Saturday, October 30, 2004

DeAd*mEat!

horrible tis few daes...ish lik i cant realli concentrate in doin finish my revision,keep wantin to watch tv..i can juz stare at the tv screen n there is nth to watch but i will juz b there..dun wana mug at all..guess im gettin realli tired ba...n my mood is like totally horrible..n damn foul..feel lik scoldin anione whu pisses mi off...i guess im pissin my friends too ba...i hope nt...veri messy life im leadin tis few daes..did nt accomplish much..was onli doin maths todae..n i did nt realli finish wad i wana finish too oso..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
nxt wk is already the big tingy yet im behavin like tis..i ought to b banished or sth...all my pals r muggin so hard..n slpin earli..but im still the rebellious 1..dat slpt late at nite...n did nt mug dat hard....i wana push to my limits..but already half dead..realli need anythin to perks mi up.....cant b like tis...
realli hate everythin nw..includin myself...
its a damn cold nite....tryin to figure out wad is rite...wont u tk mi by the had n tk mi sumwhere new..duno whu u are..but i..im feelin alone in tis dark n dirty rm..feelin horrible.....

Monday, October 25, 2004

we're a MIraCle.....

Here we are, safe at last
We can breath a sigh, seems the storm has passed
All our friends would ask us why with all that stood between us
Why did we even try no one know, imagined we could make it
But it only made us glad, we both believed... ooh...

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

All my life, I felt incomplete
But you turned my soul, with your love so sweetly
You hear my thoughts, you read my mind
You're the part of me, I thought I'd never find
No one I know can make me feel like ou do
Hold me and I feel like I can fly...

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

The chance was so unlikely
That we would ever win
Two stars above the heavens
Destiny brought you to me

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

Saturday, October 23, 2004

sLackIn dae....

todae is such a damn slackin dae 4 mi...did nt accompish much...mornin juz watch tv instead of lep...den ltr in the afternoon..went to the salon for a haircut..feel so bad n guilty..cuz alevels is so near yet mi is still slackin..pretty bad huh...well..im sure a lot of my friends have turn into real muggers le...been like so into bks..haizz...suan le..muz jiayou for the rest of the wk le lo
todae oso did sum treatment..it is 45 bucks..includin the haircut..quite worth it though..was so funni..cuz the hairdresser hv to wash my hair but i kept laughin cuz its damn itchy..the salon ppl was laughin along n sayin dat they nv had a customer reactin like mi...haha..so embarassed sia..den aft dat went under the steamim tingy..so hot...n bored for dat 20 mins..in the end i was busily smsin my pals...but its quite worthwhile la...nw my hair is like more smooth n ting hua..bit its full of those chemical smell..n cant wash my hair fopr at least a dae..dats torturous for mi...
haha..den went hm gt mug a bit b4 my tution teacher came...had tuition till almost 12..but we oso laughin n muggin together at the same time la..imagine 2 woman laughin at the top of our voices..haha
todae can sae quite relaxin la...nw online chattin wof a lot of ppl..haizz...muz study hard for the comin daes le..alevels is nearin...so all my friends..i noe u all oso veri stressed up like mi..muz jiayou together worzz.....

Thursday, October 14, 2004

diD* *liTtle

todae wake up den watch tv le..lazi mi..shd b more worried tis time of time...den memorize my lep a bit..den watch vcd again...jialat..keep watchin tv..den aft dat did chem mcq n revise chem...den read sum gp tingy..duno y juz feel didnt accomplished much...n realli lazy and distracted...hope i juz stop tinkin 2 much..n remeber my own xin nian in my heart..cant lose dat tis time...remeber my way of doin tings sia....
haha...xuan's friends came to our hse tonite...n camellia at our hse..realli fun to hv ppl stayin ard..n she kept laughin..which is gd..haha..den keep listenin to music n lookin at their paintings..they realli can draw n paint sia..hope nxt time i can oso learn to draw..i cant draw at all sia..onli noe stickman..haha
tomolo still gt gp tuition which is gd..mayb ltr can hang out a while in bugis....haha..hope the clip i saw will still b ard..haha
haiya..no matter wad..muz mug realli hard le..cant b distracted...muz noe everythin n b prepared b4 enterin the xam hall or i will regret..so da jia jiayou worz....

Saturday, October 09, 2004

tired...tired...yaWn*

todae gt lep mock exam the whole dae...imagine havin exams lik overall 6 hrs..kinda crazi..when i cum hm..juz so tired n braindead..but dun wana slp..instead i watch tv..den sing my fav elva..do a bit of wrk..n im online..haaa...realli lazi sia..alevels is lik comin by in 3 wks time liao..alarm sia...reali scared n worried sumhw..lik a lot of chem i still dunno..hope i wun get a f again sia...nxt wk will be like a terrible wk 4 mi..will b intensive muggin like shit...realli gt pimples n eye bags poppin out le sia...muz pia like shit....as 4 those external tingy juz totally set aside first le..exam more impt than anythin...hehe...
aft alevels muz realli harvoc le...haha
^^signin off^^

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

aLivE^aGain

todae has been a tirin dae for mi..ya..its realli quite late nw le..shd b slpin..but juz feel like writin my feelins out...ya...juz had tuition but it turn out to be more of a consultation period for mi..haha...ya but its still quite worthwhile..had sum pals problems n after consultation...juz felt more relive..sumhw in a way..suddenly feel dat i shd nt tink tings in sum ways..sumhw juz mk mi feel more lost n weird..ya n tired...after pourin tings out...i sort of made a decision..dat i guess will benefit both of us...feel dat will not be sort of tied down n stressed bout it...ya...its wrong of mi to tink in sum tings in sum ways..cos its unfair to the other party...nw i juz gotta mk tings clear..n most probably will go our own different ways ba...
juz felt peace i nv felt b4 at tis instant sia...hope can carry on tis peace for a long time...meantime...oso muz study hard 2...though still gt sum occasions when i watch tv..n slp....haha..so mani tings to revise sia..really muz improve in the shortest time...i noe my friends will be there 4 mi...ppl whu realli cr for mi will be there to encourage mi..so muz nt let them down....
u cAn do It!!!

Saturday, October 02, 2004

buzi daes to cum...

tis few daes realli bz sia...yA..had sum serious friendship problems..but luckily gt a bunch of gd pals standin by for mi..n i now they r truthful to mi...nt fake..seems to mi tis few daes i sort of found myself back..the real bubbly..the talkertive..the carefree..though gt a bit stressed n ya...always have pals ard mi..ya..sumhw felt alive again..haven had tis feelin 4 a long time le...haha..ya..though still felt hurt in sum ways but i guess i will get well in no time...
started to feel stress n wanted to wrk hard 4 my alevels le..cos realli did quite badly tis time...so..realli will hv to cut off my entertainment time n ya...mug hard...dun wish to regret sia..juz gt such a short time to pia n everythin over le..den mi will b out of tis horrible cage le..so muz ren nw..ren all the way...ya..n oso muz try to slp earli..kinda ironic sia..nw is like goin to 2am le..muz train myself to slp earli le...yesterdae was forcin myself to do tings though mi tired den ended up slpin at 2 plus 2..todae..guess i tok too much...duno y tok a lot...gt at least like5 ppl...haha..damn bad..muz cut down on tis 2...tk the fone like faraway frm mi or wad...haha
no matter wad...definietly muz go on..cannot let sum ppl look down on mi n tinks i cant be independent n cant do well...cos mi will try my best to do it one...so jiayou jiayou n jiayou!!

buzi daes to cum...