3 teeth gone

yeap...went to pluck my 3 teeth off...veri painful..had a minor operation on my wisdom tooth...nw is second dae le...n still kinda swollen..sux..all my celebration gone...
todae is the last dae of 2005....yeap..juz nw ed gt cum over n pei mi a while...yeap..frm evein till juz nw...den he go celebrate wif his friends le....xuan dey all go out makan steamboat n havin fun..tis yr 2 major celebration spendin it alone sia...hm....tis yr i accomplished qte a no.of stuff actuali...
1.gt 2 jobs..all admin..but is my first 2 jobs..n i finali gt a taste of wrkin life
2.join superstar..new expereince tho i kana kicked out on the second round...
3.join sim..different route frm the usual..another new expereince n mit new ppl oss
4.yeap...noe sum outside friends like jarrel n so on...social circle expanding
5.mit ed...n had my first bf..currently gg to 8 mths le...he is realli gd to mi
6.went to haidie...yeap..start singin lesson..gt sum improvements in singin n me new ppl
7.took part in singin competition..won second prize..first prize i my entire life..veri gd encouragemet
8.took my courage to pull out teeth for braces....new mi cumin soon
9.tryin to b more filial..but stillw rkin on dat

tis is roughly wad happen tis yr for mi ba..qte a fruitful yr actuali....tho thr r oso mani unhapi stuff....but still veri nice...hope 2006 will b even beta...jiayou le

interestin dae...

todae kinda nerve wrecking dae for mi....yeap..my singin finals...wake up earli to try to practise..gt sum probs b4 the competition sia...sore throat..nose stuff den my ears oso stuffed...but luckily aft dat it was fine sia...was sittin thr wif the compeitiors..realli felt dat thry r all winners alreadi...weirdly..im nt realli dat scared as b4...as in im tryin to enjoy the music dey sing....n trust mi lo...all the finalists r gd..was qte stunned by it..im tinkin im realli nt as gd as them sia....the gal in front of mi realli sang gd...stable n gd voice....woah!hope to b like her nxt time...when my turn realli gt a lot of technical probs sia....but i juz act stable lo...tink okie ba...try to add feelins but i noe thr r sum flat notes n all...but thnx to my friends...i njoyed the process...n ofcourse changing the song....haha
aft dat is juz singin ktv n makaning..realli sum gd singers in the hse sia...yeap...when the results came..was qte nervous actuiali...haha...when dey annoiunce 3rd..yeap..is nt mi...den i sian liao..cuz i tink that is the futhest i can go la...but in the end..i actuali gt 2nd...hahaha...first time i gt sth in compeition sia....happi happi
heheheeee..aft dat walk walk ard fareast...yanxin dey all shop veri fast sia...haha..den makan at pastamania...had sum great time together...went to find ed but too bad he is veri bz sia..cant realli share the joy...hehe
finali can rest le...n mus continue to jiayou hard in singin

xmas

hmm...was lookin fwd to xmas...but sadly..my body condition aint gd...sux..rite aft hai die..walked ard...cope sum cheap accesories dat look super gd..
den mit wif hui to go to gugu hse....reach thr..faster tk a rest...but didnt realli hao hao slp oso la...at nite..yue oso cum along wif jeremy to makan at gugu hse...yeap...kept eatin..duno y oso..always feel hungry when i was thr...haha..gg to b piggy liao...was supposed to hang out the nite...but due to my stupid flu n slight fever..eyap...it is more wiser for mi to stay at gugu hse n nt hang out...yeap..all of my cousins n sisters went out...n i stayed alone wif popo...was actuali feelin qte lonely n sad...the shows all hv family celebrating xmas together...n havin fun...but mi alone...staring at the tv set....try to get away frm all those stuff so start singin my song for the finals..but unfortunately gt demoralised aft dat..try to get sym nap...but tossed n turned ard..yeap..oso wif jay chou songs ard mi la..mk mi feel more sad..could nt slp at all..so in the end juz watch tv again...tis is one lonely xmas eve dat i will nv forget sia...nw den i realise is nt abt wad ppl mit to do for xmas eve..but most imptly...who u hang out wif..a simple celebration wif the warmth of family is actuali gd enuffwe shd nt tk tings for granted..i suppose
but aniwae..the xmas eve turn a lil better aft xuan dey all came back..yeap..kaiyuan n ed oso cum to kip mi accompany..we juz sat n chat...is qte fine..but too bad tis kinda late..realli nid sum slp first le...seriously feel kinda left out
mornin todae..it is great to c ed first ting is the mornin...yeap....slpin like ababy sia..haha..we chat n oso gt tok to my dear ah po.....watched tv n practise my song oso...for the rest of the dae..juz sat in front of the tv...feel like couch potatoes sia...haha...ard nite time we go hm...xuan go hui hse...while ed pei mi...yeap...kinda tok stuff dat i was hidin inside my heart..felt much beta...yeap...spend sum realli quality time togther...thnx a lot!
tml will b my big dae le..hope everythin wil go on well ba..jiayou e!try to njoy as much as possibe..rmb the process is more impt than winnin it...juz go out n do my best le
btw..fell in luv wif jay chou song..feng..all of sudden de..feel dat it is realli sad...

xmas nearin

yeap..been sum time since i blog..yeap..study rm was under renovation...as in all the old stuff has been thrown away n new furniture is currently nw in the rm..yeap...still sum arranging to do..nw den i realise dat i gt plenty of mini soft toys dat i realli dunno whr to put at all lo..urgh..love my new light...orange in colour..sumhw mks our rm more interestin n lively...or else will look like sum office...xuan sae it looks like tuition centre..hehe...
hv been wrkin ahrd recently...yeap..todae wrk whole dae..tired sia...aft dat went to dine wif hui,xuan n sam..hahah..had sum cool fun tkin neoprints wor..hehe
thorat feelina lil sore..guess due to the dry environment in the office ba..todae mayb nid to rest earli liao sia....or else tml..xmas eve can play hard le...heheoso mus protect my throat...gt tis bad feelin dat i will c\screw it on mon sia...sianzzz...
aniwae...ed bought mi a super huge tortise...soft toy of course...hmm..so cuddely..n oso gt a super big head..we cor it bighead..hehe....love it loads....more xmas presents cumin in tml le...hope will hv a great time tml...dun fall sick sia...

tired n busy

tis 2 daes a bit down..yeap...was juz busily clearing my study rm..yeap all the new furniture cumin tml le...duno nice or nt sia..hope so ba....yest gt mit ed...thnx for the ktv sessiona niwae..does helps mi gain back sum confidence ba....im still prayin hard my song can b changed tho is kinda last min...prays.....
todae wrk for 5 hrs..hmm..super sian sia....was slackin..staring in the air..doin nth att times....hmm..but thank god it is over aniwae...noone is free...so i went to makan myself..first time eatin lunch alone..hmm....it is suepr lonely...eatin alone in pastamania..den the rest of the tables r occupuied by pairs or grouos of friends...seems as if im a loner..or sumone suffering frm depression...no friends at all...as i walk in the shoppin mall...yeap..the music surrounding mi added the sad atmosphere...yeap..dao dai...mk mi feel so lonely sia...
reached hm tk sum rest n practised my hokkien song..hmmm..hopefully is okie ba..cuz the song is super old lo..haha...throat still feelin weird..wonder when my throat can feel normal again..it is affecting my singin...urgh..wadeva...
thnx ed for the teddy...will b givin sth too..yeap..still tinkin....hhehe

stressed!

todae went ob..super tired aniwae...feel dat recently my last 2 lessons didnt sang dat well...yeap...qte disappointed...mi cant like dat le sia...changin songs for my finals cuz the last one was nt suitable for mi..but qte scared sia....feel dat i cant sing to my expecatations...am i deproving or sth??dats realli sad lo..hang ard at ob for qte some time..thnx dudes for helpin mi wif the song...
reach hm feelin sian....start learnin song but still weird sia..went to tk a nap oso....nxt wk gg to sing canto n hokkien songs..jialat liao lo...both of my dialects sux...as in reallli to the core....bad wk ba....
woke up n still cant sing to my expecataions...feel dat my throat is feelinw eird..is kinda like holding mi back or sth ba...argh!!!!!!cant like dat lo..still nid to memorise the entire song..dun wan let my friends down 2....
searchin my passion back....jiayou le!

wrk!

woah!thnx to my dear hui....yeap..todae mornin gt call frm her auntie...go to psa thr n wrk as receptionist...yeap..pay is qte gd n the company is real big too...juz nid to wrk for 2 hrs todae onli...but qte borin le...waitin for calls to cum..hopefully i dun do the wrong stuff...yeap..aft dat go n mit gugu n hui...had lunch n oso go hui wrk place...oso bought a top..qte cheap..the having big promotions for todae onli..nt bad sia...hui ar..wrk as salesgal..hmm..qte steady ar..hehe...aft dat mi n gugu walk ard to buy ehr stuff den go cut hair....
gt visit renjie jorkor..qte shocked wif the way he behave when he wrks..veri different..veri veri seriopus wor...hehe..mit wif ah hui again for dinner b4 walkin back to ps..hehe..we wk pics wif the meorylane cartoon character...so cute sia...we like kids sia...gt mit up wif ed oso...yeap..looked veri sloppy aniwae
spent sum quality time together...glad we do dat...hmm....brings us closer together ba
hmm..tml go ob..den mayb mit wif friends or wad ba..nid to pack my stuff den can rearrange our study rm le....
hope dat en bf gets well soon too

hmm...

wad a weird dae....mornin was qte okie..but den pissed off by mum's attitude...yeap..went to mit ed for a while b4 mitin hui,xuan n yue..short time we spend together....but cherish it...aft dat,we 4 walk ard..yeap..shoppin n gossipin as usal...den oso gt tk nice nice neoprints....nice wor...den we settle at dleifrance thr n sit n chat again..we tok abot dogs for a super long time...yue go hm first..den left we 3 walk ard...
xuan kinda sick so go hm first aft dat..yeap.. get well ba...mi n hui go mit wif ed....yeap..ate again..realli makanin dae den pei hui all da way to cityhall b4 i head hm...
guess u r realli tired ba...mentally n physically...am i a burden/?sumtimes i realli do wonder..tis road is nt as easy to walk as wad i tink...its gg to b tough....we both r tryin so hard...n i realli wan tings to wrk out well too...so mani faco\tors involving in it oso...sign...
tml will b at hm clearing up my stuff n restin..hopefully sum soul searchin too..

happy dae...

todae veri ahpi sia..hehe...mornin go klunch wif ed n his friends..yeap...qte fun singin...but mi kinda deprove a lilttle....most prolly is becos im kinda worn out ba...tired liao..haha..been gg out continuously rite aft exams...my money is gettin low liao sia...haha...aniwae they r one cool bunch of ppl to sing wif...aft ktv went to makan abit..den ed hv to go to wrk liao...hmm..sad sia..
luckily gt mit up wif siewling..hehe...she pei mi walk walk ard heeren to buy sum xmas presents..yeap..bought for my cousins liao..still nid to geth sth for ed n sum other friends....jialat...i need a job liao...den we wan walk to other places...but too bad rain veri heavily..so we stayed at heeren for a long time...walk another round...hahaa
aft dat walk to fareast thr...along the way we chatted n tease each other like wad we used to do..haha...so hapi....2 long nv mit liao...dats y...hehe...we r like 2 kids chatting non stop..super noisy wor...as usual...siewling start to get hungry den we settle a sum place to makan abit b4 continue to window shop..hmm..gt a few tings in mind le....hehe....den cum hm n rest....still nid to train for finals n sat singin stuff....n start packing my rm stuff liao....
tings to buy:
siewling present..yeap...she already buggin mi...hahahaaa....
ed xmas present
sum other xmas presents
gugu card
new pair of shoes or slippers..saw at fareast liao
a nice jacket or blazer..
bottoms..skirts n pants
sum tops..

yeapo...

todae wake up earli den go c doc first..yeap...waited for a super long time sia..the place is full of patients..aniwae...hope dat i can finalli b well...while waitin..ob cor..yeap...i gt in!hahaha...veri veri hapi sia...but nw mus worry wad to sing le..hmm..headache sia...rite aft seeing doc..went to dentist..its been yrs since i visit one...hate dat actualli...goin to hv braces soon le..hopefully everythin will b fine...tho i tink i hv to pull out ard 6 teeth..including my wisdom tooth...ouch!...tirin dae traveeling ard for tis dental tingy sia...
aft dat met up wif yih to hv dinner..long time no c liao sia..hehe...had sum great chat...oso had desert..nice to eat sia...yummy..mi hui n xuan oso had sum great time together....
hmm..tml mayb go sing k..mus train n choose a sutiable song liao...hehe...busy busy sia...
mus oso find sum time go out wif all my old pals sia..hehe....miss u guys!

harvoc 3 daes..

on fri rite aft exam..it was fine aniwae...went str for the interview for sum promoter job..duno can get the job yet la...aft dat mi n hui walka rd a few agenices n look for mai other jobs..hmm..hopefully can find one soon but i guess chances r slim lo...rite aft dat..went to ob earlier to train for my singin competion aft dat..super nervous la...den came the time...everyone was qte nt bad sia...when is my turn..i tired to b as steady as possible la..did my best aniwae..i guess..alex was nt too bad either..so ke xi..onli dat small part sia...aft dat mit ed n makan dinner..we walk to clarke quay thr den tk bus hm le..sped a lil time wif him..
yest ob cls was fine./.had sum fun time wif my ob pals...hehe...fun fun..den aft dat go interview wif kaiyuan n hui..most prolly cant get the jobv la...den we go ktv..sing our hearts out..but sadly..my throat prob is gettin back liao...sianzzzz..
mit xuan n ed aft ktv n had sum dinner together..hmmm...xuan hair nt bad sia..hehe
todae spend whole dae dfor the temple tingy...mornin go botanic garden..yeap..almost gt killedby those stupid pollens sia..luckily gt the pill..hehe...had qte fun...oso gt debate..hmm..astill feelinq te agitated sia.when i tinka bt it...hao le..gg to bathe..nxt few daes will oso b bz..
tml go c doc again..sux...njoy my hols ba

hao nervous wor

tml is ugc..yeap..but i feel super relaxed...kinda weird sia...sort of finish wad i wana go thru le...but im more nervous for the singin competiotn tml....n i juz found out dat im like in the middle..hv to wait so long..yucks...my ob pal was tinkin dat we r prolly tkin it too hard sia...hmm..mus rmb that tis is onli sth for my own experience n i shd nt tk it so hard..win jiu hao la..if nt is oso okie ma...mus bild up my confidence n kill all my stage fright problems sia...i okie de...
hmm...realli hope exams can faster finish..at least the burden is gone..hope i studied enuff ba....goody luck to myself tml le..
n to my ob pals...jiayou ltr for ur audition le!

in the midst of exams

well well..yest papers r fine...yeap..shd b okie ba...nw i gt 2 more daes b4 my last paper which is ugc..todae rest a bit more but go thru wad i wana revise le...abit sian sia...super lookin fwd to aft exams n the singin competition tis fri..yeap..hopefully i can b calm n juz do fine for it..aft exams will be fun all da way le wor..hehe...yeapx..
to ed..pls tk cr of urself while sloggin ur life in the company hor...
xams is cumin le wor...

gd turn in the end

hmm..yeap...sort of apologise to my mom...den everythins okie..janice came over in the end...yeap..pei mi..we sang ktv..at my hse..haha.had sum fun n oso chat qte a lot...thnx ger for peiin mi wor..hehe..aniwae...did realli rest in the end..todae felt a lot beta le..didnt realli mug..juz read thru sum eng stuff..tml onwards will mug more le..back on track again...
aniwae ed came over...miz him a lot..but glad dat can c him..had sum time together...yeap..gg to cherish hard...
hope hui njoy her haircut..like verii nice wor...hehe
jiayou hard for exams...4 more daes to exams le..

urgh!

well well well...supposed to b goin out todae de...yeap..a dae i was lookin fwd to actuali..hv been trapped in the hse for a super long time..didnt even go aniwhr..nt even downstairs...sian..wanted to pei hui go le jiu cum hm....nw parents duna llow...yeap..i noe they concern mi n all....but i realli prmose that i will tk cr of myself oso ma...plus...b4 dat when i was more sick..i oso went ard...n im still okie...a dae difference seriously dun mk a difference de...sumtimes i feel dat my parents r overly protective of mi le...yes...tis one cant do..dat cant...nw my dad oso noe abt ed...shd i sae they r all so conservative...wads the big deal abt having 1 bf...n is nt dat the whole ting is affecting mi at all...dad is so ridiclulous...sae wan go scold him..scold him for wad...den mum kip naggin...kip dayin all the veri nasty stuff..sae until as if im dat kinda gal dat will hang out at all the wrong places...i do tk cr of myself when im out nw at h out wad iw ill eat n all..those whu hang out wif mi dey will noe oso de...summtimes cant realli stand it animore...dey r the ones whu r always nt ard..so busy till no time to bother abt mi..nw dat they gt more time...dey start naggin n naggin n scolding for everythin..i realli dun understand..juz feel dat wad they sae gt loopholes in it...esp the goin out ting..ask mi go makan tml...isnt it the same...im still exposing myself to outside air..n worse still..i cant eat a lot of food cuz im still sick....den few daes ago oso like dat....hmph!as usual my mom is gg mad again...she is always saeing all the extreme stuff....dey cant kip mi in the hse forever oso de ma...nxt wk i hv to go to sch n tk exams..thr oso gt air con..oso gt ppl smokin..everythin wad...realli dun understad liao....
nw im stayin at hm...partly becos i tink their advice makes sense...but oso...my mom is actin like sum crazy woman again..sianzzzz...
sian..another dae at hm..todae prolly will slow down my speed but will still study aniwae...since our hse is realli sian..try stayin for sum time..i realli dunno wad else to do other than muggin n tv liao...