsible cuz have sort of agree to tk the tix liao lei..haixx...duno hw..realli hope they will juz let us go..there r nt mani occasions when all tis opportunities come by lor...yupyup...tomolo is oso another day out..goin to sing kbox again..haha..went so mani times tis few days le..juz hope everythin juz goes well ba...
hao le...blog in tomolo...

Sunday, November 28, 2004

stRongEr

stronger than yesterday
now its nothing but my way
my loneliness aint killing me no more...
im stronger..
here i go,on my own
i don't need nobody ,
better off alone
here i go,on my own now,
i don't need nobody,not anybody
here i go..alright,here i go...

Saturday, November 27, 2004

coOL*Day

well..yesterdae went out wif tobias n hui n xuan...weird combi ba..haha..startin its kinda weird..all of us feel strange n embarassed..me 2..feel a bit paiseh singin in front of him..weird...but after sum time den ok liaoz...we started become siaoz...n hui started the family tingy again..tobias becum our da ge..im the da jie..den xuan is er jie n hui is xiaomei..n we became 1 family..haha..veri funni...soon we hit off like damn well...like noe each other for years like dat..haha...we went arcade n play the dj game n the drum tingy..veri fun...nxt time muz play more...but the drum tingy play 2 long hand will be pain...hahaha...den we went to eat n went to the bugis..n even took neoprint together......
after our da ge left le...we started slackin,went to starbucks to sit..gt shuai ge there..ahaha..den wait for godsis..dieshu...den eat again..realli fattenin..eat n eat n eat..muz eat lesser liaoz...
tis mornin,send godsis back to america...the airport is like flooded wif ppl though is like damn early in the mornin..den eat again..haha....guess todae will juz slack at home..my leg damn pain..walk too much yesterdae..haha....
will blog in soon..oh..muz thank da ge help mi forget sum unhappy tingy..n try to mk mi happy....haha..xie le..if u r readin the blog nw..haha...hao le..signin off..

Thursday, November 25, 2004

siAnz..buT siAo...

todae went out wif cousins...n my godsis frm taiwan juz came back frm america..n she is stayin over rite nw..which is kinda cool..but too bad..she is quite busy wif her stuff....
todae we went orchard n went to eat the din tai feng for the second time again...the egg fried rice..yummmy..still as good as ever...n the bao...oh my god..guess my saliva is drippin liao..todae is more of like a eatin n lookin at cute guys day for mi ba...duno y so mani cute guys..even the person servin in the restaurant..look quite cute...yup...aft we took our neoprint n my cousins bought their bags..we started eatin again..ate icecream.n sum chicken wif like a lot of pepper on it..damn hot!!..after dat pei hui to tiong bahru to tk the jay chou concert tix...wah lao..is quite front lo..i realli envy her...well...we were lik affected by the rain n oso kinda tired aft walkin ard..we realli dunno where to go..in the end we juz sat at the mrt station...at first waitin for my trip to night safari..but too bad was cancelled ltr..was quite pissed...but suan le..in the end went to tampiness...yue hse..den start eatin again..shit..goin to b real fat sia..in the end we juz watch tv n slack..haha..sianz dae sia....
tomolo muz go swim to cut down my weight..realli ate too much liao..haha..mi gainin weight n more fat liao..so muz sl;im down..haha..or else nxt time cant fit into anythin nice liao..haha..gtg liao..buaizzz

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

fuN^^daE

well..yesterdae had a real gd time out wif xuan friends..went to see the movie taxi first..n had a gd laugh in the movie...plus xuan friend realli funni..so kept laughin most of the time...well..den we head off to eat steamboat...well..though we dun realli noe each other dat well..we hit off realli well veri soon n i tink we r quite a noisy bunch..wherever we go..keep laughin..haha...once we reached the marina bay..they r lik ppl pullin us to go to their steamboat restaurant..haha..we even gt a discount due to the stiff competition..i tink nt bad oso la..gt shuttle bus to send us there n there r umbrellas to shelter us all the way..service nt bad...we ate n had real fun....after dat we went to the arcade nearby n play the dj game..den nt enuff..thoough is like 8 plus liao..we went to ps to play even more arcade games...n trust mi..we realli had fun...haha....
well..totally enjoy myself....lookin fwd to the nxt outin wif them again sia....
todae for is like a slackin dae...juz slack all the way at home..mayb juz eat,watch movies...go n swim..den ltr at nite can go to airport to fetch my godsis frm america...yeah....she finally back for a while...can go out wif her liao..yeah..haha..well..soon most of my friends oso finish exams den can go out wif them le..but i tink i will be bankcrupt soon la...haha
njoyin myself..n signin off liao....buaizz

Monday, November 22, 2004

tiRed buT fUn....

tis 2 daes hv been lik crazi daes for mi..was lik shoppin non stop n hangin a lot in orchard road...oh..yeap..juz had a haircut but too bad cant post here yet...my hair is lik much shorter than b4..n my fringe is oso short le...cant tie my hair lik wad i always do liao...so look a bit diff lor...but hope it looks presentable lor...
2dae went for kbox..sang frm 2 to 7..damn shiok but tired la...lik nv sang so much in my entire life..plus too long nv sing liao..sort of oso sound kinda weird...deprovin sia..haha..muz practise more liao..but aniwae...the aircon is lik damn cold n all 5 of us were like shiverin lik shit..haha...n oso we kept refillin out tidbits..eat n eat n eat..haha..looks like we r realli hungey..i realli wonder if those ppl r sick of us keep callin the service number for more refills...haha..well...at the later part of karoke..we sort of run out of songs to sing liao..in the end we sang all the stupid..n i mean real stupid songs..those children songs n thailand songs...we even chose sum techno remix n switch off all the lights n the atmosphere is realli like sum pub..damn cool...well,aniwae had a realli fun time todae.....haha..tis few daes rite after exam everydae go out...tomolo is another dae out...realli feel so shuang..at least i dun hv to wear dat dull lookin uniform liaozz..can wear outside clothes...haha..well hope everyone like my new hairdo...haha..ok..signin off le...will blog in soon

Saturday, November 20, 2004

im DonE!!

finally..im done..finish the entire trecherous alevels exams liao...so shuang...aft exam went hm to slack den go n fetch my cousin..den sort of party all nite....haha...
2dae oso veri shuang..went out shoppin 4 almost a dae....bought a couple of tings n spent like 40 bucks on clothes..veri happi abt it....den came hm had a nite swim..nice n cold though..lastly sang karoke at hm....but we kept seein a flyin cockroach...but was later killed by the insecticde by my sis...she sprayeed everywhr...haha..nvm...
2molo goin out again 2 shop n change my look..haha..goin totally siao 4 the nxt few daes.....will blog in sum other time lo..
those whu r still havin exam...continue to jiayou worzz..n fight on!!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

3 more to go....HaNg On!

haizzz...nw still in the middle of my alevels..but at least finish the more important n heavy papers liao..ahead of mi is one more wk for mi to mug hard for my maths paper 2 n chem paper 1 n 2...den will be freedom date--19 of nov...den will b so shuang..well let mi update hw is my papers...
for gp..horribly...i wrote out of point n the compre sux..hope i wun fail dat...at least muz pass..tis is the onli ting i hope for liaozz....for lep..i sort of did my best...cant realli sae much...for chem..same tooo..but hope i didnt screwed it..a lot of ppl tink the paper is easy sia...hope can pass lo...for maths..which is todae...i find the paper is nt too easy or hard...kinda lik in the middle..juz hope n prayed hard that i didnt make ani careless mistakes lo...nw is juz like restin time liao..muz rest my brain liao...realli drained off...
for the nxt wk..muz pia hard cuz soon will be my release n freedom dae liao...so muz ren n jiayou....same to all of my friends out there...hang on there!!

Saturday, October 30, 2004

DeAd*mEat!

horrible tis few daes...ish lik i cant realli concentrate in doin finish my revision,keep wantin to watch tv..i can juz stare at the tv screen n there is nth to watch but i will juz b there..dun wana mug at all..guess im gettin realli tired ba...n my mood is like totally horrible..n damn foul..feel lik scoldin anione whu pisses mi off...i guess im pissin my friends too ba...i hope nt...veri messy life im leadin tis few daes..did nt accomplish much..was onli doin maths todae..n i did nt realli finish wad i wana finish too oso..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
nxt wk is already the big tingy yet im behavin like tis..i ought to b banished or sth...all my pals r muggin so hard..n slpin earli..but im still the rebellious 1..dat slpt late at nite...n did nt mug dat hard....i wana push to my limits..but already half dead..realli need anythin to perks mi up.....cant b like tis...
realli hate everythin nw..includin myself...
its a damn cold nite....tryin to figure out wad is rite...wont u tk mi by the had n tk mi sumwhere new..duno whu u are..but i..im feelin alone in tis dark n dirty rm..feelin horrible.....

Monday, October 25, 2004

we're a MIraCle.....

Here we are, safe at last
We can breath a sigh, seems the storm has passed
All our friends would ask us why with all that stood between us
Why did we even try no one know, imagined we could make it
But it only made us glad, we both believed... ooh...

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

All my life, I felt incomplete
But you turned my soul, with your love so sweetly
You hear my thoughts, you read my mind
You're the part of me, I thought I'd never find
No one I know can make me feel like ou do
Hold me and I feel like I can fly...

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

The chance was so unlikely
That we would ever win
Two stars above the heavens
Destiny brought you to me

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

Saturday, October 23, 2004

sLackIn dae....

todae is such a damn slackin dae 4 mi...did nt accompish much...mornin juz watch tv instead of lep...den ltr in the afternoon..went to the salon for a haircut..feel so bad n guilty..cuz alevels is so near yet mi is still slackin..pretty bad huh...well..im sure a lot of my friends have turn into real muggers le...been like so into bks..haizz...suan le..muz jiayou for the rest of the wk le lo
todae oso did sum treatment..it is 45 bucks..includin the haircut..quite worth it though..was so funni..cuz the hairdresser hv to wash my hair but i kept laughin cuz its damn itchy..the salon ppl was laughin along n sayin dat they nv had a customer reactin like mi...haha..so embarassed sia..den aft dat went under the steamim tingy..so hot...n bored for dat 20 mins..in the end i was busily smsin my pals...but its quite worthwhile la...nw my hair is like more smooth n ting hua..bit its full of those chemical smell..n cant wash my hair fopr at least a dae..dats torturous for mi...
haha..den went hm gt mug a bit b4 my tution teacher came...had tuition till almost 12..but we oso laughin n muggin together at the same time la..imagine 2 woman laughin at the top of our voices..haha
todae can sae quite relaxin la...nw online chattin wof a lot of ppl..haizz...muz study hard for the comin daes le..alevels is nearin...so all my friends..i noe u all oso veri stressed up like mi..muz jiayou together worzz.....

Thursday, October 14, 2004

diD* *liTtle

todae wake up den watch tv le..lazi mi..shd b more worried tis time of time...den memorize my lep a bit..den watch vcd again...jialat..keep watchin tv..den aft dat did chem mcq n revise chem...den read sum gp tingy..duno y juz feel didnt accomplished much...n realli lazy and distracted...hope i juz stop tinkin 2 much..n remeber my own xin nian in my heart..cant lose dat tis time...remeber my way of doin tings sia....
haha...xuan's friends came to our hse tonite...n camellia at our hse..realli fun to hv ppl stayin ard..n she kept laughin..which is gd..haha..den keep listenin to music n lookin at their paintings..they realli can draw n paint sia..hope nxt time i can oso learn to draw..i cant draw at all sia..onli noe stickman..haha
tomolo still gt gp tuition which is gd..mayb ltr can hang out a while in bugis....haha..hope the clip i saw will still b ard..haha
haiya..no matter wad..muz mug realli hard le..cant b distracted...muz noe everythin n b prepared b4 enterin the xam hall or i will regret..so da jia jiayou worz....

Saturday, October 09, 2004

tired...tired...yaWn*

todae gt lep mock exam the whole dae...imagine havin exams lik overall 6 hrs..kinda crazi..when i cum hm..juz so tired n braindead..but dun wana slp..instead i watch tv..den sing my fav elva..do a bit of wrk..n im online..haaa...realli lazi sia..alevels is lik comin by in 3 wks time liao..alarm sia...reali scared n worried sumhw..lik a lot of chem i still dunno..hope i wun get a f again sia...nxt wk will be like a terrible wk 4 mi..will b intensive muggin like shit...realli gt pimples n eye bags poppin out le sia...muz pia like shit....as 4 those external tingy juz totally set aside first le..exam more impt than anythin...hehe...
aft alevels muz realli harvoc le...haha
^^signin off^^

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

aLivE^aGain

todae has been a tirin dae for mi..ya..its realli quite late nw le..shd b slpin..but juz feel like writin my feelins out...ya...juz had tuition but it turn out to be more of a consultation period for mi..haha...ya but its still quite worthwhile..had sum pals problems n after consultation...juz felt more relive..sumhw in a way..suddenly feel dat i shd nt tink tings in sum ways..sumhw juz mk mi feel more lost n weird..ya n tired...after pourin tings out...i sort of made a decision..dat i guess will benefit both of us...feel dat will not be sort of tied down n stressed bout it...ya...its wrong of mi to tink in sum tings in sum ways..cos its unfair to the other party...nw i juz gotta mk tings clear..n most probably will go our own different ways ba...
juz felt peace i nv felt b4 at tis instant sia...hope can carry on tis peace for a long time...meantime...oso muz study hard 2...though still gt sum occasions when i watch tv..n slp....haha..so mani tings to revise sia..really muz improve in the shortest time...i noe my friends will be there 4 mi...ppl whu realli cr for mi will be there to encourage mi..so muz nt let them down....
u cAn do It!!!

Saturday, October 02, 2004

buzi daes to cum...

tis few daes realli bz sia...yA..had sum serious friendship problems..but luckily gt a bunch of gd pals standin by for mi..n i now they r truthful to mi...nt fake..seems to mi tis few daes i sort of found myself back..the real bubbly..the talkertive..the carefree..though gt a bit stressed n ya...always have pals ard mi..ya..sumhw felt alive again..haven had tis feelin 4 a long time le...haha..ya..though still felt hurt in sum ways but i guess i will get well in no time...
started to feel stress n wanted to wrk hard 4 my alevels le..cos realli did quite badly tis time...so..realli will hv to cut off my entertainment time n ya...mug hard...dun wish to regret sia..juz gt such a short time to pia n everythin over le..den mi will b out of tis horrible cage le..so muz ren nw..ren all the way...ya..n oso muz try to slp earli..kinda ironic sia..nw is like goin to 2am le..muz train myself to slp earli le...yesterdae was forcin myself to do tings though mi tired den ended up slpin at 2 plus 2..todae..guess i tok too much...duno y tok a lot...gt at least like5 ppl...haha..damn bad..muz cut down on tis 2...tk the fone like faraway frm mi or wad...haha
no matter wad...definietly muz go on..cannot let sum ppl look down on mi n tinks i cant be independent n cant do well...cos mi will try my best to do it one...so jiayou jiayou n jiayou!!

buzi daes to cum...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

thnX....

realli glad n comforted to c my pals writin on my tagboard to encourage mi...encouragin mi nt to give up n continue to jiayou....realli thanks.....
but,mi recently juz still in a horrid n bad mood....sort of forget hw to laugh properly le...results r realli 2 lan..get 2 fs...its like i nv get so horrible results in my entire life b4...damn sad n disheartenin....haix...realli duno wad to do sia..guess i hv to wrk realli doubly hard for my alevels le....plus recetly i tink dat i encounter sum friendship problems...startin to b cold towards sum of my friends le...its quite a crazi tingy..but realli lost trust in dat friend le...hidin 2 much tings frm mi..makin mi feel like im in the dark...as for the other friends...realli duno...guess i cant tink too much le...ltr may affect my studies..but recelty juz found out a friend dat i can realli confide into..n tok like heart to heart...cuz we r sort of in the same boat..haha...same problem..ya...realli glad to had sumone to tok to so freely without any suspcion for the first time durin these 2 yrs..i guess...everyone is so fake and insincere...n i hate dat kinda feelin..sumtimes even feel dat friends may even backstabbed mi....duno wad the world is goin through nw..guess everyone is juz as stressed as mi....realli hv to buck up myself...dun wish to get same results again....
muZ lOok fWd iNstEad oF loOkiN bAck!!!

Sunday, September 26, 2004

HorRid^daE

wad a bad dae....got realli bad marks for my subjects....i swear i did study hard but my results still doesnt show much...my maths actualli gt a F for the first time..wad a disgrace..im realli sad..i studied n practised a lot for maths yet i get the worst grade i ever got..tis so disheartening...realli feel like killin myself after lookin at dat grade...sum of my friends like nv study but get better grades than mi..am i stupid or wad...tis totally sux....my chem as usual i can expect a usual F grade....sux.....now there is sum friends problems cumin up.....suxxxx...

Thursday, September 23, 2004

FinISh^pReLiMs.....

todae is the last dae of my prelims le.....haiz....dun tink i realli did well for my prelims though i did study..probably nt hard enough..sort of hv a last min muggin 4 the lep todae...but the lep 2 is realli tough..my compo oso like has no substance...haizz..dun cr la..juz wait for those horrid results nxt wk...right nw juz wana wind down a bit..rest n relax after those muggin....damn sianz sia..muggin totally sux..els
tomolo goin orchard...so sad enen cant cum due to her curfew tingy...so will b juz me,mag n janice lo...first ting in the mornin is go sing k ba...den muz go shoppin..my fav pasttime..haven been doin dat for a long time sia...ya..n finally can dress myself le..so long didnt go orchard n wear nice nice le..haha...so realli hope mi can njoy myself tomolo sia...
but oso muz remeber nt to lac 2 much cos the real ting hasnt end yet..still gt alevels in like 5 wks time..so nxt wk muz start crammin..everydae muz do papers n study lep till they r on the tips of my fingers sia..haha
contiue to jiayou lo..rabbit*!!

Friday, September 17, 2004

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siAnz n mOre siAnZ

another dae of muggin...been goin through chem todae...ok la nt 2 bad..at least gt practise n gt go through all those notes again..hopefully i can pass in my paper 1 n 2 lo...tomolo will b like a memorizin dae 4 mi..studyin lep...damn tirin doin dat sia....hope i can oso finish studyin well 4 dat..though is abit impossible sia..haha....
yesterdae was a damn relaxin dae 4 mi sia...watch tv 4 like the whole nite...den when reach hm sing my elva karoke...gt time muz practise sia...so can sing beta..haha..luckily 4 its break..todae in quite ok mood..juz a bit slack...guess i cant b like wad i was like to b...a true mugger...due to many factors sia...guess i will go crazi if i do dat...but after my prelims...rest 4 a while den muz start to mug like shit le....dun wana lac behind...muz study well..so wont regret at all..n i can njoy my taiwan trip...n my 6mths hols after dat...damn excited sia..when i tink of dat..sumtimes already start imaginin mi in taiwan shoppin...xmas celebration at my gugu hse...n wan to mk over myself..so ugly nw sia...face is like domaniated by pimples...haha..n my leg...ya..muz cure everythin....haha..tinkin abt tis realli excites mi sia....
but nw muz cum back to reality sia....st least nxt fri will go lac lac a while n go crazi....can try my new outfit sia...but duno gt grow fat a nt sia..haha
hao le....dun imagine le.....muz jiayou 4 my exams..try my best...even if i dun do well 4 my prelims..at least i did try....
keEp swImMin !!

Monday, September 13, 2004

sUxxxx!!!

had a horrible dae todae sia..realli mon blues..had chem prac....totally screwed up everythin...read the question wrongly..forgot an impt procedure....den try to redo..in the end mi redid..but no time to write in..n mi liquid away the old readins liao...jia lat..the rest of the questions sux equally 2....jia lat sia...tis time dun tink can do well le....cum hm damn slack n didnt do anythin...in the end spent sum time tokin wif alex whu continued to comfort n encourage mi...haizzz..den gt tuition....onli revise my maths n cover half of integration sia..dats so little..tomolo will b a horrible muggin dae for mi..hv to finish all maths n most of chem..plus in btw gt tuition...scared cant finish my stuff in time on thurs...realli gotta buck up sia.....haizzz..one more wk n prelims will b over..hv to ren hard le...den hv to mug hard for a's le..definitely cant regret in my a's sia.....
jiayou ba...rabbit!!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

siAnz day...

todae is a veri sianz dae...been muggin like duno wad...but at the same time veri distracted by a lot of things....can't seem to sit still n study...will wander ard...den go for frequent toilet breaks coz gt diarhoea....jia lat..when mi nervous will keep goin toilet....haiz...but at least gt study la.....as usual smsin ppl ard....juz nw at nite almost went totally bonkers due to long hrs of starin at chem....jia lat sia..tomolo is another muggin like shit dae again..realli hope i can go out to breathe the air on thurs..go out buy sum stuff or wad....relac a bit...my voice quite jai lat oso...keep feelin pain the sore throat..haizzz...continue to jiayou lor..my teacher even sms to encourage mi..dats realli touchin....can't let down my teachers sia....
jiayou ba......

Saturday, September 04, 2004

*soB....Sob....*

wad a weird dae for mi todae...or shd i sae a bit bad luck....mornin was still alright...went for lessons...den tis lazy worm of mine starts crawlin into mi....kept watchin tv...feel a bit disappointed wif myself...hw can i be relaxed at tis critcal pt of time....everyone is studyin like shit.....gt a friend who sort of rush hm to study....seems to mi dat she is avoidin mi....a bit annoyed by her actions....haizz...wadever le..heck cr....at nite time...wanted to study at ard 8.30 after watchin tv again...den cum tis horrible stomachpain...damn painful.....cannot even move.....hv to lie str down.....in the end todae onli went through a bit of chem n pats wrk...so much like behind time.....jia lat.....seems to mi dat once i stare at wrk n starts gettin nervous the pain will be even more painful n unbearable...horrible....i wonder if i will go bonkers nxt wk...luckily gt a gd friend by my side.....sort of accompanyin mi....felt better.....sometimes u juz feel so alone n helpless...juz need sumone to tok to....
sOuL*mAtes....wheRe r u??...i kept searchin..but there is nth ahead of mi..everythin seems to be so faraway...away frm my grips....i loSt myself...didnt noe wad i was doin...juz blindly followin up wad is suppose to be in trend...im tryin...tryin hard......but the pain in mi continues to grow each n everydae....realli hurts....

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

cRazi^dAy...

hmm..yesterdae was teachers day...right after the celebration..mi,janice,bee,en,jingxin,tobias n serene went kbox....nv samg so siao b4..rrealli crazi..practically screamin into the mic for most of the songs....sounds quite bad but who crs...haha...guess i was juz tryin to scream away all my stress in this period of prepration....sianz sia.....everyone muggin like duno wad....im muggin 2 but nt as hard...definitely compared to my pals....they so hardworkin sia...mi...kept feelin tired n lifeless.....gettin distracted....jia lat sia.....ya...luckily yih juz nw sae somethin dat mks mi feel much better....she said dat she wan mi go jc is actuali juz wana mk mi realise wad i wish to do in my future nt becoz dat jc is better n sounds better.....i felt more at ease.....but right nw in front of mi...i hv to face tis stack of wrkload dat im tryin to avoid...but at the same time wana force myself to understand all of them..its kinda ironic sia....haiz...wad to do...guess i realli hv to heed yih's advice...to sort my mind..to enjoy studyin..perhaps....mayb can go to the beach or sth to rest my mind....guess she is the onli 1 dat i can sort of tok more to nw ba....mks mi feel better....nw juz gotta mug n follow my schedule i plan lor.....
jiayou le......

Monday, August 23, 2004

toDae suX BiG tIMe...

todae is juz so lousy for mi..everythin juz dun seems rite....bad luck dae perhaps...i can't domy chem prac at the start of the dae...it was so complicated or perhaps im juz too stupid....everybody dun seems to hv a problem wif dat...but i juz kept forgettin the method to use it..i noe the prelims prac r comin soon n im nt a bit ready for it.....n now another screwed up pract for mi....!!!!!!!im goin bonkers le.....the whole cls dun seem friendly to mi at all...everone seems to unfamiliar....seriously i dun feel a bit for the sch...except for lep....everythin juz sux like shit lor.....exams r nearin but i didnt realli study enough..ppl r gettin horrible here..i guesss...some of them become so cold n unfriendly..others seems to trest mi as if im transparent..yes..i hv a lot of friends but i dun seem to feel the same as i was in sec sch..the type of feelin dat im totally welcomed by all my friends..n i am sure dat they will always b by my side...horrible...totally horrible now for mi......
i need to to release myself...get out of this situation...get away frm tis sch.....get away frm all tis fake n insincere ppl.....
F***

Monday, August 16, 2004

tEsTs~sUx!!!

sianz arhh......tis wk gt so mani tests to mug....tomolo there will be a maths tests...so right after sch todae...mi will rush hm to mug like crazi....n den tis sat there will be like 2 tests....(major...in a sense dat there is a lot to memorize)..the lep paper 2 tests n chemistry(the subject dat i sux most)..jia lat sia...summore there r like piles n piles of revision wrk for mi to complete..PLUS my tuition wrk....n of course my own revision dat i sort of can't accomplish....realli goin nuts right nw...so stressed...realli feel like givin up everythin...those stress is killin mi n i am sure as the alevels n prelims r comin nearer..my life will be even in a bigger n messier chaos.....pimples n black eye rings r like appearin more often on my face le......obviously..those r signs of stress....
sometimes...i realli tried doin wrk at hm...but i was so tired n brain dead everytime after i reach hm frm sch.....can't simply start wrk immediately juz like the days when i was in sec 4...when i was the top 25 percent n now.....haizz..the bottom 25percent of the entire sch....obviously...i am like so lousy n screwed up in my studies.....realli afraid dat i can't go to university..it will be like a disgrace to my parents n the entire whole family.....
right now...im tryin hard to study....try plannin a wrkable timetable...learn to be more organised...discipline myself frm all those different sources of distractions......muz realli wrk towards the aim of goin to university or else i can realli imagine i will suffer a terrible fate....worse comes to worse...i will go overseas or go poly...(willbe 2 yrs laggin behind my sis who is in poly nw)...dats so du lian......
daYs fOr mI r gEtTin dArker.....i realli feel dat i lost myself....can't recoginze myself animore..i will look at the mirror n wonder who the hell is dat gal...she looked so haggard..so demoralised....so tired.....

Saturday, August 14, 2004

**cOol n fUn dAe**/hEart pAin

yesterdae went karoke again wif tobias n his friends....of course along wif my friends...especially janice..haha....dat was a realli fun dae..though the karoke session like quite short...(to mi)...keep singin n tryin some songs mi nv tried b4....tobias is still damn pro....he realli can hv his own album lo...n if he gt album i will buy 1..haha...alex can rap the jay chou damn well too....gt the feel..haha...such an enjoyable dae...at least i mk it a pt to b more careful wif my ez-link card tis time....
todae...a realli tirin n sianz dae for mi....didnt do much..juz revise 1 chpt 4 maths n went through organic chem..den tuition le...nw mi is like damn drained....after dat still hv to stare at chem again till mi vomit....hmm...todae is oso like a bx dae for mi..my hp kept vibratin....sms comin...hehe....but it is comin frm my new friend alex la.....he seems to have so mani topics to tok abt sia...haha..oso gt sms ryan...dun expect him to reply...but he was quite fast sia.....haiz...frm the conversation...i reali feel dat we realli drifted so far apart......dats saddenin.. :( but oso hv no choice...he is oso preoccupied wif his poly life...nt as close as b4 le.....
now..realli feel dat i dun hv ani real true friends around le....realli need it....need someone to heal my soul...help mi get through tis darkest times...reallli demoralised n sad..
somebody save mi~

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

TirEd**

todae isn a realli tirin dae 4 mi.....a bit can't get used to sch..sort of like duno wad mi doin in sch....had a realli suckin test....sure fail....didnt realli study much for dat aniwae....found out dat there is so much wrk to do......haizzz.....janice juz ask to go karoke tis fri again....realli wana go sia but hv to think twice...scare can't finish my wrk...there is like 2 huge tests comin out nxt sat....muz jia you again liao....sux...
seriously..after the fa hui thingy..i start thinkin a lot...mayb too much..nw in sch oso feel damn weird.....mayb i shd like stop thinkin n concentrate in my studies......
LosT^^dAy

Sunday, August 08, 2004

kEitA..kEitA

juz saw some pics of keita frm w-inds...he is like so damn cute...so iressitable...recently even bought a card of him...nw inside my wallet.....bringin him wherever i go.....hahaha..jia lat..tink mi realli goin r\crazi over him le....
btw...me tis fw days went 4 the temple 4 fa hui....3 day thingy....realli let me learn a lot of moral stuff....realli feel like changin all my bad habits...become someone who tinks abt others n not juz myself.....n also nt to bear grudges....mayb by doin dat..i will nt feel so vexed ba.......great learnin experience for mi.....BUT tis few days haven done ani wrk....gettin a little worried....gt test on wed somemore....haven touch ani stuff.......guess after the fa hui muz start to jiayou le!!
kEiTa^^ruLeZ

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

buZi~buZi

realli buzi tis few days...dun even hv the time to log in online...hv to do tis in my last 15 mins or so before i go to my last lesson in sch todae......so mani wrk to do....for chemistry...i hv like so many tys questions to complete n a maths test paper to do.....lep is the same..plus my own revision.....stressed is the only word i can describe hw i feel nw....haiz....tis sat.sun n mon hv to go to listen to fa hui which is like damn boring...duno if i will fall asleep a nt...plus i hv like tons of wrk to complete.....sianz sia...
realli hope dat i can go kbox though inspite of my busy schedule...i need to sing my stress out......damn long didnt get to sing le..due to my sore throat n cough...well at least now im much beta and ready to sing my lungs out.....haiz....realli hope to get some air out frm my buzi sch wrk nad tiredness.....(keep fallin asleep in cls again)...guess i realli hv to do sth abt it.....

Friday, July 30, 2004

w-inDs CrazE...

 recently continue to be damn stressed....wrkin hard n tryin hard to manage my time..so mani to do...but so little time...tomolo still gt the ndp preview till quite late...duno if gt time do wrk.......so mani tests n exams still comin up..hmmm....other than that...mi recently gettin totally crazy over the grp...W-INDS.....yeah..they are totally cool lor...can dance...esp keita..i tink...he gt such cute singin voice.....mi listen le goin to faint...n so shuai somemore,,,,,,,haha...wana fly to c their museum in japan..haha..mayb can even get a chance to c them.....my sis oso keep dl their mtvs....even bought their newest album..the best tracks.....all of the songs r cool.....guess if i ever hv a bf..it has to b someone dat can sing n dance n look like keita...haha...goin crazi le.....
sUper^^lOveRs....

Friday, July 23, 2004

sLeEpY~dAy.....

hmm.....todae is a real tirin day.....keep wantin to slp......i onli sort of woke up durin my pe cls...which is damn fun and exhaustin....once i reached home...i didn't even feel like doin anythin......seriously...really afraid i lost my pace of wrk..juz like nw....dun feel like doin stuff.....n felt tired....
tomolo is the parents meetin session..realli dunno wad will be the turnout be....juz hope dat my form teacher won't say too nasty things dat mk me puke...suckin sia....wadeva....im nw onli lookin fwd to the ndp preview nxt sat.....try my best to wrk hard lo....

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

aNotHer sCh sUckIn daY.....

The day juz start  for mi.....haha....juz heard frm the sch anouncement dat our lep club actualli sells tix to the zpop..where there is energy,FIR, angela and so on..and is onli 10 bucls...sounds realli temptin 4 mi...too bad...i'm nt sure if im able to go there....juz gt scoldin (nt exactly scoldin la) frm the principal and the vps...sounds realli depressin and demoralisin 4 mi..yesterdae is realli a horrid day.......i found dat i realli lose all my confidence le.....i sumtimes realli wonder if i'm stupid or wad....i dun seem to b copin 2 well in jc....mayb i shd hv juz heed my sis advice..if i realli can't mk it to U....i shd go poly and study stuff dat i like.....aniwae i hv been under control by my mom for such a long time...doin tings dat she will like...mayb its time 4 mi to rebel...haha....wadeva la....i realli feel like a trapped soul......

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

FiNalLy wRitin....

firstly muz thank my sis-xuan for helpin mi in my blog..she help mi almost everythin..so xing ku ta le...haha...
haiz...nw in sch so sianz...later goin to c pricipal..like mi so lousy....dono y lei...sum ppl study a bit can score like shit...i gt study wad..y still so jia lat..haizz..realli muz jia you le....jc realli sux..since i gt here...(mi nw j2)..like so lost...everythin back to zero...low morale....realli duno hw to recover....dono y oso keep feelin so tired..wana slp...but mayb gt improve a bit la.....wad a day...realli damn stressed...hope will get beta lo.....god bless myself!!

Saturday, July 17, 2004

mY fIrSt daY.....

tis is my first day of blog..everythin is like in a mess....duno how to operate tis n dat...n need help frm sis so badly..haizz.....hope after sum development..it will turn out great n sth i wan.......all the best to myself lo.....