another great dae..

woke up late todae..yeap..finali can wake up late le...ate breakfast super heavy...den do my essay..ya..spend a realli long time to plan n write my essay sia...den finali finish le..super shuang sia..had a light tea break den bath...was spendin a long time typin the essay out den aft that rush down to tp to mit up wif jan...was in cd rama readin magazines cuz she late..bee met up oso den eat arts bistro..yummy...
they bought flowers..ya..was tryin to avoidit the whole time..den rush to nyjc for the choir concert..lt was kinda packed with ppl..ya...sum songs a bit weird la..but rest was wonderful...the second half was veri entertainin..was like laughin all the time..aft that was like huggin my juniors..felt great..was wanderin in the new sch cmpd..super big lo..envy sia..ahaha..
hang out a bit n tok to sum of them b4 cumin hm...contented todae sia..
tomolo will be the muggin dae..will be revisin all my stuff n mkin sure of everythin..so jiayou hard..

happy dae..

was late for sch todae..yeap...took another route to sch..luckily haven realli start..was kinda braindead aft econs cls..aft that went east coast wif lirong n sarah..yap..journey thr was actuali kinda long but we were like chattin non stop..haha..drank coffeebean first cuz like noone thr yet..aft that we went to the beach thr n sit..hmm..lovely weather..we waited for sum time b4 we went thr n eat sum bbq food...didnt realli tok to the rest..juz felt weird...den we went back to our old place n sit..ya the beach thr...by that timin is like kinda dark le...the sky is like full of stars.nt totally but i hv nv seen so mani la in singapore..is juz like diamonds sparkling in the dark skies..is beautiful n i was totally attracted to it...we had sum gal tok that i tot realli bonded us...felt great sia...aft that share cab go hm wif lirong..den we tok a lot..haha..happy sia..realli tot my sch i hv noone else to realli turn to de..thank god...
came hm n chat..ya..leg pain sia..tomolo mus finish all my wrk sia..den nite time go back sch to listen concert..haha..can c old friends..so happi sia...love all of u guys sia...

fast update...

wed..long sch dae...super titrin sia...econs as usual is drainin..n tirin la..dragged myself hm aft that...was tired den dun feel like doin anythin..called en..yeap..she is back le...haha..n she oso tell mi a lot of stuff bout america..haha..feel like flyin off thr..haven been realli tokin n laughin super loud tis daes le..is like once i hear her voice..feel great lo..entire nite was juz watchin tv den doin sum wrk..
todae...had eng lesson den head off to orchard to mit up lynn.en and siew...ya was walkin ard cuz i was early..realli feel like spendin a lot of money sia..is like sales nw lo..n im broke..sad sia..met up wif they all soon ltr..ya..en is like changed lo..surpirses too...more prettier n mature le..n thinner liao...woah..hahha..we had lunch together..had fun chattin n hangin ard wif them sia..den aft that walk ard...at fareast..we oso gt tk neoprints..haha..stupid machine sia...
met up wif xuan to watch monster in law while the 3 of them went to watch sum horror movie..ya...movie was great..reealli funni..kept laughin mani times...
walk ard a bit de cum hm aft that..usual stuff..watch a lot of tv..jialat..seems that im kinda slack recently sia..mus buck up le..tomolo wake up earlier to revise my wrk le..pace cant drop sia....jiayou hard..
tomolo gt bbq session..hope it will b fun..n jiayou in my studies

updates...pms..

mon...woke up earli feelin kinda weird all over..went to temple aft that..yeaps...found out sth..is onli in temple nw...n wif my old friends den i can feel like myself ba..siao n without ani burdens...free of thoughts i guess...cuz i will be busy tokin wif ppl..n makin new friends that r true..i tot..was super tired aft that...is like totally zonked out..study a bit den slack for the entire nite le..ya...feelin kinda weird le..or juz back??
todae...had eng cls..hmm..im too gp oriented le..haha...funni sia..aft cls den met up..ya..late n nv sae anythin...was boilin actuali..changed the initial plans..sang klunch..ya..need to realli cool off..had my fill of songs aniwae..haha..singin is my life man..haha..ran hm without ani byes...ya..tot it was abit too much...juz feel like runnin away ba...ya..hate owin ppl favours aniwae..urgh...
came hm drained n hungry..eat abit den do wrk le...
aft dinner..watch show den go potong pasir buy ice cream..haha..love it..esp in tis weather..came hm den watch 9pm show...juz finish all my wrk le..haha..great..
tomolo super long dae..hope everythin will b juz great...

fufiled..

sat...slpt till 12 cuz had a long chat till 3 plus in the mornin...ya..troubled ppl..haha..hui came over to have chinese tuition wif mom..ya...slack my time watchin tv n rottin ard..aft mom left..had sum gal tok wif hui..yeap..thanx..decided to hang out ltr in the nite..yeap..fav ktv session..ya..so sad no new songs de..onli gt one..rest nt up yet..sad sia...enjoyed myself aniwae...
woke up at 6 in the mornin..big walk..surprised that my neigbour oso joined...n a lot of other ppl oso..haha..met up wif siewling den we head off to the startin pt..ya..den start walkin..weather is pretty hot n sunny..ya...but thr r sum entertainin stuff durin the journey..saw batman n spiderman..haha...ppl holdin up banners to show their beliefs..religions...n advertisements..interestin huh...bought a burger in the mornin while walkin...haha..is so cool to be walkin right in the middle of the road as if u own it...shuang sia...tot the journey is kinda gruellin...as in is a super long walkin journey...tirin n thirsty...cant tahan sia..but luckily siew gt accompany mi..started tokin a lot..n singin..
when we finalli reached the endin pt...i practically jumped up..haha...finalli done..aft that went to toa payoh for lunch..is so great to b sittin down sia..haha...walked ard den went hm aft that..hmm..guess im blacker le..haha...tink belly fats gettin more sia..mus try to cut le sia...
ltr in the evenin den revise sum wrk..super tirin sia..but fufiled..

on n off??

is the stupid feelin again...is gettin worse..i cant stand it myself..hw cum like that le..a min ago was feelin super fine...n sweet..den nxt min everythin juz turns ugly..dun even noe wad the hell is wrong wif mi...n as usual is mi whu screwed tings up...i hate myself for that too...i am feelin a bit weird bout tis whole tingy..feelins tings i shd nt b feelin at tis moment nw...y like dat de...???urgh...
i start askin myself..am i even prepared??mayb is juz sum rash action..mayb shd listen to dage...?
guess i need to cool myself down...b4 i hurt sumone realli bad...
horrible mi...

worn out

sch starts late todae...thank god for that..woke up wif sum horrible headache...sux..den rush to sch for the tok..super sian..dun even undertsand a word the guy sae..glad dat it ended soon..rush to canteen to eat..was super hungry..had wanton mee...
went to cls aft that...ya..my econs quiz..hmm..screwed up i suppose...is like qte tricky..duno the ans is rite or wrong..teacher went thru the ans..ya..tink i failed it...ya..n oso alot of ppl ba..jialat sia..guess i need xtra help frm my old friends le ba...had that headache again..is like cant realli absorb..teacher oso noe ba..thats y lesson ended earlier todae..tirin...
sumtimes i feel realli invisible..sumtimes i wonder..even if i dun exist..it doesnt mk much of the difference aniwae..sickenin sia..my friends nw r like dat..i mean the present ones..nt all...but sum...i feel so xtra...so weird..hate that kind of feelin..by rite i shd ny feel that lonely...but im feelin dat way..is like even worse than b4...wad the hell is wrong wif mi..i duno..juz feel realli unwanted sumhw..
glad that i met up wif siewling aft that..ya..juz by seein her juz perks mi up..went to shop for my slippers..ya..in the end bought a interestin earing..haha..den buy a top frm snk at 8 bucks onli.haha..great buys sia..oso gt my slipper..shoppin does mks one forget all their probs..n of course old friends...thnx...
was feelin kinda worn out..juz went thru my econs notes onli...dun feel like muggin todae sia..juz wana rest..
i wan sing ktv..need that to release all my worries..my probs..n everythin...yeap...
jiayou ba

short dae..

dragged my lifeless body to sch once again..had a eng quiz..the last question guess i screwed up...manages to prevent myself frm slpin in the entire cls..yesh...haha
supposed to mit up..in the end sumone overslpt...made mi wait for the sms like sum fool..wadeva la..
came hm n had lunch..ate a lot todae sia..den read seventeen..feel like shoppin rite away le lo..den start revisin econs..ya..headache sia..did the online exercise oso...still feel nt prepared enough..goin to study again ltr...revise once more..hopefully will b fine tomolo ba...dread tis test..den aft that is juz fun le...
lookin fwd to wkend..

hectic sch dae...

slpy dae again...had my music quiz...tot it was fine la...den after dat juz sink myself into mp3 music...haha...my slipper spoil le..thank god my friend gt shoes in her car..or else i will limp hm...
had eng consultations..den had a realli sumptous meal i tot...the fried rice realli nice...haha..had my fill aniwae..
econs was tirin...had sum difficulty undertsandin..urgn..tirin sia...
aft cls kinda drained...den went off to bukit batok...n mit wif jarrel..haha..gt my free cup of coffee...xie le...jarrel mus tk cr sia..dun tink 2 much le..
aft dat went hm..slpt thru my entire journey...
finalli figure out wad the econs is tokin abt le..haha...den chat on fone..2molo cum hm muz study hard le...jiayou..

love my life...

yest aft sch went to mit up...den go orchard thr n eat...realli xin fu ba..nw i finali understand wad the taste is like le...haha...had lunch n walked ard..yeap...
den met up wif siew...yea..we went shoppin for bags..yeap..walked a lot sia...feel like shoppin for the rest of the stuff oso..clothes..shoes..arh...consumerism bug has bitten me....haha...
walked till we were all drained off..den went fareast to rest our tirin legs b4 shoppin again..bought my ideal sch bag for 24.90..ya..jap lookin de...like it a lot..
siew peii mi buy food le den met up wif her friends..den go hm aft dat le...
todae ish a rainy dae..hmmm...almost fell aslp in cls..hate listenin to those grammar tingy...mks mi slpy..manage to wake up when cls teacher starts askin us to do sum stuff..jialat sia..ate sum canteen food..hmm..nt veri gd sia...
met up again...thnx for the tops..love it...its realli sweet...den took bus hm le...ya..loitering ard due to the rain...hmm..love the weather...yeap...
came hm feelin slpy..manage to read sum notes b4 headin for a nap...ya..woken up by the ringtone...had to go potong pasir to collect specs..ya..mom wasnt in sum gd mood...esp when she noes that our specs costs like way too ex...ya...feels kinda weird..den she kept complainin dat the specs sux..mk mi feel weird oso..will onli wear it neccesary ba...ltr ugly...wadeva..ya..she recently is sum pissed off mood sia..cant stop naggin at us n scoldin us...obviously she is stressed out..but i juz cant stand the attitude she treats us n her students..is like a total diff lo...wadeva la..spoils my mood aniwae..came hm den start readin my notes for 2molo quiz...ya..ltr will b muggin again le..
jiayou for tomolo...

great wkend..

sat..woke up n revise my wrk b4 settin off to the bbq at pasir ris...
took a cab cuz i was abit too slow dressin up..den met xuan friends at the interchange at pasir ris..hmm...lots of food...yummy..his hse kinda small n have a pet dog at hm..ya..was realli scared as it is walkin ard...ya..decided to went out wif the bunch of gals for sum fresh air in pasir ris park..ya..mi n one of the gals sat down n tok bout shoppin..haha..fav topic...den we went to play swing..the swing thr veri hard to swing sia...haha...but those kids realli ke ai lo...is like they all look reluctant when thier parents sae cannot play animore le..haha...we vhang ard b4 goin back n rest..ya..was in her friends rm n lookin at ppl playin cards b4 we enjoy the food..is qte a spread actuali..all those food that we bought looks realli appetizing..i ate like many platres of noodels n curry n bbq food..ya...aft that was juz hagin ard to tok..ltr part of the nite went to his backyard thr whr the bbq is..ya..thr is sum swing tingy thr..so mi sat wif 2 other gals..had fun chattin..esp when it cums to the topic singin..haha
had to go first cuz gugu naggin le..took bus n mrt back..ya..halfway thru it started like pouring cats n dogs..veri heavily sia..den we chiong back lo..super cold..took a bath den chat on the fone..had sum long gal tok at ntie b4 retreatin to bed...
mornin couldnt wake up..overslpt to b exact...we made our own breakfast..ya..scrambled eggs..sausages n ham n bread..haha..den rush to the church thr...eat summore still..haha..tink im goin to b a piggy soon le...jialat..tink i will cut down le...
came hm den start revisin my stuff..ya..econs mayb nt that clear still..guess i need ore pratices ba..den juz rot in front of tv le..
feelin kinda weird ba...till had a long chat...haha..hmm politics..haha..okie..njoy my chat...
goin sch as usual..hope everythin turns out fine tomolo..hangin out aft sch..yeapz...njoy my dae...

hapii...

go sch as usual..juz dat todae i dun hv to wake up earli..haha..yeah...super hapi bout dat..todae tried a new route to sch..by tkin bus..juz dat had to walk a long road thr..tot i was goin to b late cuz the rest were thr alreadi..luckily nt exactly late..econs lesson is always tirin i hv to sae...as in hv to use a lot of brain power n nt the usual stuff to understand wad teacher is tokin about..ya..guess i hv to put in more effort on dat ba...
aft dat mi n my grp of friends in same orientation grp de went to swesens to spend our 20 bucks voucher..haha...one of our friends drives..is like way cool..haha...i was super thrilled actuali..cuz hers was sth l;ike a van...den we all sit at the back..mkin ourselves comfortable..haha..shared food wif alia..baked chickedn rice n mint ice cream..had fun todae...the whoel conversation was veri fun..haha..the banana crunch had a strand of hair inside n ate sum le..haha..didnt expect that they realli change the entire tingy for us..went hm aft dat...tirin sia..was slpin the whole journey..den watch tv...
haha..miss singin..feel like goin for sum ktv session or wad..haha..crazi ba...ltr mayb read up on sum stuff..
tomolo will b an interestin dae...goin to bbq wif xuan friends den go over aunt hse to stay over...haha..will njoy myself ba..alreadi foresee it le..haha

tirin,,,

todae go sch...gettin more n more tired le...feelin a bit sad dat my eng dun seem to b gd..as in the cls im assigned to is like eng veri lan ppl...whu ask mi fail gp aniwae..had wrkshop..cls was a little sian
after cls went to cafe in sch to eat...wow..food is gd n worthy for cost..haha
went to slack ard at jurong east arcade while waitin for hui to finish sch...
ya..met up den pei mi tk mrt again..haha...den went hui hse to pass her stuff n slack ard...
went to the park..yeap...den jiu go hm le..
didnt accomplished wad i wana do todae..was on the fone..ya...hope i can do a gd job...jiayou ba..
concentrate hard on studies..

long dae..

sch dae is longer todae...was a bit distracted wif my thoughts..ya..last nite chattin..luckily it was for a while onli..den back on track le...yeap..music lesson was cool todae..learnt more stuff bout notes again..love it sia...
mi n my new friends ltr went to kfc at clementi to eat n chat..yeap..njoyed myself chattin..realli relaxin..den go back sch n continue slack..haha..time passes veris low sia...
had econs..realli scared of that sub cuz i always catch no ball last time in first 3 mths de..yea..true enuff was lost halfway thru..luckily gt friends help mi...revise a few times aft that...haha..at least roughly gt it...af that go toa payoh n mit siewling for the big walk tingy..ya..she gt wrk so i waited sum time lo..bought a new pencil box and sit ard at pastamania n read thru my notes..ya..wana b hardwrkin..guess i will at least hv a look at it everidae so i wun forget ba...jiayou hard..
so glad i met siewling...is like mitin a long lost friend..feeliwas juz great..guess i missed her too much le ba...haha..aft signing up den walked ard b4 mom starts naggin at mi on the fone..rushed hm..duno y recently she starts to get stricter sia..hate dat..noe is for my own gd but imm 19 le...
was clearin my stuff and readin notes and all juz nw...hmm..like veri guai hor..haha...
tml goin hui hse to collect stuff den cum hm n revise n rest..thr will b like 2 quizes nxt wk...wana do veri well in tis sch lo..so sun mus study hard for it..
jiayou...

rainy dae..

woke up feelin tired...juz restless...dragged myself to mrt..journey was long..thnx god im fast at findin seats so i can tk a nap..
met up wif the grp of gals in sch to go eng lessons together...had a shock when the lecturer wana give us a test so as to spilt us up according to our standard...urgh..haven been really writing essays for a really long time le lo..ya..proper english...sow hen i saw the question..is like argumentative and we are supposed to write sth short for half an hr..is nt enuff lo the time..was practically staring for the first 10 mins or so..mind was a total blank..then i start scribbling crap cuz there wasnt enough time..hmm..guess i got to revise my gp le..aft lessons went to holland v wif my friends oso..kinda weird..so quiet on the bus...if is my old pals..we will chat non-stop like duno wad lo...so weird..
sat down n had bk..den had sum real gd chat..tot it was really gd..went back to sim thr n tk bus to toa payoh..cant believe the trip is so fast..haha..happy sia...walked a long way to the central area to mit xuan to buy groceries...
came hm feelin restless..that dejected feelin again...hate dat..cried myself to slp...wasnt feelin myself and felt everythin was in a total mess...woke n ate sum noodels b4 finishin up my assignments..veri kiasu but i juz wana finish fast..den if i free can deal wif other stuff or revise...wana b hardwrkin n nt distracted...find myself irritatin...guess im too over le...mus start tinkin n control..shd nt let everythin go loose...yeap...control ar...
feel like tkin up sum music course outside...miss singin a lot...feel so weird without it...
tml longer dae..so jiayou..n mus focus hard...yeap...miss all my dearie friends....

first dae of sch..

woke up earli n gt ready for sch...yeap..the journey thr was tedious n long..sound like hikin rite....haha..took hr plus b4 reachin thr..was earli..saw another friend instead..den we sit thr n chat while the rest joined us..haha..went to buy bks first..heavy n ex sia..heart pain..haha...
first lesson was music..tot it was qte cool..my fav tingy...tink the teacher is new ba..but still like the lesson..too bad..the other students thr..i mean our seniors a bit distractin..noisy n walkin in late..was surprised dat i nv slp at all..was payin attention wor.haha..
aft that is thw rkshop which is kinda dry...yeap..manage to survive it thru..had lunch wif the new friends..the food thr qte cheap n delicious sia..haha..
aft that mit upw if friend to buy stationary..bus ride was super long oso...butt hurts..haha..thnx aniwae...
dun wana b behind time so start doin my stuff..but have finish la...tomolo mus finish...jiayou hard...

out...

sat...stayed at hm to settle sum sim stuff n train my singin tingy..serene came over at late afternoon to swim..haha..wow..her piano skills are superb...i was stunned thr..haha..aft that we went down n swim..gd exercise oso..had sum gal tok thr..haha..had the same situation..the lonely tingy in sch...feel great to hv a close friend like her...missin all of them more n more...yeap..gugu came at nite n help mi choose a outfit..nt too bad...den had sum chat on fone wif jarrel..haha...long time no tok sia...buddy..
sun..rainy day todae...was feelin kinda lazy actuali...but when i tot of the competition ltr on..juz perks mi up..i practised sum stuff in the mornin n watched tv...bee came over to help mi mk up in the afternoon..haha...gal tok...simply love all of my sec sch friends...xie xie...she did a cool job...den hui oso cum over to jiayou mi..thnx everyone...alreadi feelin like a star...was late den rush off to mit yuping..my super star friend...yeap..everythin seems to b in a rush n mess,,urgh..took a cab n rush thr...i heard sum singin thr..those i tot sang nt bad oso out..scary sia..was feelin qte okie..till i went in n sat down n wait..gettin nervous thr..summore i was qte in front...luckily had sum company...went up feelin qte shaky...gave a small intro dat sounded so nt like mi..den i took a deep breath b4 blasting off..tot i was alright ba..but guess im nt wad they r findin..when i was almost finishin the song..they cut mi off..den gt the red light le..was feelin qte okie actuali..at least thr r ppl applausing..xuan sae she saw the wang jian fu clappin loudly oso...haha..like dat jiu ok le..no comments given by them..guess it was my looks ba..
walked ard imm n slack ard b4 headin hm..leg was super pain due to my shoe..urgh...
tomolo goin sch le..first dae in sim..urgh..i wan my friends..my old pals...luckily first dae is music cls..haha...wakin up real early tomolo...hope sch will b fine ba...
jiayou hard le

finalli updatin..

well well..haven been updatin for the past 3 daes..so tis will b a pretty long entry..haha...
wed..right earhole was feelin swollen but didnt bother too much..still went ahead to go ktv wif weijian...poor tingy sia..hope u like the gift..aha..aniwae tink we 2 sang a lot ba..n had fun too..den aft that we ate dinner together n tok...hope tis bdae is ok for u ba...smiles..
came hm n gettin worried bout my ear..so when i was washin the hole wif sum cotton wool..was shocked dat i could nt see my earing at all..is like totally sunk into my flesh le...disgustin..was panickin..thr was pus n blood ard..didnt noe it was so serious..mom scolded mi n tried pullin it out..turned out more blood came out..scary sia..thank god gt a friend try to soothe mi ba..felt beta...
thurs mornin..woke up n first ting..went to c the doc..tot it had gotten worse..doc gave mi sum injection to mk my ear numb..clear the stuff den pulled the earing out...ouch...aft that was more painful la..but one ting for sure..i wun peirce my ears le...super scary...spent a fortune for the medicine stuff..realli broke nw le...pei hui go out to orchard..wow..she bought a lot of tings lo..envy...muz ren sia...aft dat met up wif xuan and 3 of us walked ard n oso took neoprints..haha...at nite went to lau par sat n had dinner wif jarrrel n edwin..yeap..had sum funny or shd i sae weird conversation that mk mi laugh like shit...haha..mom blew up n dun let us enter the hse cuz we came hm late...is likie more than the estimated time to reach hm..yeap..super angry..we had sum ger tok by the swimmin pool instead but everythin wet back to normal...guess sumtimes i realli shd put myself in mom's shoes...
todae..woke up at 7..dats y im feelin so zonked out nw..had a long trip to my new sch..was feelin super lost n blur..is like the whole new environment seems so unfamiliar n cold..n unfriendly..chat a bit wif 2 gers i met..nt bad ppl la...den aft listenin the tok..we were split up to diff grps..my grp is like a all gals grp n everyone is nice ba..but i feel super distanced away sumtimes..is like so alone ba..tho i did mingle a lot ard...but thr r ppl whu r nt friendly..ya..ya...one ting i hate bout the sch..is everyone seems to love smokin..is super smelly lo..i was like chokin to death..had sum games n a lot of toks dat mks mi kinda sleepy..thr is tis one game dat mk our legs real disgustin..had to pass marbles wif our toes..but oso..the marbles r thrown into a pill mixed up wif flour.eggs.milk..n so on..n the orientation leaders oso kip throwin more flour on our legs..urgh..disgustin..took a long time to wash those stuff off lo..
wasnt feelin gd..feel dat everythin is so nt in place..as in im still blur in stuff bout the sch tingy..den again..i miss alll my close friends..all of them n every single of it..totally felt that when i was at sim alone...lonliness realli can kill ba...feelin kinda down aniwae..
xie xie u actuali came down to pei mi..thanx pal...realli needed that...
haha..tink im goin crazi le..guess i muz calm down...stayin at hm whole dae...n rest...

rushin dae..

overslpt in the mornin..den rush to get dressed b4 mitin lynn...pei her go international plaza thr...cuz timin was kinda tight...pei her sign up one agency..pretty paiseh bout it dat i cant pei her longer...
rushed off to bugis to mit up wif grace..thnx for ur mag..we hang ard...bought a lipglose finali..den grace oso gt buy other stuff.had fun shoppin...she gave mi sum suggestions for the look tingy...den i oso bought a simple white top frm fox woman..hopefully can match..tink one of these daes mus tk out my wardrobe n tink thru..haha
grace gt sum stuff on so had to go off...had sum prob askin ppl out...so i walked ard myself for a while...den went to sim lim sq thr n find weijian..haha..go disturb him...went thr n chat a bit..den another friend came along n pei mi..haha..cos b4 dat was too sian..
walked ard den went off to clarke quay to see him finish off the cake..wonder y all the pigeons r attracted to mi or the food..urgh..walked ard...feelinw weird all the way..
went to mit xuan n yue den went for sum drink while we chat..haha..went off aft dat...
tomolo goin for ktv..goin broke real soon..urgh..havin a little flu..mus tk cr of myself...jiayou ba..

tired but fun...

sun was a lazy dae for mi...waoke up den went to mk specs at potong pasir..jilat sia..my degree increase again..tink mus realli tk cr le..mk a new specs...yeap..hopefully will look ok..den went to hv lunch at mac..while walkin to 7eleven thr..saw shelly...haha...so shocked..is like both of us r stuck on the ground insyantly when we saw each other..yeap..glad to c her ard at my area..haha..
wemt hm den juz watch tv for almost the whole dae...den had a long chat that mk mi feel kinda weird..im nt sure myself..
todae woke up earli den went over to fetch siewling to potong pasir mrt station den we head off together to sentosa...wif lynn..yeap..joel reached thr earlier den pei us get sum bread for our lunch b4 mitin up wif his other 4 guy friends..haha...nice ppl..is kinda awkward in the beginnin la..but aft dat jiu ok le...went thr n rest...first..haha..3 of usw ent to the sentosa hotle n get changed n ready for vball..hehe..
the sand is like super hot n the sun is scorchin..in the end we head off to the are near the sea...ya..whr our legs will feel much cooler...haha..didint realli wana get wet tho it was qte interestin..playin vabll in the waters..retreat back to the land n shade..cant stand the heat..den aft that i was like slackin ard..listenin to music n burryin others slippers n my own feet..haha...crazi...had sum short sessions of vball wif siew n lynn...had fun..den aft that oso wif the boys..fun...n tired..hahha
left n washed up at ard 6 plus goin to 7..was super hungry lo..haha..like pig..went to harbour front shoppin centr thr to makan...ya..ate a lot ba...
was super tired but feel real gd aft a hot bath..haha...tink will slp earlier tonite ba...tomolo will b a tinkin hw to mkover dae haha...spendin sum time wif grace..haha..my image consultant sia..haha..thnx dude..

great..

woke up real earli in the mornin to prepare for the audition...wasnt in a veri gd condition to sing actuali but still manage to warm up la..took a cab to mediacorp..went thr n saw a lot of ppl standin outside..obviously r all applicants for tis competiton de...scary sia..
register le den wait for the ppl to bring us in...xuan has to rot outside while i go in..didnt noe hv to rot so long b4 that 5 mins audition...luckily i made a new friend thr..teacher wor..den we juz cant stop chattin le..haha..luckily for her accompany..or else realli super sian...waited for almost 2 hrs den finalli reach my turn..waitin is realli a torment..esp outside the rm..the camera went in wif mi..i was like super blur lo..den stand at the given spot..chatted abit den start singin..was cut off in the middle...den the judges commented my look n dressin..asked mi to tk over my specs n sing again..tis time wif more confidence..well..i tink i did my best le ba..n yeap..i gt thru..haha..but muz change outlook lo..try la..aft that tok in front of the camera den head to get thr nxt date of audition..ya..nxt one is worse..at imm..in front of crowds n on stage..i scare n nervous sia...stage fright tingy..will try to oversome de..n onli way is to face it..jiayou ba..
was walkin ard aft that..met up wif jarrel at tcc to pass him sum stuff..den go le..weather is like super hot aniwae..went to ps for sum arcade session..enjoy myself thr..hehe
hmm...tinkin of hw to mkover n brush up in singin le ba..may nt get thru again..but at least i muz try my best...yeap

watch tv..

was supposed to hang out wif grace de..in the end nv cuz timin too short le...nt much use la..
watch down wif love..interestin romance show.....den watch stephord wives again...sian sia..wasnt feelin too gd todae..kip feelin tired..so in then end took a short nap b4 proceedin watchin vcds..haha...
the entire nite was the same
then had sum chat on the fone...hahaha..back to sq one..but i will resist de..jiayou..
tomolo is finalli the audition date..realli afraid dat i will forget tis n that...but im goin to do my best la..no matter wad...will jiayou de..n muz clam down or else cannot produce my usual standard...
calm down n jiayou hard..

ktv again??

was tinkin of a low budget outin todae de..had a simple but sumptous lunch..jap noodle..at taka thr,den go to hse of stars thr for a while..
3 of us were tempted for a ktv session..haha..so in the end let xuan friend pay first..went to sing at the outside part of partyworld..tot it was way cool lo..super open la..abit worried to mk ani errors lo..but still had sum real gd time thr...
then met up wif xuan 2 other friends..pei they all eat dinner den walk to tis open space area..gt s stage thr..then i juz stand thr n the 4 of them hear mi sing yan wei die..sing if is ok...hmm..still gt a bit scared lo..muz practise more ba..
came hm n kana scolded...but hai hao la..
dad bought new car..haha...yeah..finali..his old car realli old le...
had another fone session juz nw..is beta..ya..muz kip in mind..i always will stray thr de..so muz nt tok bout that topic animore..ren...
jiayou hard...

home..

woke up esp late todae...den eat sum simple pasta...haha..nice..
watched few hrs str of meteor garden 2..haha..finali done n finished liao..slack till dinner time..ya..finali finished the bk le..interestin n encouragin one
watched another round of tv...den train my singin...decided the song le n was singin to n fro till thr is no flaws...hope on sat everythin will go on fine ba..
helped mom marked stuff...n went online..xie le weijian..haha..help mi listen my singin tingy n ur comments...is impt de lo...
i hate myself sumtimes..i realli do..i duno wad the hell im doin at all..shd nt even contact de..tot like dat i can use another kind of feelin..but i tink the more i chat..feelin gets worse...its juz my own retribution..juz like wad xuan sae b4..its befallin on mi le ba..no matter wad..i muz accept it..has already been sum time le..it shd b time to realli forget n throw the whole tingy away...stop dwellin on it...sch faster start ba..den i can focus all my concentration thr n nth else..
i will b beta n i can do it de...i cant go back to the depression side of mi again.its far too dark..n thr is no light..jiayou hard..singin tingy cumin real soon..tho i tink mayb nt much chance..i oso muz strive real hard...at least thr wun b ani regrets...
wrk harder...jiayi

ktv dae..

todae go sing ktv wif weijian..xuan n mi went eat sum noodles b4 headin towards kbox...
was like super envious of the kbox rm nxt to us..is like realli spacious n cool lo..summore gt like small stage whr u can sing de...had our fill..as in singin...sang a lot..den weijian came along..ke lian sia..sore throat but still singin...arigato sia...sounded fine lo when he was singin decently la...haha...sang a lot den oso gt record sum....tink more or less noe wad i wana sing le..jiayou sia...
aft that went super market to buy sum grocceries..haha.veri funni..was laughin like duno wad..dunnno wad vege wad mummy wan..den in the end ask ard...dun hv...pei weijian eat dinner...we were super ttempted n hungry oso..den he treat us eat a bit..haha...xie xie...
went hm aft dat...enjoy my dae..
mayb i shd nt call at all...sumtimes i feel like askin my heart..wad the hell do i hope to wan...juz lost...shd nt even tink bout all those stuff le...avoidin mayb the worst tings to do but dun tink i hv ani other alternatives..
thank god en call mi frm LA at the right time..felt much beta when i hear her voice..sounded great..miss her so much lo...hope she is enjoyin herself..enjoyin the cool weather thr lo..while i sufferin here...haha
stayin at hm to rest my legs n do sum soul searchin...jiayou

walk walk walk..

todae walk a lot...haha..met up wif yue yue to find jobs..we go bugis to hv lunch..had alfredo..hmm..yummy..den walk ard..gt tk sum neoprints..tink todae the neoprint nice..hehe...
den we walked to cityhall thr..yue n xuan go for the interview at sum jap shop..thr like veri high cls de..abit weird..so we hang ard n decided that orchard area will hv more lobangs..headed thr n went to fareast..walk a lot again n sign up for sum jobs..hopefully thr will b sum news..gave ourseles a break..had coffee..den rest..leg veri suan le..
den we walk n walk to cine thr to ask for kbox vacancy..no luck den head off to heeren n c c ard...haha..while walkin we kip pausin our trip to rest our titin legs..haha..den continue walk to doby gaut thr to tk mrt hm..we hungry den sat down n had sum omelette noodle tingy...delicious..haha..den go hm le..
came hm juz sat thr n watch tv the whole nite..haha...my eye thr gt sum pimple sia..summore qte big..hmm..hope it wun affect my eye ba...weather so hot dats y all pimple pop out le la..
tomolo goin sing ktv..yeah...haha...hope will njoy..

go temple

forced myself to wake up...n wif a headache oso..urgh...xuan n mi drag ourselves thr...tot the games were kinda lame..but the rest of the games n other stuff r cool..esp the part when xuan shuan ppl de..haha..dun like one ger thr...ya..almost everyone feel she is so san ba lo...
nvm while playin the fame a lot of ppl shaun her le...ate a lot in temple...haha..
ya..we watched qte an interestin movie..october sky..tot is one real meaningful n enrichin movie..love dat
came hm n juz stuck in front of tv...den sing sum songs n read more of the bk..hmm..tink gettin interestin le...
duno y mood nt so gd..guess im gettin tired le ba..
yea..jiayou hard le..n missin en...in LA..hw i envy her her...

weird..

was supposed to hang out wif xuan n hui they all..duno wad the hell is goin wrong..is like total blur lo...if bu shuang wad den juz sae out..so weird...
instead of watchin movies..went to walk ard at heeren..den walk to ps...n buy sum stuff for hse de..
super hot sia..the weather...humid oso..cant stand it..walkin hm is like walkin in the desert lo...gt hm n faster tk shower le..
spend the rest of my dae watchin my meteor garden 2 again..n readin sum comics n stuff..haha...i read stuff halfway jiu slp le..ya..n in the sittin position...
watch tv again for the rest of the nite....
been tinkin..i noe i hv changed a bit..due to sum stuff..but wads wrong wif it..tot is still ok de...

enjoy my dae..

yest was waken up by bee fone den rush down to orchard to mit up wif her...yeap..den started our shoppin spree..haha..while walkin at wistam thr..saw our fav ebase..haha..bought a yellow top..totally love it..is like super comfortable..worth the money ba...we den head to eat eat first...haha..den continue go walk mango at isetan thr...ya..saw my choir junior frm bty de..haha..wrkin...had sum chat wif her..glad to mit her..haha
den went fareast to walk ard..haha...poa havin big sale sia..everythin is like juz 10 to 20 bucks..haha..bought yet another yellow tops..crazi ba..bought 3 tops is a dae..but realli cheap ma..summore is poa lei..haha...we continue hangin ard..den went to a shop buy jeans..haha...aft tryin like duno hw mani pieces..finalli settled on 1..35.90 but is realli nice lo..haha...love it...
took neoprints oso..haha..had fun doin dat..while walkin to heeren..we dropped by at orange julius for sum refreshments..haha...b4 continuin our shoppin spree..haha..ya...i finalli peirce earhole le..at cine bits n pieces...haha..ya..abit pain la..but aft dat jiu ok la..haha..cant believe i reali do it sia...nw can buy earings liao..haha....
went over to hui hse n stay over n teach her chem..ya..glad she understood ba..jiayou in ur upcomin exams wor....at nite went down stairs to eat supper..tink we realli piggy..haha....den oso gt help jarrel..tio sum stupid virus hor..computer bai chi..haha...oso gt chat sum stuff..thnx la..but dun forget u owe us..mi n hui a treat..haha
mornin woke up...had a gd rest ba...but dun dare to realli lie my head down ba..cuz scare mk the earing...haha..had a gd breakfast..sumtous wor..wanton mee...haha
den nw waitin for my dear yuhui to bathe finish..haha...ltr goin out again n watch movie...haha..mus contol my spenditure liao..yest a consumerism bug bite mi hard...n was spendin like nth else like dat..long time oso nv shop le la...haha..love myself a bit..by shoppin...
so far..love my dae..

headache..

woke up wif sum headache..guess i hv been stuck watchin tv too much le ba..did the usual stuff again..watch tv for the entire mornin n ate a fillin lunch while watch my meteor garden 2...haha...eat a lot again..recently abit cant control esp when i c yummy food sia...cannot sia..dun wana b pig...
after watchin den help mommy mark her stuff..hehe like teacher..was listenin sum songs n singin along oso..hope i can get used to singin those songs ba...
aft dinner..another round of tv..watch the hai dun wan lian ren..nt too bad sia..i oso wan b singer..haha...but like hard wrk sia...den paint my nails den watch tv again..sian sia...
tink mus read the bks le..recently lazy to read sia..haha...
tomolo goin shoppin..mayb peirce earhole wor..haha...c first..den go hui hse stay for a dae..gdgd..her hse gt nice food de...haha..mus control le...

another dae out

mornin..watched kang xi lai le n was laughin my heads off..its bout twins..the xiao s veri de funni..tot it was veri entertainin..supposed to wait for xuan to ktv together but she was still stuck in sch doin sum stuff..in the end asked zixin out for lunch..hehe...
had pastamania again..haha..crazi liao..ate the baked rice..hmm..its quite delicious lo..den we share the soup n garlic bread..recently start eatin a lot...haha..nt gd sia..becum pig liao
went to play arcade aft that..ya..sort of thrashed sum stuff thr ba..all my bad feelins..feel super shaung aft that..
went off to partyworld to bk first..was singin thr alone first..hmm..tink im startin to get used to singin alone liao..oso gt watched sum mtvs thr..hehe...n my jerry yen..haha..xuan n val came ltr..den sang to my hearts content..todae is better..startin to get the hang of the song..but still lookin ard la..totally enjoyed myself todae..its like the singin passion is all over mii todae..esp..
aft that went to walk ard heeren thr..gt sum guy pushed mi sum lee wei song sch of music brochure..i oso wan go thr but no money sia...hehe..didnt realise i hv been spendin qte sum bit till juz nw i start countin..tot i had more..i wan find a short term job le la..or else veri broke liao..
could nt stand the hunger den went to eat the old chang kee..den jiu online liao..abit tired le..tomolo maynt go out ba..but fri im goin over to hui place n shoppin..haha..jialat..broke soon le ba
mkin sum progress le..as in tink a bit lesser todae..which is gd..but still cant stand c couples huggin or walkin ard...revert to my old self le ba..
jiayou..

went ktv...

went to toa payoh for a ktv session todae...zixin ar..abit late la..so i went to wander ard myself..saw my temple friend wrkin at giordano..hehe..thr gt wrk space but too bad is for 3 mths de..sim is startin real soon le...can onli do reali short term jobs nw..
we had a free ktv session cuz of the voucher..but sadly..the lunch is onli the delifrance curry tingy..nt fillin de...guess music n esp singin does mk u forget stuff ba...was qte into it todae..hehe..gt emotions lei..finali..was singin den in the end..sing n sing till tired le..den a bit lose standard le..but hai hao ba todae...muz correct all my pronunciations n all my flat notes..listen more sia...
aft dat went to eat pastamania..hehe ate baked pasta n it was delicious la...haha...hungry le..
zixin hv to rush off to teach while i walked ard myself..looks pathetic i feel...but aniwae i bought a top frm s n k..hv been eyein it for sum time le..den went hm le..sian...
came hm n wrote a long entry of my own diary..ya...den had sum chat wif enen..ger tok..it helps..i cant stand being alone nw le..thoughts juz anihw wander sumtimes...was watchin tv the whole nite n feelin sian..tok to en again..let mi hear sum shania twain songs dat realli cheers ppl up sia...muz borrow le...
in my own torment..but its all my own doin aniwae wad..i cant blame anione else..at least one party is feelin great..will do my utmost best to stop tinkin..get busy ba

.............

felt the guilt..will i regret...im tinkin ya...
but wad is done cant b recovered n its the best choice le ba...
feel weird..unexplainable but i asked for it...
mom kept naggin again..hate it when she exaggerate tings..juz pissed mi off...mi noe slp too late aint gd for health...but dun tink i hv much time to b like dat le..sch is like startin..
cant she juz dun bother n juz do her stuff..she havent been botherin us for sum time..oso gettin kinda used to it..sumtimes i rather her juz do her stuff...
wadeva lo..

at hm..

another sian dae at hm..was practically evolvin to becum a couch potato real soon le..
ordered baked rice for lunch..den watched meteor garden 2 again...haven finish sia..hehe...
aft that its juz core singin le..sang wif piano den wif cds..was feelin tired aft datt den went online to slack...had sum ger tok wif yue yue,thnx for ur advice gal..
was watchin tv the entire nite again..super sian sia...
tomolo shd b singin ktv..mus train up le..n stayin at hm is a total bore..sim is like startin soon le..so i muz play till i shuang le..haha
almost stonin almost every single min todae..n tinkin thru stuff...i tink i noe wad i wan le..sowie..

went out..haha

tot it will b another dae of rottin at hm...but managed to hang out..cant belive mom let mi...cuz bring her myammar friends to sentosa to walk ard..hehe..leg is slowly gettin better le ba..so jiu go out...
still kinda limpin n feela bit tight at the ankle area but at least i can walk le..haha..
went to the underwaterworld..wow..its been duno hw mani yrs since i revisited the place...was fascinated by the fishes..is like goin thru sum marine or biology lesson ba..juz dat it is much fun..love the part when we go thru the tunnel tingy...felt dat im realli in the sea..kinda envy those fishes ba..can swim ard freely..no probs..freedom..
aft that went to the dolphin lagoon...pink dolphins veri ke ai wor...haha..jump n do many stunts..qte interestin..n super cute
went to 7eleven at the palawan beach thr to eat n rest my leg...den head to the muscial fountain le cuz like a lot of ppl...haha..spend the time readin seventeen..
den lights went off...wow..it is realli cool n sumtimes majestic ba..the 3d part was cool..juz dat it became a bit too kiddy...but apart frm that...everythin was magical...
went to makan at harbour front b4 headin back hm...hmmm tink i walked a bit too much todae le ba..haha..nw feelin weird le..tomolo goin to start my own self trainin le ba..n rest my leg..haha..den nxt few daes will b ktv sessions str le..jiayou to myself
seriously im touched by the msg..can c gt a lot of effort n brainwrk..thnx..
i duno wad am i doin..can sae im in a total mess..screwed up in tis type of tingy..gettin confused over my own feelins ba..i duno..

almost bored to tears.....

tot i had sum rough endin last nite n will b beta in the mornin bit i guess i am wrong ba
watched metoer garden 2 for almost the whole dae again...sum parts realli super touchin..love the music esp...how i wish thr is realli a real daomingsi in tis world sia..haha..but guess is fat hope ba
took my bandage off but still feel weird..like my leg dun feel like my leg..hm...duno hw to explain sia...
whole body was achin..hate dat feelin...felt abit refreshed aft bathin...or else is like sticky all over
i dun feel gd..i noe u r tryin hard to always mk tings rite but i will juz mess everythin up..or mayb everythin is juz nt meant to b..mayb shd nt waste animore time n shd juz look ard..its realli nt worth it de..u will c it as time goes by...will regret...
i feel i may b beta off alone...cuz im destined to b..

whole dae at hm...

woke up in pain..anke was actuali feelin worse than yest...cant even walk properly..hv to depend on arms of my sis and maid..stationed myself at the livin rm in the comfort of my pillows n sofa..haha..den juz sit thr n dun move..watch tv n slack lo.
noon..dad brought mi to outram to treat my ankle..didnt noe the path frm my hse to the swimmin pool is so long n tirin..haha..i was hoppin a lot wif one leg...
in qte sum pain..at least i finalli reached the place..
was super scareed..serious..cuz i knew ltr will b super pain lo..the doc mk mi lie down n as he rotate my anke ard..i was already screamin n feelin qte tensed up..den when i wasnt tkin note of wad he will b doin..suddenly he pulled my ankle thr super hard lo..i was screamin n tears juz fell lo..is veri veri pain ar..luckily the session end off fast lo..
came hm to continue slack..luckily was entertained..haha..no la..was on the fone for almost the whole afternoon ba...at least nt so sian
my newly found tw friend sing nt bad sia..sound like jerry..haha
was stuck on the tv till juz nw onli..super sian sia..read a bit of the bk...nt bad sia..
tomolo at hm again..sian..i wan hang out lo..

pain......

went to tk faculty test..nt in veri fit condition to tk..was super tired n slpt thruout the journey thr aniwae...
reached thr earli so tk sum light breakfast again b4 registerin..the test is a huge disaster aniwae..i totally screwed up...but at least i tried hard la..
aft dat met up n ate abit of swesens..yea..thnx for the bill again..walk ard den went over to jarrel place to lend bk n tk my cd back..hmm..todae go to a lot of neigbourhood like dat..haha
den met up wif wing n her friend..shelly...had fun walkin ard den oso gt tok a lot...
everythin was almost perfect till the part when i missed a step while i was walkin down the stairs todae..ya..was in total pain..cant even stand up at all..well..was qte touched dat thr r sum nice ppl whu ask if im ok ant..den soon the staff thr came n brought mi to sum rm..as if they r conductin sum huge mission..but realli appreciate that..sat down for sum time n is still pain la..den decided to tk cab hm..
seriously tot it was beta..but was lyin on bed n tokin on fone la..so hai hao..but once i stand up all the excruciatin pain came back again..urgh..y am i so unlucky tis daes...first i gt back pain..den sick den nw leg again...
wana go ktv to practise liao but dun tink can hang out wif my limpin leg liao..shd b goin to c the doc..shb b screamin my heads out tomolo ba..

moody...

woke up feelin weird...had sum gal tok wif en while eatin my late breakfast...well..sum stuff she sae is realli meaningful..except the part that she mentioned bout gettin enlightenment n becum buddha..haha..abit funni la
was watchin meteor garden 2 again...decided to tk my time to watch one episode at my own pace..lookin at diff stuff in the show instead...n i tink i saw sum other meaning n stuff in it too ba
took another dosage of medicine b4 retreatin to my bed at ard 5...tink the medcine is super stong ba..juz totally knock mi off each time..hv been slpin a lot for tis past 2 daes..suddenly feel so empty n sumtimes kinda useless..nt doin anythin meaningful here..its like another dae is wasted on slpin again..hate that kinda feelin..but cant do anythin bout it..
feel pissed n irritated by small tings recently..duno y oso...dun feel like tokin sumtimes...n feel frustrated dat mom ask mi do stuff always..despite of mi nt feelin too gd...n her nagggin..it juz pissed mi off...wadeva..
nt in sum goody mood aniwae...tomolo goin for sum test for art design media..hopefully everythin goes well...
tot tis is the best for u ba...but feelin abot otherwise inside...frustrated..i duno..mixed feelings nw...i duno

sick le...

was feelin horrendous when i woke up in the mornin.ya..whole body feelin weak..n the disgusting flu..was feelin super lazy and juz lyin on my sofa watchin the usual stuff on tv..
had instant noodles for lunch and watched meteor garden 2 again..the feelin of watchin it over and over again juz wont fade..haha..wanted to watch more but guess i shd juz retreat to rest cuz my flu is gettin kinda worse..was supposed to wake up at ard 5 but i went on slpin till 7..haha..throat was nt feelin too gd still so went c doc..
helped mom mark sum papers n was on the fone..urgh..had to cut off when mom start naggin..was totally zoned out aft that..den juz headed to slp...woke up at 11 plus to eat my second dose of medicine..
hate to hv ulcers oso..n esp under my tongue..cant pronounce anythin correctly nw..
guess for tomolo i will oso b havin plenty of rest..thurs gt sum entrance test so muz jiayou oso...
appreciate that thought of comin over...thnx

pure bliss

went to watch movie wif a super wierd combi la..i tink so..mi..xuan..val n friend..abit weird..house of fury was fine la..alot of fightings onli ba...hai hao onli i tot..
wentplay arcade a while la..my bball nt dat bad ba..haha..den went bugis thr n change my watch tingy..was walkin ard a lot aft dat den settle at coffeebean for sum coffee..
was at clarke quay..njoy myself la...
came hm..tink im down wif flu le..cant stop sneezin..nxt few daes will b at hm restin ba..slp more n do other stuff...
had a long chat...tink thru stuff oso ba...hope i gain enlightement too ba...haha
nice dae aniwae
smiles...

went temple

todae dragged myself frm bed to go temple to help out..realli wanted sum rest de..hv been feelin qte awlful recently..
walked thr den tok to those pri sch kids..well..am supposed to translate sum stuff..but qte ke xi la..the gal super closed up..like veri sian lo..in the end oso gt mk mi sian sian de..summore cant tok dat much..feel weird weird de...lookin at those pri sch kids..find them realli ke ai n ya..so free n true..is like as we grow up we seldom c too much of it le...alot of ppl becum fake n untrue de...
they r realli cute..dat kept mi goin tho i was realli tired n uncomfortable..
weather was realli humid sia..went hm n took a nap..tirin aft a dae wif kids...
watch the naked weapon n the what women want..niceee sia...love the movies for both ba..
tomolo hangin out to watch movie..hope i dun tummyache again liao...n my ulcer below my tongue can go away..ouch..

super hectic dae...bad luck oso

woke up in the middle of the nite feelin super cold everiwhr..yeap..gettin a slight fever..ya..b4 my dae of audition..ya..went at a ltr timin..abit pissed wif sum friend..ya...
was feelin beta den went thr n sign up lo..queue up for duno hw long den gt my turn...turn out todae is more of registratin...no audtion yet..but hv to still sing in front of sum grp of ppl..guess juz for entertainment ba..quite screwed up i tot...was shiverin n tink it totally sux..notes were out lo..n feel dat im realli nt ready for these type of competition yet,my stage fright n camera shy..is like i will try to b low profile so noone will notice mi lo..todae heard a lot of gd voices..feel dat im like totally defeated n feel veri lan..plus nv realli did my best..abit demoralised...tink i will consider music sch..super soon..but aniwae can still can go for the audtion at 30 april at mediacorp lo..juz for experience onli ba..tink mi qte lan ba,no chance de
walked ard at bugis..n bought a watch..love it...den walked ard again..
haha..sumting realli funni..turn out my friend whom i tot were introducin sum wrk..was in the same comapany oso..haha..world veri small..went thr n hear the plan again ba..abit distracted but tot it was fine..c hw hw ba...
rush hm..tot it was qte late liao..took cab hm n feelin sick again..tink muz rest more liao...tk cr of myself ba...

whole dae at hm...

woke up super late again..at least i tink la...at ard 11 plus liao..was slackin ard...decided to at least give it a shot la..try no harm de ba..at least get sum experience lo..decided to sing a slow song..hope wun screwed up tomolo ba..at last muz do my best..den hv no regrets..
was learnin sum song den gugu came..helped her the entire afternoon wif her open hse stuff...yeap..type a lot of stuff..haha..she owe me one lo...
tokin to sum friend..hehe..mayb nxt time go for another audtion ba...wana expose more...
guess i pissed sumone liao...ya..had sum lousy temper n super inconsiderate...ya..paiseh
realli hope i picked the rite song..scare wrong sia...wadeva le..mitin at 830 in the mornin tml...so muz slp earli le ba..jiayou 2 mi..

hapi dae....

went out wif serene todae..wow..long time nv mit liao sia....hehe..we went bugis thr den eat lunch first..xiao jie eat more sia...u realli eat too little liao lo..
den we went to tk neoprints..haha..had fun posin ard..den went to walk ard in parco..yeapp had fun tryin on clothes..was on the verge of splurgin several times but i managed to hold it aniwae la..haha
went to arcade..well...haven had so much fun in arcade for a real long time liao...veri fun..we played a lot of games n realli had fun..hahah...summore gt callenger halfway sia..she super agressive lo...haha...
ate ice cream n had sum ger tok...den we go c clothes again..haha..
we went to bugis street..wah..thr change a lot sia..gt air con one n gt another storey up..sell realli cheap n cool stuff thr lo...a lot of 10 bucks stuff sia..hehe
went down to tis shop whr they sell gds frm taipei n hongkong de...cant resist my consumerism animore sia..love the top n is like the last piece lo..tink is super unique la..den the bag oso qte ke ai..haha...love the stuff thr..in the end bought both at 40 bucks...haha..broke liao lo nw..serve mi rite but nv regret la..haha
walked ard summore n saw more cheap stuff..tink im goin thr again aft i get my pay on mon..hehehe...great
came hm n was on the fone..memories flooded mi again..paiseh..cant help tinkin sumtimes...
tomolo will b at hm helpin gugu do stuff...tkin a gd rest,mayb go swim swim oso...hehe

finalli can blog

recently the blog siao siao de...cant even write my entry for tis 2 daes lo...urgh..sickenin...
aniwae..tues i went to watch movie-miss congeniality2 wif joel..en and xuan..super weird combi la..but still njoy ourselves ba...movie was funni...but tink nt as gd as the first one la...movie theatre super cold sia...
den aft dat walked ard to buy joel's friend present..den drink starbucks...simple dae i hv to sae..but enjoyed myself..onli stupid ting dat spoil it all is my excruciating backache..urgh...
woke up wif backache again..cancel yue job huntin to c doc..strain my muscle...painkillers dun seem to wrk lei..im still feelin pain..wadeva..den went eat wif popo n her friend...their conversation like revolves ard death de..y sia..shd b optimistic ma..wonder wad i will b like when im their age sia...
slpt till 2 den went ktv wif dage...ya..short session cuz he left first..but njoy..sad sia..goin army liao...duet nt bad..haha..i was singin alone for the nxt 2 hrs..at first tot will b sian..but aft dat feel nt bad lei...train my vocals oso ma...
rain was super big..luckily it is smaller when i reached hm...
well...recently hv been tokin to a lot of ppl..hehe..happy..close terms ba..
tinkin of joinin the channel u tingy..but scare sia...oso duno wad to sing...xuan they all kip askin mi to join sae for experince...sat still gt sum time ba...will tink it thru....

rushin dae..

storm todae...rainin cats n dogs everiwhr..well..weather is pretty coolin n nice..but mafan cuz the rain hinder my schedule todae..urgh..went out at late afternoon to return the thumbdrive..rush back to office thr den head str to international plaza to mit up wif dage...den go to several agencies to sign up..went up n down..haha..paiseh la
den walked ard bugis n eat ice cream..haha...den go suntec a while b4 i rush back to mit up again...walked ard..was feelin zonked out aft all the rushin..in sum pissed up mood aft dat..went to arcade n play abit..cant believe i was so nt enthusiatic..so unlike mi..usually i love those sessions..walked out..feelin duno wad..walked to suntec den toom bus hm..a bit stupid la..was feelin beta aft dat durin the chat...
came hm feelin tired but still sang some songs..was feelin all weak aft dat aniwae...had another round of chat..well..its cool...tink i manage to learn sum stuff ba
hangin out tml for movies instead beach..urgh...storm again...i wan the sun...i wana suntan..haha...hope can njoy myself ba

lazy sunday...

was practically doin nth todae..woke up late..close to 12..hv been wakin up late tis few daes...piggy..den watched sakura movie n ate pizza..haha...nice nice...den sing sum karoke..my singin juz sux todae..mayb i tired or wad ba..muz train liao
whole afternoon was juz lazin n tinkin thru stuff..wrote a super long entry in my own personal diary todae..n apparently im still qte lost...ya..
helped mom bought medicine for a bad headache..hope she is feelin beta le ba...
watched the jing tian yi vcd todae...had fun watchin dat..haha
had a long chat wif dage todae...n tink thru stuff...i tink is the best way ba...dun tink shd rush tings...let tings flow or the same way is the best solution ba...
still lookin ard for ppl to pei me go for jobhunt...goin international plaza thr..den mayb mit up dage...or wad...
hope tis is the best way ba...im still unsure...

confused

im feelin veri fan n lost..noone to turn to for help tis time...i hv sum time to tink it thru..but it will affect mi totally...my life for the nxt few mths or wad..i duno...
hate mkin decsions..but hopefully mk get a gd decision...
jiayou

another jobless dae...

went out for jobhunt..well..aparently all shops r lookin for perm ppl liao...cant find ani..no luck..in the end..en mi walked ard n took neoprints...met up wif grace n dage...gave present den walk ard again...cant wait to go for a crazi shoppin spre..after the 10th...im awaitin for dat dae to cum man...haha...
nt in ani gd mood..went off to arcade n play..wow...released part of my stress ba..
went hm n came online to look for jobs..hv to sae im desperate..no jobs..means no income..means no singin course liao...so muz jiayou...
couples everiwhr....dun like the sight of it...urgh..juz wana b alone ba...
oh ya..went to a christian shop at somerset..music realli calm me down..saw sum realli comfortin and meaningul words...yesterday mistakes and regrets belong to ysterday..today is a clean slate..a chance to start over..enouragin..i will try to keep these words in mind
to alex...im so glad dat u gt wad u wan...congrats to u gettin to the uni of ur choice...when u go us..dun forget us sia...haha
thnx for those who r concern..i will b fine...
gambatte

april fools dae...

mornin aunty came over..den we discuss abt her designin open hse tingy...hope i can b of sum help to her..went to cityhall wif her aft dat..bought a present for zixin liao...hehe..den walked ard
met up n walked ard...did stuff dat i nv did b4..enjoyed myself..realli...
but too bad..it will juz b the first n last..n the story juz gotta end..b4 it actuali can start...and i certainly do my best to 4get..im sure i can do it...n i will..juz mk sure no regrets...dats all
tomolo goin for jobhunts...hopefully can find one soon...abit desperate cos i need thge money to live...urgh..wadeva..jiayou for it...
10th will get my pay den go shoppin n singin course liao...haha
hmm..duno wad to sae..tryin to drown myself in sorrows n nt to tink of ani happy moments nw..gambatte..

rushin dae..

was kinda shacked todae..slpt at ard 5.30 in the mornin to finish off my stuff...at least all done liao..
aft dat enen came over to do her vid...did qte a long time plus kip rainin cats n dogs..feelin abit frustrated n listenin to heavy music...
we finish everythin by 3 plus..which is super late den we 2 juz rush off to boon lay..even took cab thr..at least submit all my docs liao..everythin done..my mind can b at ease le ba
met up a while...sae the truth la..hurt lo..ya..
went to jurong east to mit up weijian n his friend to sing ktv...needed dat last min..need to release sum stress..luckily at least dat period i was feelin fine..did cheer me up...
hate dat journey hm..seriously i hate it...feelin horrible..wadeva...i will juz do wad u wan ba...
feelin restless...tomolo helpin auntie..i wana hang out tis wkend oso..get myself busy...jiayou

i cant escape fate

tis is so ironic..amin ago...i was feelin blissful n tot otherwise...wel well..if i nv pop up the weird question..guess i will nv noe ba...am i cursed or sth??dat all guys will treat mi as buddy...cuz it seems dat almost all r turnin like tis..used to it? yea..probably..im tinkin mayb im a guy in recarnation...cool huh...
im so gettin sick of tis game of wadeva...is stupid...n senseless...n it mks one stupid too..i tink..judgin frm the many cases i hv seen...
i will live my own life...n juz let nature tks its course...
n stop all those fat hope tinkin...
ya...

last dae at wrk..

thr were tings to do todae for wrk..which is gd..i dun hv to slack my time..but was drop dead tired aft last nite..slpt at 2 plus..cant barely open my eyes...n dozin off while doin wrk..hopefully thr arent much mistakes..
was abit fan bout my vid but luckily borrowed a thumbdrive n was able to finish mot of my wrk in the office...haha...
perm staff were realli sweet..they treat us to teatime..is nth ex but was realli touched...guess i will realli miz them lo...
im in great pain..yeap..the cramp n havin sum horrible backache...urgh..had to tk cab hm cos i coud no longer walk..jialat sia...
hope tomolo wun hurt animore
well...finish croppin my pics..n almost done wif the video..nw is juz sum editin n sound effects..den burm them..den finish liao...haha....
jiayou sia...goin ntu tomolo...n mayb ktv..dun wish to hang out too late tomolo..paiseh to hui sia..i c my timin tomolo..mayb lastmin change...
hv been tokin quite a lot..yeap...thnx for helpin mi relac....was too tensed up..

worn out n stressed...

tis 2 daes hv been hectic for mi..worryin bout my deadline for my design stuff m everythin..im accepted in sim yet sch is openin at may..n im waitin for ntu..sickenin shit la..i realli do hope i can get thru ntu which is much cheaper n my ideal sch lo...wish mi luck ba...
well.at least im more or less done wif my filinin n everythin..nw is juz compilin...urgh...faster finish tis n at least let mi tk my breath..
wrk is as usual except tomolo will b my last dae thr..contract end liao..tink rest a while den muz faster go look for jobs liao...guess i will miz tis short wrkin daes..quite slackin ba n the ppl r nice thr lo..mk dozens of new friends...
juz nw aft wrk met up wif francis...haha...look diff frm last time liao..abit fatter ba but tink still look nice..haha..veri shy like dat..but aft dat ok le la...
was feelin quite f*** up..stressed by parents naggin...wrk..uni...urgh..wadeva....
stupid earthquake again...killin like thousands..hate dat..mopther nature pls stop dat...its realli cruel...
god bless..

walk a lot...

afternnon met up wif bee to tk pics n vids todae...cuz hv to pia liao..deadline n haven realli tken sum gd stuff...urgh...
so we walked ard orchard n tk several pics...veri hardworkin wor..haha...while tkin stuff..finalli settle on sum simple stuff for my vid..tink it shows of mi ba....i oso gt tk ppl..hmm..quite tough sia..cuz i dun wan dare to notice ppl tkin them..so when they look..i will act tkin sum other stuff...had fun actuali..thru my camera..saw other stuff dat arent dat significant..cool...
aft orchard went chinatown...was supposed to bring bee to buy sum realli cheap cds..end up i cant remember whr is the place...hmm..bee sae i lu mang..hai..im nt dat bad la..bleahz..haha..we walked to shenton way..leg damn tired..n on the way we went siao tokin..2 crazi women..haha...
had sum ger tok at china square...tink is realli nice..pulls our friendship closer ba..
head off to clarke quay den....thr veri nice wor..nt as complicated as wad i tot..mayb is becuz the nite is still young n boat quay has more pubs ba..lightin was veri cool n nice...haha...saw a lot of couples at those quiet spots..mk we all 2 veri weird but at the same time abit envy ba..haha...tink thr veri romatic sia..haha
leg was achin..den headed hm
felt kinda gd cuz at least i tink i tk sum ok shotsa todae n more or less done wif the shootin..tomolo goin town n tk a bit more..den can faster do the editin n the rest of the wrk liao...jiayou..muz finish latest wed ba...my own dateline...

fun...

tis 2 daes r quite packed but ok to mi..muz admit i enjoyed myself thoroughly on fri..gt sum gd advice frm designer person en dad noes...
den met up wif wing n the gang..gt sum problem reachin thr on time..in the end..en n mi went to sing first..had our time thrashin out sum songs..
den dey all cum..i had fun la..everyone is ba...sing to our hearts content..guess i still need to brush out a lot sia..feelins n style..muz jiayou hard...
heard sum realli gd singin near the small pub nearby...thr r realli nice..practically melted again..haha...always meltin huh..hmm..but one thing is for sure..no matter wad..singin juz rules....
had pasta..hmm.first time nv eat finish...den walk ard b4 we 3 head hm..mi,xuan n hui..we were like singin on our way hm lo..had a lot of fun..cum hm oso siao diao like dat..haha..
todae woke up earli n went sch help my mom deco her cls...mi n hui wrk hard...ya...the pins r hard to attach onto the board lo...tot is was runnin kinda late but still managed to finish our bit ba..hope mom cls can win sia..haha..our effort lo...
ate den took cab str to harbour front den go sentosa..weather was coolin...mei was hangin wif friends while we 2 walk ard n tk pics..was paddlin at the borders of the 'sea'..veri comfortable lo...cool relaxation...den we juz sit at the beach thr while the wind blows..seriously dun even feel like standin up for the moment lo..lol..too bad..starts rainin...wana play vball but dun wish to get drenched lo..played a bit when the rain was smaller den starts pourin again..
when the rain finalli stops its nearin evenin liao..we did all sorts of silly stuff wif wing's friend...diggin the sand n buryin our legs into it..haha...
den went to play vball a while..mei hand pain..so aft dat went to rest while mi n hui had a game wif sum grp of gals..realli sweet ppl..guess i haven been playin for sum time liao dats y...i play until my hand a bit swollen n the bones ache...pain sia...
went to harbour front walk ard...haha..bought a skirt..cant stand in..tink the skirt is rather cool...den oso bought a ring..ironic sia..was feelin kinda broke but im still spendin....realli miss shoppin sia..haha
came hm feelin all zonked out n stressed when i felt dat i haven realli accomplish anythin...my pics arent satisfactory...vid nt done...n im feelin desperate..tomolo muz pia liao...jiayou..muz finish b4 deadline sia...
was tokin n felt much beta..thnx ar pal...
hope i can pia as much as possible tomolo ba..jiayou loads..

hazy dae...

wrk half dae todae..luckily sia..or else i will b bored to tears cuz realli nth beta to do lo..given veri veri little tings to do..finish it b4 10 lo..den was juz slackin n uploadin music in my com..super sian lo
went back ny mwif enen...hmm..juniors cant recoginse mi...did i change dat much??..ok wad..den mit up wif sum teachers...aft they r done wif the appraisal tingy...we 2 walk ard n took pics...hmm..tk a lot todae..so hai hao lo..hehe...gt sum achievenment
came hm n start practise my singin..long time nv realli sing well liao...if dun practise will rust sia....tink i realli nv use much of my diaphragm which is bad..usin sum throat voice...muz learn to project more sia...
tink im hvin my pms rite nw..sayin the wrong tings n feelin all wrong...is like kip changin my mind..i oso duno y suddenly becum like dat..damn fickeminded n horiible..hope i didnt piss ppl off that badly...had a disagreement wif mom..i tink i will try to change my timin..aft all she is my mom...
wad i was supposed to b feelin..i aint feelin...is juz like last time...dun feel like tokin..history is repeatin itself again...n usually aft dat will end off as juz gd friends...sum emotional tingy i noe..but sumtimes i will realli feel dat guys shd b more initiative n nt the other way round..n im startin to compare a lot..y is nt sensitve at all..y nt as considerate as sumone else...urgh..wadeva...
tomolo goin to mit wif sum designer guy to c our idea for video..hope can get everythin done real soon cuz dateline is approachin..great..finalli ktv tomolo..finalli can unload all my stuff n frustration dats inside mi...guess i may juz sound awlful..wadeva...

........

wrk is the same..juz dat mornin is more occupied which is beta..i loaded a lot of songs into my com again..haha...
en wasnt in gd mood..sowie for my bluntless...i will try to tink more de..den afternnon watched meangals n ate my panda cake..haha..gd relaxation...
watched princess diaries 2 again..love dat show man..todae like couch potato lo..did tk sum pics..so nt dat bad...
wasnt in a too great mood...kinda pissed off n nt feelin gd...mayb pms or wad..but im nt feelin wad im supposed to b feelin more n more..sort of losin it...wadeva..
i will juz engrossed myself in my ktv seesion n beach session on sat ba..
n jiayou for my design tingy
goin back ny tomolo...lookin fwd to dat

sian sian sian

sian is the onli word i can describe my dae..woke up late n realli worn out cuz was late chattin..can onli blame myself la..but did njoyed myself..
wrk was sian..onli little wrk is given n den i was left to do my own stuff liao..even watched white chicks cuz i was 2 sian diao..luckily nv gt caught..
im pimplised lo..pimples growin..urgh..hair oso longer liao..feel like cuttin but i wun..wan my hair longer den nice...haha..contradictin myself liao..
xuan friends were ard...had sum excitin time lookin at val play the cheatin game..haha..was damn tired so went to tk a nap..den cum online..busy sia..haha..thnx yanling for helpin mi edit my stuff wor..xie xie...
felt dat we were driftin apart fast..i duno..juz feel a bit distant for a while..like so near yet so far kinda feelin lo..guess its due to u busy i oso nt dat free ba...wadeva...let nature tk its course..
lookin fwd to fri n sat..cos will b hangin out..thurs tkin half dae off to go back..shun pian tk pics...1 down still gt 2 more..more tedious de..jiayou..

hmm...

y do i still feel a surge of pain..tot i hv gone thru dat liao...but y?? gt dat kind of sense of simple happiness tho with dat pain n sadness..mayb is u ba..forget bout a lot of tings during that short converation..cant like dat sia..muz learn hw to put down liao..seeing the person being surrounded by happiness and much beta..gt mixed feelin but muz b happy for the person liao..
learn hw to put down all ba...n look fwd..

another boring dae..

had a terrible headache when i woke up in the mornin..was even feelin more disturbed when those mosquitoes start suckin my blood..damn itchy..
was in a horrid mood..probably due to monday blues...i dragged myself to the mrt station..had a pleasant surprise ba..saw lynn n meiling den we head off together lo..had fun chattin la...thank god for that..did sum wrk assigned me...i was dozin off for almost the whole morning..cant barely open my eyes...so i did wrk veri veri slow la...tho nt much...still finish everythin by 2 plus to 3...den i start crammin for my essay...n plan my stuff..luckily i gt bring my archie comics..so i slack a lot aft finishin everythin...eat again..will try my best to cut down de..haha...chat wif enen..had our own q n a session,i can onli sae we both loves imagination...haha..took a short nap b4 leavin..den mi n enen start tokin at outside wrk place..long time nv chat like dat liao lo..haha..
no more you'll be the one liao...miss that show..feel so sian..like nth to do lei...came online early den yeap..finish my draft liao..find it kinda short...but can concentrate on pics n video liao...aim is to finish by tis wk...mayb thurs ba..fri n sat wana go out n play..muz relac..i need dat a lot...jiayou..

go temple

last nite hui came over to stay...had great time n i was on the fone till abt 2..enjoyed my time la...
mornin went temple..tho tired but was in a quite ok mood ba..i was especially hungry todae ba..kip eatin like a pig..tink i realli muz cut down liao...jiayou sia...help translatin words to a gal in my grp todae..she a bit deaf..so i hv to write to her wad the others r tokin abt...feel happy frm within..n i realli do envy her in a way..she is realli cheerful n postive ba..tho is a silent conversation btw us but i enjoyed my time spent wif her...
tot todae the cls nt bad la...nice movie n taught us to b strong frm within ba..guess we r realli fortuante lo...n i dun wish to b another living dead...i wana b a living living person lo..haha
wad i eat todae..2 pkts of chee chong fan with swee gui..den lunch eat rice..den soon..eat ramen for dinner again..scary rite..goin to control myself tomolo..scary appetite..came hm den busy..lynn came over to register..den rite aft she leave..xuan pei mi go walk ard downstairs to tk pics..suddenly feeel veri sian of doin all these..dun feel like doin..but at least muz try ma...tok to yih..feel a bit lost again..guess she is rite..i hv been blurn lost all the way..nt realli dat certain on wad i wan ba..but guess nw i shd juz focus on finishin everythin..den sae hw lar...heck liao lo..wads done is done...cant b indecisive liao lo
tok to sum of my other friends..hope wad i say will b of help ba.the uni tings..
goin to wrk tomolo..sian n veri sian...guess for nxt few daes will ju8z rush hm aft wrk to clear my tings...den fri n sat can go out n siao diao ba..so jiayou..gambatte jiayi

happy happy

todae went to tk fotos wif bee n enen..but bee came my hse to register for uni first...haha..bee oso help mi choose clothes to wear..haha..den rush to hougang to mit her friends n hv lunch..nice chattin..
den went orchard n start tkin sum abstract kinda fotos..tink we all quite serious lo..haha..but nt long batt flat liao..so we ended up walkin ard in fareast,bought a brown nail polish..quite nice ba...heard a lot of screamin at level one so went n tk a look..in the end everyone is waitin for wang lee hom..haha...so in the end we all 3 wait thr for wang lee hom...wait for one hr..but i dun mind..den he cum..like walk past us..veri veri near wor..he damn shuai lo..den oso tall..ahh.....
aft dat stay ard..a lot of ppl thr lo..so i kip tryin to peek thr the mani ppl n c thru the small window..aft tryin a lot of times,i ended up standin sumwhr near n juz listen to his voice..god...he gt such a nice voice lo..den when he sing..i juz melt thr lo..haha..if gt a bf like dat..jiu shaung liao lo...love his voice...
interestein interview..den went to standby at the backdoor again when he is about to leave..hehe..sae him closeup once again..but im osom pushed ard at the same time la..everione juz follow him aft dat lo..grps of screamin gals...haha..
aft dat mit wif hui den walk ard..she finali bought mi the veri belated present..ya..racer back frm hula n co..is green..tink ish nice lo..we shopped ard..n kip tryin on wif clothes at ebase..gt one damn nice..but 2 bad im broke lo..urgh..den eat pastamania..ok todae..dun taste as gd..stayed out till 9 den go hm..leg veri tired aft standin so much todae..oh ya..we took a neoprint todae..realli had fun tkin todae..veri nice...haha
still yet to finish my design tings..still gt eveiting la..tomolo will tk pics..den ltr write my video draft n essay ba..sick of crammin essays sia
tomolo goin temple..hv to wake up earli..abit sian.. but hope i will njoy ba

super sian again

wrk is super sian..mayb beta than yest a bit ba..feel kinda bad todae..overslpt den juz gobble up the breakfast mommy made one..nice la..2 bad cant realli njoy it..mornin was still fine..gt sum wrk to do,n chattin wif a perm staff..he juz gt back frm tw..excited bout the trip still..oso gave us nice nice sweets frm tw wor..haha..nice..
whole afternoon i was slackin..readin archie comics..den watchin jay chou live concert..haha..of course softly la..appetite has been increasing lately..like pig..had sth nice for lunch..den by 3 plus..im cravin for food again..went down wif yuehwa to buy food..haha..sandwich n orange juice..healthy..she is still amazed by my huge appetite tho..haha
came hm str aft wrk..den read the seventeen mag...a lot of nice clothes..but quite ex lei..i wana shop..urgh...watched princess diaries right aft my dinner..so niceeeee..love it...so magicAl..if can mit a guy like dat..i will b like wow lo..haha
den watched the last episode of the you'll be the one oso..nice..all the happy endings..sweet...feel hapi lookin at happy endings sia..haha
sian..still got to do deign tingy..n worse i dun even hv a idea on wad to video tape..kinda fan bout dat...feel kinda lost lo..
tomolo doin the design tingy oso..luckily doin wif friends..so shd b fine..haha..juz gt myself a veri ke ai godsis..call wingyin..haha..hapi...
mi muz continue jiayou..sure can de..

tinkin...

juz had a chat wif dage...xie xie...im goin to listen to u..tink is the best choice nw..dun rush in..but noe each other beta first..mayb another 1 or 2 mth den c hw it goes..its nt the time but whu the person..ya..dats wad grace sae..guess i hv to keep in mind dat i muz noe him beta first den can sae anythin..nw is still earli..is oso a test among us ba....
so muz rember sia...in case i get too emotional at times....was damn impressed by dage love story..haha..romantic lo...dage muz jiayou wor..mei will support u n grace all the way de....
thnx dude

super sian...

wrk is super sian todae..cos i gt nth to do at all lo...urgh..first ting i reach office is go cafe downstairs to buy food...tot i eat a lot lo...den read newspaper..den wait for tings to do..but to no avail..in the end i go to tk my colleague wrk n do..cos too sian liao...i finish all my stuff ny 2 plus..den start slackin...try to slp..den play wwif the paint..cos nth else to do liao...or stone thr..urgh..tomolo goin to bring stuff to read or watch liao..dun wan b so sian..feel so rotten
came hm right aft wrk...den juz sit n watch tv..gt sing my karoke..juz bought the she karoke dvd..haha...can sing liao..den watch the 9 pm show..you'll be the one..ya dats the name of the show..tink im addicted to dat show..tink veri nice n sweet lo..so ke xi tomolo last episode liao..muz rush hm n watch..haha...
heard dat nxt fri is gd fri..yeah..can rest..i wana go shoppin liao...haha..n sing ktv..
sumtimes i reali duno hw my mind wrks...sum time ago..i was tinkin of sth den it was anoher ting...do i realli wish to have it..or isit juz influence...i duno lei...tink i beta juz let nature tks its course..dun get stuck at one place without movin..n remeber i muz depend on myself de...so jiayou

busy dae..

wrk was sian as usual...nth to do in the mornin once again..guess tomolo wil b the same outcome de...urgh..wadeva gt money can liao..so ren ba
aft wrk went to ktv at cine..startin veri malu..went to the wrong level..didnt noe cine upstairs gt kbox oso lei..wingyin friends all veri ke ai...can c dat they r havin a lot of fun n they realli do like singin a lot ba..energy level veri high wor...haha...i had a great time tho is nt a veri long time..croon off all my stress n fan nao...so hai hao..n hapi...haha..mk a lot of friends oso ma...
aft dat went to amk to mit up wif hui..she is dyin to go swimmin lo..so cum my hse..aft i had my quite late dinner..den went down n swim liao..haha..actauli nt veri gd like dat la..but mi tk it slow la..it realli distress mi la..feel veri shaung..mayb shd do dat often...
todae busy but hapi lei..hope everytin goes well for mi ba...
n to grace ar..happy bdae to u....19 liao lo..haha..will give u bdae present soon de..muz wait hor..haha

worn out

wrk as usual..was slackin the whole mornin cos no wrk is assigned to mi..bought sum breakfast n slack all the way till ard 10 plus close to 11 den finalli gt tings to do..haha..was dozin off in several occasions..hopefully nv get caught ba..
recently hv been gorgin myself..duno y but kip wana eat n eat lo..jialat goin to b piggy soon liao..haha..
continue wif my daily routine..heard frm colleagus that bugis street n the mall itself had a lot of great buys..i wana go shoppin tho money is abit limited..if i tk part the singin sch..den nt much liao..confused over dat...
had sum conflicts wif a friend..dun quite understand wad r u tinkin..can mk mi hapi den damn sian n sad..den okok...gt thru my whole emotions in juz one dae...interestin n tirin..in case u duno...seriously i oso dunno wads in my mind..guess i realli gt too much stuff dat i gotta conquer b4 actualli accomplishin anythin or else everyone wun b hapi de..gd friends is the best ting nw ba...
goin ktv tomolo for a while wif my newly found friend..realli cute sia..haha..hope i will njoy myself ba..

went out whole dae...

todae go wrk..doin sum stuff dat is quite diff frm last time..write letters..quite tirin la..den aft dat rush to cine for movie wif jarrel dey all n hui...cant even settle down lo..actuali quite tired de...was late for the movie..started liao lo...
watched hse movin castle..nt the movie i initially wana watch..but tot is quite nice oso..funni n touchin..the guy inside veri shuai wor..tho is anime..was kinda touched by sum scenes la..but glad dat it is a realli nice n hapi endin...haha
walked ard cine..den decided to eat sum jap food..den walk to heeren...haha..jarrel friend veri ke ai..glad dat i noe another friend ba..den tk neoprints..haha..veri veri fun..njoyed myself ba...den continue walkin ard..b4 jarrel friend left firstwe 4 continue walkin again..look at clothes n everythin la..ya..orchard like dun hv mani ppl like dat..so deserted tho is 9 plus...so weird..leg damn pain..everytime go out duno y juz kip walkin n walkin lo..hhaha..walk till ard 10 den go hm wif hui...nw in the comfort of my hm..all washed n clean n tired..haha..still gt sum stuff haven do sia..cum to tink bout it..so jiayou ba...mayb wkend go see the music sch or sign up le...muz wrk towards my aim...
jiayou ba

anOther open hse..

went to ntu open hse todae..the jurney was realli long n tirin..sit till my butt hurts lo..hw cum boon lay muz b so far de...urgh...
met wif the rest..en,bee,zixin,jingxin...den we went jurong pt eat lunch first..had a realli heavy one b4 headin to ntu..took shuttle bus..we first walk n browse ard..den went to the outdoor pat..whr i saw my mom's student..help her by signin up sum stuff la..was fascinated by the ppl singin on the stage..thr r damn gd..both the guy n the gal..duno y hw cum they can sing so well..they even speak like sum singer lo..wow...was practically meltin when they r singin lo..haha..
aft dat we continue walkin ard..look at the humainties part..tot it was quite cool la..the courses..hope can get in wad i wan de lo...haha
aft dat went for their tour bus tingy..tour round the sch..sch ish damn big lo...love their yunan garden..quite romantic..haha..den their other faculties..oso went down to c their hostels..wow..quite cosy n nice lo..it will b so fun if a friend stay thr wif u..if can go thr..mi wana stay in hostel..haha...surely veri fun de
left the campus at 4 plus..den went to walk ard jurong pt..nt bad lei..gt quite a variety of stuff thr..but ke xi..abit too far liao..was shoppin ard..hopin to get a bottom...was tempted several times..skirt looks quite ok on mi..abit ex..i tot..den head back to bishan for dinner wif hui..we were standin the whole train ride to raffles place lo..leg hurts n sian...
bought a cool ebase bottom while waitin for hui...n is under the discount..tink i made the right choice of rejectin my choices of toher skirts ba..haha..ate ding tai feng..hehe..realli noe hw to njoy life ba..haha..da pao for xuan n rush him b4 she die of wif hunger..haha..
was tired but crave to sing..took out my karoke vcds n start hummin..mi wana go ktv sia..miz dat...urgh...
gt wrk tomolo...sian..still gt sum uni tings n design tingy to do..gettin lazy liao lo..haha..muz jiayou sia..

tired dae..busy but satusfied

mornin went to tk money out and mk my own atm card..didnt earn too much tis mth cuz onli wrk for few wks..finalli gt my own atm card..but scare i will spend my money veri fast..muz save for rainy daes sia..
went to clementi for the SIM open hse..waited for en for almost one hr...tired sia..went to SIM ltr..place nt as bad as i tot but nt dat crowded and popular like nus..register for my course...nt goin to let go of ani chance nw..tryin my best for every uni..feel much beta nw cuz at least one is done..still gt 2 more..haha..jiayou ba..
went to orchard n mit up wif xuan they all..took neoprints n had fun...haha..long time nv do dat liao..hehe..den went ard shoppin for a while..bought a tee..abit tight sia..tink gettin fat liao..muz slim down first ba..haha..
went hm n start mkin my nails..haha..nth to do n feelin quite tired..put the stickers..hope is nice ba..haha..abit sian of writin essays..mayb tomolo den do ba..goin to ntu open hse tomolo..at boon lay so far lo...travel veri long sia..but no choice..luckily goin wif a bunch of friends..will continue to wrk hard for my essays n everythin..muz muz go uni...dun wan let ppl down
paiseh mom n daddy..nv realli give u money cuz too little tis mth liao..hope u all wun angry..nxt mth sure pay my own bills n give money one...
feelin quite lifeless nw..probably im hungry ba..nv eat dinner...
continue to jiayou..

oFF dAe...

nv go to wrk todae..was quite drained off recently..woke up late n had a gd chat wif my aunty in the mornin...clear of sum of my doubts..den had lunch n watched new yr min...
had a conversation wif friend...oso duno wad im doin exactly..tink most ppl may tik im stupid n weird ba...but guess wad sl said was rite..im scare to put too much in n lose all my senses..but at the same time..im afraid to lose...kinda contradicting ba...but im juz like dat..quite a failure in tis ting..wana b xtra crful
did essays//gt sum realli gd help frm alex..ya..helped mi edit liao..den like totally change like dat..veri gd lo..dats y get gd results for gp lo..thnx aniwae..feel veri sian when i found out dat still hv to write another 3 essays for nus..wana vomit blood liao..
sort of finish all my stuff for ntu..feel more relived...nw juz hv to edit stuff..left wif nus de..n application for sim...den the deign tingy..den shd b done liao ba..like still gt a lot of tings..but feelin realli sian...
goin to sim open hse 2molo...wana sing ktv...im deprivin of dat...need to sing my heart out...n wana watch hitch..urgh..n shoppin..so mani tings i wana do sia...
daddy bdae todae..so wish him happy bdae..n thnx daddy for everythin...
hope everythin goes well for mi ba..en..dun brood too much bout it...dat guy sux...urgh..

sIanzzz

went to wrk..realli dun feel like wakin up todae de..still dragged myself..luckily dad bring mi thr la..was doin the usual stuff..goin to slp n doze off when my long time no tok didi sms mi...almost chat till i finish wrk..luckily sia...hehe..thnx ar..i finished wad im supposed to do at 3 plus..which is still a long time b4 i knocked off...read new issue of cleo..love the mini skirts thr..feel like splurgin liao..jialat sia..took a nap oso..realli slackin sia..haha..den wope up nwif sum gd inspiration to write my 300 word essay ting..roughly wrote out the draft..tomolo den pia more..esp tk leave to do all tis..or else realli feel so unsettled sia..n oso finalli can rest..tired frm all the tinkin n stress
went wif my huijie..sch of thought friend..n sum of her colleagues to orchard..hehe..mk new friends n tok to them a lot..so hapi sia...saw the mkup course..sounds quite cool lei..but tink i join my music sch den c hw first...haha..went to fareast wif them..saw sum realli cute halter but 2 bad..wear liao..weird weird 1..dun look 2 gd...nxt time go shoppin..the consumerism virus is infectin mi liao..haha...took the same route hm wif yvonne..new friend..realli nice gal..n she doesnt look like her age wor..had a great chat wif her..tok bout almost anythin...we both great tokers ba...tot i will walkin hm alone aft dat..but was wrong..haha..saw my friend whu lives veri near my hse thr de..we tok a lot...realli bubbly n funni friend..had fun..we stand at the road thr den kip chattin till 7 plus..haha..den oso mitin her everidae to go wrk together..like dat wun so sian oso..haha..great..had sum time wif myself..wrote hw i felt in my own diary...feel much beta..hope i can b clear of wad i realli wan
the channel 8 9pm show is so romantic sweet..was on the verge of cryin when the raymond see tell the hao meiman those words..tot is realli sweet..guess im almost but nt totally lik her ba..gt my own prb to overcome ba..
goin for uni open hses tis wkend..so 2molo muz jiayou..do finish everythin..den can feel beta..jiayou..jiayou

tired but ok...

another dae at wrk..zonked out sia..learned another new type of form which is quite hard to settle de..mk mi heachache sia...tot of uni ting..oso headache la..
urgh..
aft dat went out dinner wif friend...ya..teachin mi hw to eat properly ba..proper lesson on social ettiquite..haha..i duno
den its juz walkin ard again..haha..but i dod enjoyed myself la..didnt realised that orchard looked so deserted at nite time..guess everyone is back at hm studyin..i feel like studyin sia...
came hm n faster watched my channel 8 show..tot it was realli romatic n sweet..hopefully tis type of tinmg can happen in real life ba...was tokin to zixin on the fone..thnx for lendin a listenin ear..n cya tis sun wor..
wana write my essays out..but was too tired to tinjk bout anythin for the time being..tink i used up a lot of my brain energy n wave..did a lot of tinkin while goin hm..guess..i realli need to tink over calmly..nt juz any ting ba...
reallli tired nw...for nxt few daes will prob b stuck at hm doin uni stuff..aim is to finish by tis wk lo..so jiayou ba

lOst...

juz a short update of tis 2 daes ba...
sun i went to suntec city for the ntu talk n career fair.feel esp depressed and demoralised aft dat..seems dat i cant even mit the min requirements..quite jialat..i helped myself with a lot of pamplets n all..well..hopin to find sth suitable ba...aft dat cum hm quite tired n sian liao..so nv update...hv been doin essays tis few daes and oso tinkin wad route shd i go to..realli feel so lost..seems dat no uni wun wan us de...:(
mon was like ani other dae..wrk n slp a lot..cuz slpt too late..so damn tired..kept dozin off in front of the com..luckily gt friend sms mi..den i nv slp until too jialat..haha..aft dat went hui hse n eat dinner n teach her abit of chem..glad dat i still remeber a bit...heng ar...went siao last nite...but at least gt my ans la..so okie ba..ya..
todae still realli tired..guess i realli need a long time to heal totally frm my first huge failure..had a conversation wif a friend..n we were like quite freaked out..both of us..feelin quite lost lo..haix..
was realli tired..slpt right aft i bathe...ltr goin to write essay n racked my brains le ba..tonnite gt a lot of tings to do..haix..
jiayou ba...

beta...

mom ask mi to write an article bout ntu in the mornin..sae results bad is oki...can submit like a self intro tingy in ur application oso...
i immediately wet to the webby n start crammin for the essays...seriously hv nth much in mind so ask alex for help...they tis type of ppl realli gt lots of experience..guess he is rite..hv to rrealli tink thru n edit few times den submit will b beta...
was late to mit friend...was stuck on the essay tingy...well...headed str to long johns n he handed mi my veri belated bdae present while he went off to buy food..was a bit shaken when i saw the present..it looked realli real lo..its a kitten in a slpin position la...tot it was a real one..realli xia dao lo...but aft dat gt calm down la..thnx for tis realli interestin present lei...deep impression still..mom even shrieked wehn she saw the kitten on my table aft dat..haha..
aniwae..started teachin sum amths...was abit embarassed at the beginnin cuz su tings forget liao...but lucklily i was back on track..so hai hao lo...heng ar...
u r quite a fast learner la...gt do wad i ask u to do..so veri gd..haha..it was gd time spent la...at least i taught someone n he understood it..hopefully can pass la hor..den oso gt chat...feel much beta den yest liao...tho still abit unstable..
aft dat went n walked ard n chat a lot..everitme chat a lot de..njoyed myself tho la..hehe
met up wif xuan in coffee bean..spend alot on eatin...jialat la..aft dat xuan still eat tako pachi..realli full lo..we walked ard in orchard..ya..bought a hot pink skirt at foxs woman again..love dat..tot it was realli cute la...
came hm n played ard wif the singin system we had in computer..can record singin de..tink i sing still nt enuff projection n feelins..muz improve sia...
start wrk..wrote essay for uni ting..gt sum helped frm grace..xie xie..still tryin my veri best to pia the essay n give ppl help mi edit..will jiayou de...wrote onli 1 out of 6 essays..urgh...n im feelin veri sian liao..muz jiayou..cant give up...
hopefully gt a uni will tk mi ba

saDdest dAe

was realli nervous in the mornin...called up aunty,n tok tings out...b4 rushin to mit wif huiwen n enen..had lunch todae..n i bought a halter..5 bucks onli la..haha
den met up wif siewling oso..went back to sch to get the results together...
well..overall..our sch sort of improved la..which is gd...mi n huiwen was sittin side by side..n mi feelin damn nervous...im realli scared of my gp...
aft the realli long tok n everythin..den finalli get results...
while waitin n nearin to get results..i started sobbin..i noe it looks veri du lian..but i juz cant help feelin scared ba..
it turned out dat i realli didnt get well...my results realli sux..n i realli failed gp...guess it was juz my own fault for writin it out of pt..tot failin gp was the last ting i can fail..the rest of my results arent dat gd either...all gt d..dat means all 50 plus..was abit diappointed..tot my lep mayb beta abit..chem at least pass la..but all Ds..its like so wad lo...i didnt even dare to c my own results..en help mi c n broke the news dat i failed..luckily she was thr..i was cryin n leanin onto her for sumtime..thnx pal..tho u nv get dat gd results either..i could nt stop cryin..juz feel dat im realli lan in jc..n the principal was right..i hv a high percentage of nt gettin into a uni...i feel dat i let down all my tutors n teachers..esp my eng tutor..he muz b real shocked dat i actuali failed my gp..guess i juz deserve it...feelin horrible deep inside...juz realli pain...
finali cool down a while..n try to browse thru those booths they had..several unis..once i told them i failed gp..n roughly our results..they juz frown..so roughly can c la..dun hv to sae anythin else...
was feelin abit beta..aft siewling n en tokin to mi..thnx to u all..realli
i noe its stupid..bit i did locked myself in thr rm..den cry my heart out..look stupid..but i juz could nt stop cryin..duno y oso...
was watchin tv ltr..did help mi a bit in my mood...den tok on fone wif friend..thnx pal..i realli felt beta...
guess i start to calm down abit liao..so nth to worry...shd b back to my own hapi self soon
hangin out tml..so hope everythin goes well..

i Scare ar...

a bit tense cuz tomolo results will b out...everyone is like tokin bout it..i dun wana hear sia...im sort of prepared for the veri worse liao..if anythin happens..i will juz go to poly lo..no big deal..but i do feel scared la..wadeva
my dae went fine..wrk as usual n sumtimes tok wif the perm staff thr...quite fun la...spend a lot of time smsin ppl..haha..cuz veri sian..
aft dat went out bee n eat at ding tai feng..haha..had a gd dinner..n enjoed myself la..oso gt tk neoprint..so had fun lo..we window shopped..n tok a lot..long time nv do dat liao sia..
came hm at 8 plus..aft i washed up..faster watched my show..haha..love the 9pm show lo..so nice..
dun tink i wana slp earli todae..wana mk myself tired so dat i can dun tink too much ba..eatin lunch wif en n huiwen b4 mitin wif our fate..hope i wun get too sadden ba..best of luck to myself

fUn..

wrk was as usual sian..actuali slpt cuz nth to do..was waken up by mrs foo..haha..mi veri bad hor..fancy slpin at wrk..afternoon den gt a lot of wrk..haha//tomolo den continue to do ba...
was actuali surprised dat my busy friend will cum over n mit mi la..which is gd..cuZ after dat mitin dage n gf for dinner..i dun wana b a bright bulb lo..we chatted den dage join us liao..bought food den we settle down n chat..well..tho the combi is kinda weird..but had fun la..
dage n gf left earlier..den juz left friend n mi...we walked ard n chatted along the way..hv fun..get to noe my friend more beta ba..one more gd friend added to my life..yeah..hehe
aft dat went to potong pasir pasa malang..nth thr de..onli food..so xuan n mi juz bought sum food n eat...missed my 9pm show..sad sia...tomolo muz watched liao..fri is nearin..im gettin pretty scared liao..tinkin of all kinds of bad scenarios...
hope everythin goes well ba
i tink wad xuan sae is rite...shd nt b rash...n walk a step at a time..n i tink i will go another way ba..in stead of stonin thr..n becumim more n more like sum idiot like dat...whrs my dignity n everythin liao...my independent woman side shd cum out de..so ya..goin to promise myself nt to tink too much..n i noe i can do it de..so jiayou

tiRin dAe...

once again..dragged myself to wrk..realli slpy sia...while wrkin..i sort of fell aslp mani times..n my eyes were teary n kept yawnin..veri jialat sia...realli muz slp earli todae liao...tot i didnt do much todae...nt much wrk,spend a lot of time changin the settings n display of my computer...realli too sian liao...haha
veri tired la..drag myself hm...den juz stone in front of tv...help mom mark papers..sianz
heard dat our results r cfm out tis fri...urgh...im o totally freaked out..i noe i screwed up my gp..den the rest..haix...dun c too much hope in my results...well..still hope dat i can at least pass my alevels la...like dat den can proceed on ma
ulcer stilll hurts as usual...feel so swollen tho it doesnt look swollen la.. my entire left side of the gums n teeth is hurtin too..juz nw stomach pain oso...urgh..pain all over my body...hope everythin goes away tomolo ba...lookin fwd to outings wif friends...
dun tink too much liao...juz focus in wad i wan nw..juz let nature tks its course..nt much hope de...so dun put too much hope