woo...

yest was a fruitful dae for mi....

went for the thames valley exam...tot the judge thr will be qte young..but nope..all of them look lik they are in their fifties..tink teacher looks more young...when i first entered thr rm to wait for my turn...a uncle went up ns ang..good vocals..but real old way of singin..n soo veri old songs...suddenly did feel if i went to the wrong place...haha...

aniwae..waited for a realli long time b4 my turn..tink ard 2 hrs ba...i even had to cancel away my dental appt...cuz it went on till qte late...finalli aftw aiting for soo long..tis my turn to go up...i kept telling myself thr is nth to be afraid of...it will b juz b like hw i sang at my hse....no big deal...
the music came...i went into the scenario i imagined..everythin was fine..haha..surprsingly..i tot i will b too stiff to move or sth..but nope...i tot it was qte okie..n natural ba...heheee...

hope i do well....

elaine asked her bf to come n as she sang only one..she looked at the bf...soooo swit..hehee.....i tink the bf is oso real touched de..

listened to several other singers b4 we left...tink average all nt bad wor..heheee

was super hungry....so mi,yanxin n xiuying went to tp central n ate crystal jade...oooh....we ordered la miens,xiao long baos,,soft shell crab n some bao...can c we r real hungry..hahaa...all of them r yummy..we pracrtically gobble up everythin...its super filling...im nt bluffing wor...hahaaa

todae stayed at hm n mugged...hope i can do well for tis exam sia....jiayou to myself again!!

saw a clip of msyelf in the audition...i tink i noe y im out...i realli dun look gd....due to my teeth n specs...hhmm...shall slowly change ba...my teeth under construction le...

i wana continue to do music....i love it!!!

sian sian

stressed...sian...a lil depressed...

2dae is denitely a mixture of the abv...studies abit of com theory n persuasion todae...hmm..muz contnue to jiayou...thr r times i juz gt distracted..sian diao..i hope exams r over soon....ltr shall continue to mug...

i seriosuly hate studying at hm alone..or even stayed at the hse alone..kinda mks one's mind become a bit funni....muz ren for another wk..n all willl be done le...

i noe im a blessed person....sometimes..still..i feel a lil empty...yeap...an interesting yr indeed....dats wad i feel la....tokin weirdly le...urgh

i will miss ob aft the cls ended like tis dec 16...defineltly..i nid music sooo much...n i feel dat i gt soo much to learn..will start lookin ard for courses n singin competitons..so anione..if u noe of any competiton..mus tell mi....hahaaa...

rainy daes seriously does mks one feel gloomy..i wan the sun...arhhh....

tml is my performance exam..everyone pls pray for mi dat iw ill perform okie n nt look so emotionless....

JIayi....JIAYOU AR

stress

sat was swit...

stayed at hm n mugged abit first den met up wif ed...went vivo together..we ate the noodle..same shop in chinatown..suddenly forget the name...hahaa...but aniwae..njoyed my dinner..wana watched happy feet but 2 bad...the cinema is like flooded wif ppl...in the end we juz walked ard..spent some time in the bkshop wif slanted bkshelves...it sure is spacious inside...had the boost drink..healthy n yummy...love the scenery thr...i juz love staring at the sea sometimes...juz kinda mk mi feel more calm...n esp wif ed ard..mk the whole scenario more sweeter....we stayed a while more..den ed jiu bring mi hm le...

i love the date..swit n simple....thanks ed

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todae had temple...is nice gg thr..cuz every single time i go thr..i felt like myself..i felt free to b myself...hahaa...it was fun...met jape n gugu for dinner rite aft dat....had fish n co..n we r like super super stuffed.....veri filling n nice....i feel like i hv been eating the whole dae...walked ard n den we sat down at starbucks n had some chat...kinda talk things out ba...hopefully is beta...i guess....
to mi...i learned a lot in tis process..yeap..defineltely....i learned to sometimes fang kai ba....nt to be so zhi zuo ba...let it be.....yeap...let it be..

frm tml onwards...it will be hard core muggin le....doin the final assignments n revising like duno wad...muz buck up le...juz ren more 2 wks..everythin will b over n i will be free le....

tues is my signin exam...gd luck to myself....

friends

love the pizza session todae in sch....woohoo..gobble up like 3 pizzas..im a pig...hahaa

realli hv to pia exams n tk hm exams le...i wana do realli realli well tis time....to pull up everything...

hv been doin a lot of tinking recently..hahaa...crazi mi again...suddenly realli felt during tis yr... a lot of stuff happened to mi...all kinds of backstabbing..friendship gla probs juz like come all rite onto mi...i hate all of it..sometimes i wonder y cant ppl be more dan chun...is sickening seriously...in tis yr...some of my closest gals change a lot a lot...but i guess is juz part of the growing process n thr is nth i can do bout it...im changin too...but i guess more of mentiality to tings..i cant be as naive as b4 le...start to sing all the evil side of ppl....if i could...i will juz act blur all da way n ignore all of it...

everyone leads their own kinda lives n i guess noone has the right to intervere at all..is their biz...not realli of mine..if i intervere too much..ppl may even feel im hindering their lives...obstructing their growth...

i guess im becoming more n more indifferent le ba..is scary..but i guess tis is the way hw everythin wrks..mind your own biz n u will b okie...dats life...

friends too..suddenly feel dat the older one gets...the harder it iso find a true friend...sometimes i do felt dat i hv little of none of these true friends....sometimes la...i tink...the onli person sometimes that one eprson you can trust is onli urself n ur parents ba..onli they wun lie to u...onli they can be true ba...

duno y suddenly tink soo much....i shall get over soon ba...

meanwhile..i will juz mug my way thru my finals...n on 19th...i shall leave singapore n hv a good mental n physical rest...hehee

exams coming

exams r nearing...realli hv to mug n mug n mug le...

aniwae...yest aft com theory cls..went vivo n makan wif en n her cousin..had some cool time together...hahaaa...i love the food republic thr..mks mi feel like im eating at some place in the 70s n 80s....thr r even some damn old chi oldies playin..love the atmosphere thr..

we walked ard for a while..was looking for jan bdae present high n low...thank god gt en n her cousin help..bought sth i tink qte simple but diff..hahaaa....

3 of us r reallis ian..went into forever 21...n decided to try sth dat we will nv nv wear or try..took some tube tops wif big retro belts n pants..juz to the fun of it...hahaaa...in the end...it turns out real real nice...looks slim n nice..hahaa...surprisingly..shall go c bugis if gt tis kinda clothes..dat is aft exams n when i gt more cash...lol....

todae aft cls had to slack b4 miting mom n xuannie for dinner..so mi n en went to starbucks n slack..hahaa...didnt do antyhin..juz bought sth to eat n drink..n sit thr n slack for the entire afternoon...damn relaxing...jazzy music at the background n raining outside..soo cosy...shall do tis wif en nxt time again..hahaaaa

watched superstar juz nw..tink the show is realli chan ren..cuz among the 4 dat gt out tonite...2 of them r realli gd..esp the veron..i tink...is realli such a pity....was tinking the music industry realli nid a powerful gal voice n nt some gal dat looks pretty but a normal n predicatble voice...dats so sian...im hoping a great chi gal singer can appear soon...yeap....

for my next few daes n wk...shall onli b muggin n practising my exam songs nxt tues...urghh...mus buck up n slp earlier le....

2 pics.....when we r at vivo....

en in dat top we both love...hahaa...i took a pic oso but in my hp... amazing top dat can slim u down...hahaa




all 3 of us....

finalli

im soooo glad is over...the speech onli la...but such a relief defineltely

was qte nervous b4 giving the speech..but once i start speaking..everythin juz went on qte smoothly...juz like hw i practised at hm...practise mks perfect..heheee...i tink i did okie..at least nt dat bad la....

stayed in sch n had some chat wif enen...haha..i love galtok wif her..juz like the old daes...

dapao some food n came hm..real tired n sian todae...practised my exam songs...n read a bit of com theory..tml mus start piaing fo exams le....wish mi luck sia...

hope my hairstyle is okie..seems dat a lot of ppl feels otherwise bout it...

shall upload some other pics...
mi...myself n i



mi n cpy..nice nice stars behind us



presenting the 2 crazi ppl posing...

haha

ah sam...hahaa...damn cute here tho



mayb i watched too mani antm...i suck at posinh..hehehe

busy..happy..

tis shall b a super long long post

fri was a cool dae...was a super hectic dae for mi n ah xuan friends...cuz we gave her a huge surprise..qte fun tho...

met wif sam n val first to get the real cute cupcakes....i love it den walked frm thr to doby gaut n den rush down to heeren...met xuan rest of the pals..n one whole gang of us went to village to get ready...luckily queu is nt too long yet..managed to get 2 tables separetly..thr we put all the cupckes out...the card..the candles..bla bla bla...

did some actin..went up to mit xuan n zijun..thanks zijun for walkin her ard..hahaa...den both of us rbing ah xuan to the table in village..hahaaa...xuannie saw the table wif the bdae cake n card...n the rest of her friends came out singin hapi bdae song...woohoo...ah xuan face went red..hahahhahaa.....

it real real fun la...

went to makan aft dat...had baked rice,sausages,pizza..n crepe...damn fillin n nice.....had a great dinner thr...aft dat...xuan walk ard wif sam,val n val sis....
mi,cpy,amanda,camel..took some crazi pics..tink we 2 sian or wad...crazi over tking pi s..sommore wif the xmas trees ard n all..woooo.....love the xmas spirit...

glad everyone had real fun...damn tired aft dat tho

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sat aft ob walked ard..i noe is bad...but tis shall b my last time buyin sth..bought tis real cute n retro like kinda skirt for 12 bucks..in this fashion..hehee...thanks yanxin for ur card...

met ed n went to wait for xuan at hairdresser...suppose to b her cutting onli..in the end i kinda gt the craving too..so cut my hair real short..at least dats y i tink la...hahaa...but i like it..its comfortable...hehee....pei aft shop for his clothes...yeap..he bought 2 tops n a t-shirt for mi...thanks a lot wor!!!!

i will change de..no worries....

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2dae went for the thames valley exam rehearsal...place looks kinda small but is cool listening to the rest of the other ppl singin...some of them realli sing damn well sia...hehee...gt aunties oso tk part..sing real oldies..remind mi of my mom....

i realli hv to wrk on my face expressions on stage le...cant looked expressionless oso....jiayou le....
had delicious chicken rice for lunch den went tp for a while b4 headin hm...

finish my crib sheet le..finallli...but still nid to practised a lot a lot of times more...juz worried im too boring...jiayou le....

pics time
xuannie cake...



amanda n camel mk tis...looks real nice...



thw whole setup...



xuan happi...wif her card n cake...



sam..lookin like some jap star..xuan dey all sae de



dessert..love it



our super long receipt..can c hw much we ate..lol



the slanted blue xmas tree...haha



nicey us..



scary mi...standin near a spotlight tingy.. xmas ghost??



mi n cpy...hohoho!!!


grp pics time!!!


at taka xmas tree.hheee




thr r stil some pics..hahaa...shall blog it nxt time ba...

antm here i come...hahhaa

busy

i feel dat im sooo sooo busy....didnt even realli hv the time to tok longer wif ed recently...

gt speech presentaion nxt wk..so damn scary la..n the socio presentaion..following wk...the thames valley exam..performance exam...den the following wk will b my finals...im sooo soo busy...aft my speech..will be full force muggin n practising songs....mus jiayou lor....

yeap..sowie le ed..didnt spend enuff toking time wif ya.will mk up de.....

aniwae didnt go sch todae...send my maid off...she is gg to be away for 3 wks..gd for her..but jialat for us le..hahaaa...im lazy to do household chores sia...hahaa...
den came hm pia my speech for whole dae...
nite when eat wif parents at town wif some mymmar ppl oso..i love the xmas spirit in town..so niceee...but 2 bad tis yr.i wun be spending xmas in sg....

some random pics frm xuannie hp...
long time ago...at the same dressing rm in tangs...lol..love the mirror



both of us....hahaa



i looked dorky..hahaa....rabbit ears?



i gt the new pink look...even gu yi put my hair up..haha



plushies time
my fav eeyore..on the soccer ball...hahahaa



help xuannie get the merlion..damn cute sia



val de husky..it looked sooo..soo...blur...



decided to tk tis pic..crazy..yes..im in the middle of the road near my hse...real scared cuz scare ltr gt cars come by..hahaa....ooooh



xmas time..at taka....i love tis xmas tree



dats all folks...tml will b another dae...

for nicer n clearer version of the abv pics...pls go xuannie blog..im lazy le....

btw..AH XUAN Ar>>>>HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

pics up..

im real tired todae...yeap...nt enuff slp....

most of the ppl gave their speeches todae..im feelin stressed le...mine is nxt tues..hopefully it goes well....i hv to tk out all my courage to give the speech le...jiayou to mi..

went spca fora while...but 2bad is nt open...went tos ome pet shops n walk ard....i wana get as much infor as possible for my speech sia...urgh...

enuff for vexing stuff le...

here are the pics
the rm for dessert cake..yummy



cpy cutting her cake...hehee



my slice...didnt realli finish..too chocolaty ..amanda is gifted in tking cakes..haha



i had a yucky sideview...but im sooo engrossed wor..hahaa



mi n ah xuan mking monkey faces...hahaha



dinner time!!pizza hut



us...soo yummy



we clean up evey single tingy in split secs..hahaa...all hungry



finalli..a nice grp pic...missing val...

zonked out

2dae isa busy dae to mi....yeap..morning go temple wif ed...yeap...had some kinda lesson n some great tok wif one of the ppl thr..mk mi tink thru a lot...

aniwae aft dat ed came over my place to rest for a while den left to visit his grandpa le...yeap...did my stuff n find my songs...still tinkin one more sutiable song....

went out again in late afternoon..went to the new amk kbox plaza to sing k wif xuannie friends...yeap...HAPPY BDAE CPY!!hahaaa..i love the kbox thr lor...damn huge..service gd...place is new..n best of all..i can adjust the aircon in the kbox..which is like soooo gd....hahaa...system thr oso qte gd...totally njoyed myself todae...had a lot of fun singin k...shall go visit thr soon again....heheheeee..oh ya..paid like onli 10 bucks for singin liek almost 6 hrs...wooohoo

had pizza at ard 930...late dinner..all of us r like damn hungry...we practically gobbled up our food....haha....it is a pleasant dae wif them

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i feel dat i kinda change within tis 2 daes..too mani stuff happened..i said tings dat i nv said b4..n should nt sae...im guity n regretted it....sincerely apologise for dat....im realli realli sorry for dat....n i admit dat...

i realise thr r tings dat r realli out of my control.....n we realli changed a lot..all of us...no rite or wrong..i juz hope tis big misunderstanding or prob dat is buggin us..mking us feel so frustrated n disppointed can end soon....im nt gg to sit back n juz let the whole issue go unattended....

i tink everythin shd b solved...defineltetly in a peaceful way...dats all i can sae....

shall upload pics the nxt entry..hehe

shopholics

2dae ob cls is kinda diff...gt a lot of diff ppl came to our cls..to practise for the lcm exam...hmm.. i sang okie..but dun intend to sing dat song for my exam la...some of tehm realli sing damn well sia...real gd listening to gd singers...can learn a lot more...

went town wif yanxin todae...real fun...went to eat at ramen teh...i tink so....real yummy..had some galtok session....thanks a lot for ur advice..i will heed it...den we start our shopping spree....wahahhaa...bought my bling bling slipper first....i love it myself..tink it looks real nice....we walked an walked...n finalli found the suitable bag for yanxin...big big bag....hehee...went to isetan aft dat...dying to spend off my 20 bucks voucher aniwae..nt realli satisfied wif the clothes thr..so went to look at bags..aniwae i kinda nided one....took a long time to actuali choose one...simply becoz the bags all look more mature n nt too sutiable ba...bought a light green bag aft dat...qte diff frm my style but tinks it looks nt bad....paid like 19 bucks for it instead for 3990...so tink qte worth it ba....

saw lots of nice xmas lights at the orchard streets...gt the xmas feel le..but too bad..nt spending xmas in sg tis yr.....both of us continued chatting n chatting like duno wad...n finalli rched cine....duno wads wrong wif mi todae..juz kip buying n buyin...hahaa...bought a tee wif yanxin...we hang ard some time den left le....totally njoy shoppin trip wif yanxin todae...hehehee

met wif ed den came over to my place..gt temple to go to tml mornin...yeap...had a lot of chat todae 2...tink is real fruitful for mi..njoyed myself a lot todae.....great great dae...

ktving..

recently kip dazing..haha...oso duno y....last wk mayb too busy..suddenly slow down...i kinda become daze..hahaa...still gt alot more tings to do sia...all singin stuff..by sun finish demo...start practising n decide wad song to sing for my exam...my novemeber is damn packed...i kinda start tinking wad shd i do aft my exams over...ob coure ending soon le..shd i go find some other singin sch continue or shd i go do some other related stuff?i wana continue singin...defintely..its alreadi part of my life le....

aniwae todae aft cls went to sing k wif en...was rainin damn heavily outside...everyone is like kinda flooded...but im glad we r both inside the bus n nt being splashed by the dirty water outside..hehee....

went tp kbox...its damn damn cold la...lie ina fridge..but we juz kip singin..2 long nv sing..damn excited...2dae is a special ktv session to mi...cuz i nv sing properly at all...hahaa...i truely use music to help mi release all my stress...its been damn long since i actuali sing like dat.i am kinda consious of hw i sing...scare i sound bad n all...but 2dae..i realli totally heck cr..thr was a pt when the rm is unbearable..damn cold...so mi n en were like both standing n screaming at the top of our voices....sing n scream..hahaha...thanks en..njoy myself todae...

lazy to do ani wrk...tml shall revise wrk n all...n the speech tingy..mus jiayou le!!!

busy but chong shi.....i love it...

pain

cls was pretty sian for com theory todae....was craving for k..but everyone was busy..so nv go in the end...

the stomp aids tingy is the last dae todae...was qte fun...played games n participate in the activites..hehee...i njoyed myself...oohhh...the best of all is i won a consolation prize for the lucky draw...first time winning some kinda lucky draw...qte thrilled....tho is juz 20 dollars voucher...real cool le...hahhaa....

had some terrible cramps..so came hm..pop a panadol n went str to slp..sian sian....

i finalli decided to take part in the thames valley performance exam...it will b qte a challege for mi cuz i sux in performance..but im gg to try my best n challenge myself..sth to force mi out of my comfort zone...hv to help glennis wif her demo tingy oso....hmm..gt a lot of singin tings to wrk on the nxt few daes..jiayou le!!

im lookin fwd to sat le....

reality

felt sth todae....

i feel dat as i grow up..i start to see unreal reality..everyone seems to b talking behind everyone's back..i dun deny it...thr r times i do dat too...its bad i noe..but it seems dat everyone can't help it....

duno y...feel dat sometimes some ppl ard mi r fake...thr r nt wad we tink...nt we see...as in the negative way la..i understand dat most of us gt a side that we wun one anyone to see....or to understand..cuz it is sth deep within us...

i suddenly feel dat im a real real naive person all along..believeing dat everythin or everyone is good....nope...sometimes even ur dearest ppl ard u mks u feel dat 2....dat they r changing so fast dat im slowly nt recoginizing them at all...or isit even safe to tell them stuff....its super confusing la....

i do hate myself for gossping ppl's back..its a realli bad bad habit...i shd change it....

im still glad dat i do hv ppl ard mi..tho nt much..but thr r some dat i noe r trustworthy....im happi abt dat....

tired but fun

todae went sch earlier...cuz our course gt in finals for the stomp aids tingy...hehee...the grp whu gt in organized some activites for the 3 daes..mon till wed...qte cool....thr r games dat r played...n may n chow...i tink...came as guests...wooo..they looked real pretty n slim...n tall...envious...hahaaa....

aniwae socio cls is sian....rite aft cls pei mel mel buy her addidas top...chatted a lot oso..yeap..den met wif enen...n her pal for movie...flushed away...is realli funni n cute...the animations nwadaes look realli real...wooo....feel tired sia....

im feelin lazy recently....aft the series of tests...urgh....

oh ya....the last date..met en n her bf....enen..im including u in this post instead..hahaha...her bf looks more muscular le wor...ed mus jiayou!!!hahahah

romantic date

ob was okie....im tinkin most prob i will tk part in the performance exam tingy ba...aniwae it will be qte an experience....

aft cls went to town n mit up wif ed..yeap...thanks for ur patience for waiting.hehee....we walked ard in search for food...finalli settled down at jack's place....i love love the ambience thr..so romantic lor..thr r candles lighted up everiwhr lo..hahaa..candlelight dinner lor..hehee...i was soooo excited..hehee...

we waited for a while den food is served...both the steaks r realli yummy....hehhee...the soft music behind n everythin...woooo...juz mk mi feeel so romantic....hahhaa....the mousse cake is damn yummy 2..hahaa...nxt time can go again...hehhehee

both of us r damn full...we walked ard for a while den went supermkt n buy food for xuannie who is at home wkin hard....

we went hm soon....heheee...yeap..he stayed over n we watched a movie together..damn lame but funni one la..hehee....

njoyed myself tis 2 daes...hahaha

ltr gg to start my damn speech tingy...at least thr r no tests.....

pics time!!
the candle..hahahaa....im super excited when i saw dat..hahaha



gettin ready to devour the steak..hahhaa..the hungry look



the yummy foood....



ed's steak



the cake cake!!



isit ed's bdae??



mi...hehhe



i noe im crazi over one stick of candle..hahha



pic dat we took some time ago

finalli over

the past 2 wks isa mental and physical torture for mi...im super super tired n stressed out.....

gt some kinda backpain dat mk mi cant even walk properly...went to the tuinan..damn painful la..but at least nw im soo much beta...

the youth camp tingy is fun tho i hv to rush like mad....hope nxt time can hv it again..of cos when all of us r free la....

finish the 2 torturing test todae...is like some sort of maranthon....finish persuasion..den rite aft dat om theory..i write until my hands r feelin so damn numb le....so tired n all....
nw juz left the stupid sppech...den will b finals..den hols hols!
im lookin fwd to hols nw...hahaha

nw piaing my ob songs..haven even learn lor...urgh..finalli miting ed tml oso...hehehee....

im gg to relax for nw...dun cr le...