nv felt so scared and worried in my life.
it may seem not like a big deal to anyone.n im oso sick of myself complaining and whining all the time. but im rlly scared to face this..i hate it when i hv to feel so worried and scared all the time..i hate it when im feelin so scared to even think abt dat. juz the tot of it mks me worried.
i dun tink i can handle it anymore..n i totally hate myself nw..im nt myself. n drowning in a a total mess of everythin. although i noe dat im fortunate compared to some other ppl..but im starting to feel dat this is over my threshold..more that wad i can handle.
maybe i tot too highly of myself..i tot i could handle it..i tot dat somehw everything will have a solution n everythin will be ok. but it doesnt seem like it. it has been a few mths more than the time i had given myself to adapt to sth..but is not wrking.
i become a procrastinator more n more.this aint gd. this aint rite.
im juz at a loss.wad happen to my fighting spirit.is like i feel like a loser and failure every single day n is juz disgusting.
i hate to admit defeat seriously. but maybe is time for me to rethink of everything.wad do i rlly wan?wad is more impt in life?
god.y am i still stuck in this mess.hw long more can i hang on to this.
someone tell me.